Are You Seeking the Light or Just Dancing With the Dark?
A Guide to Spiritual Discernment COPYRIGHT © 2000 BY PETER W. NEWTON
UPDATED AND REVISED IN 2004 AND 2007
- This Book is Dedicated To
- Mary Joyce von Cappelen Kruse,
whose constant love, wisdom, and infinite
patience enabled me to awaken and
continue on my spiritual path.
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- Peter W. Newton
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I want to thank every person I have ever spent any time around in my business as well as personal life. You know who you are, and you know you are too numerous to count and to mention. Each and every one of you has taught me something that is somewhere in this book. In addition, I’d like to thank the many authors whose books I cite. Your writings influenced and encouraged me to seek nothing less than the truth. A special thanks to Carla Lisbeth Rueckert, Jim McCarty, and the late Don Elkins for their efforts in bringing the Law of One material into modern existence. The Law of One material enabled me to fit the many pieces of the puzzles together.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Introduction
Endorsements
Early in Life
Starting to Awaken
The Beach House Lessons
Fell in Love With Christ but
Searching for the Answers When Joyce Arrived
"Life is Like a Bank Account"
Meeting the Tampa Group and the Entity Called FORM
Learning, Growing, and Experiences
Seeing the Big Picture and Finding the Law of One
Evil Exists Only in the Minds of Men?
The Price of Dancing With the Dark
Connecting at 70 Miles Per Hour
Reincarnation, Karma, and Meditation
Thoughts and Observations About Our Future
Putting It All Together
Welcome to the website for my book on spiritual discernment. I've spent the last 30 years of my life asking questions that many of us have pondered: Why are we here on this planet? Is there intelligent life elsewhere in the Universe? If there are intelligent life forms elsewhere, are they friendly towards humans? Speaking of human beings, why are some so inhumane to their fellow human beings? Is reincarnation a reality? Is the system of Karma, meaning a system of justice and balancing of one's actions, a reality? How do some psychics and channels actually get their information that they pass on to others in readings? Why do the teachings of Jesus and Buddha stress love and forgiveness, while so many organized religions teach us, in varying degrees, to fear God? Through years of study and meditation on my personal spiritual path, I found the answers to these questions and was surprised at what I discovered.
I learned that what we call evil doesn't just exist within the minds of mankind, but that there are humans and non-humans (Yes, you could call them aliens.) who are dedicated to service-to-self or what we commonly call evil. Love, kindness, compassion and forgiveness aren't what appeals to these entities, human or alien! Domination, conquering, and enslavement in one form or another, and what some would simply term greed, is what these beings are dedicated to.
I never set out to find evil or the Dark, I just wanted to know the answers to the questions above. I wanted to believe that all aliens who visit us come in peace and wished all mankind well, but that just wasn't the truth that I found.
I discovered that God is all about love and has nothing to do with judgment and retribution. Judgment and retribution were never from God, but lies put out by the Dark! The Dark doesn't want mankind to have an accurate or true understanding of God and has done an amazing job of manipulating mankind's understanding of God through organized religions.
I found that the Dark commonly channel an entire book to writers who are thoroughly convinced that they are communicating with Mary, Jesus, an angel, and most commonly a "spirit guide." These writers are fooled into doing the Dark's work for them on Earth. The Dark will often supply as much as 99 percent spiritual truth in some books just to get a few of their significant lies across to humankind. Some of these books are the top selling books in New Thought today and can be readily found in the major chain stores that sell books.
The Dark's biggest and most successful lie of all is that they don't exist anywhere in the Universe, but only in the minds of mankind! Since the Dark have been so successful with this lie, today there are countless psychics and channels totally unaware that they are receiving messages from the Dark and passing them on to others! This misinformation coming from the Dark has often destroyed and, in some cases, literally caused the deaths of people who put too much stock in the readings they received.
I wrote the last paragraph above, in '99, when I wrote this book. In the spring of 2007 I learned that two people I wrote about in '99 who were being fooled, or used by the Dark, have recently died! One was a man, named Dan, who channeled an entity that I called FORM in this book and the other was a woman minister, named Barbara, of a local metaphysical church who once sent me much needed healing energy. I knew and liked them both. However, they were convinced that they were helping others with their channeling. Both of these individuals died recently, and at an unusually young age, when they figured out for themselves "who" they were actually doing work for. In addition to the two I just mentioned, a Lightworker friend named Karen, just informed me about the sudden death of a close friend. Her close friend, Ariel, 45, a former architect, just died in a head on car crash on October 6, 2007. Through Karen I learned that Ariel had been channeling a negative (Dark) entity who was posing as her "Spirit Guide." Karen had seen Ariel the day before she died and told me that she as well as others, noticed that Ariel was acting very strangely, and was giving away all of her worldly possessions just hours before her death. When the Dark gains someone's confidence they will assist the Lightworker in helping other people with their problems. This assistance will appear to benefit the individual being helped. What is really going on, is that the Dark has an agenda that is not hardly in the best interest of the person channeling the Dark, or the person receiving the help. The Dark will often use somebody for years, before the true nature of their agenda shows itself. Then, when the Lightworker who is being used starts to figure out who they are actually channeling, or when the Dark no longer desires to use them, they end up dieing of what appears on the surface as normal deaths. To those in the know, these aren't normal deaths, but instead the workings of the Dark. Needless to say, the Dark didn't want these three Lightworkers to write a "tell all" type book or talk about being fooled and used by the Dark. I advise later on in this book to never attempt to channel by yourself, but to use caution and a lot of discernment, with a group, if you must channel at all.
I know that some New Thought souls may say or think that just reading about the Dark could be dangerous and that just isn't so! I have been using the law of attraction for decades prior to the book and movie called the Secret coming out. I wrote a small section on "manifesting," another name for attracting, which remains unchanged since '99, at the back of this book. Reading about and gaining knowledge, that may help you or another old soul figure things out and make life more understandable, isn't going to bring the Dark to you.
This Earth of ours is quarantined by the forces of Light so that souls can make "free will" choices in establishing whether they want to be service-to-self, or service-to-others, as Christ and Buddha were advocating, without being disturbed in the process. By this I mean that the Dark has to operate by established rules of conduct on this planet. The forces of Light who sent Christ and Buddha to Earth make up 90% of all the intelligent life forces in all the Universes, and the Dark only account for approximately 10% of the beings out there. The forces of Light protect this planet and only allow the Dark certain limited interactions with the human beings here. Because of this, no human being has to ever fear or feel discomfort from the Dark! The power of love that Jesus, Buddha and others taught mankind is far stronger than the power of fear. Love does conquer all, and is the armor that, when combined with faith, is impenetrable. This is all spelled out clearly in the pages of my book.
It took years of my own "Dancing with the Dark" to recognize who and what they are, how they work, and how they have worked through the ages.
I am not affiliated with, nor do I belong to, any church. Am I a man who has led a perfect life? Hardly. I know that writing this book will please many individuals and groups, and most certainly upset others. My one and only goal is to provide those with an interest in knowing the truth about spirituality a way of discerning when they are being lied to by the Dark. In this new millennium, spiritual discernment will become more difficult for mankind as things continue to speed up in more ways than one.
I don't for a second claim to have all the answers for mankind, but do know that some of the most significant answers have been shown to me to share with those who will listen.
I've been told by several people who see auras, that among the old souls presently on the Earth, I am one of the very oldest. Regardless of how old a soul I may be, it doesn't make me any better or greater than any other being on this earth; perhaps only older. I view becoming an old soul as a process we all must undertake. It is a fairly automatic process for all souls. Sometimes with age comes wisdom. If indeed that is what I have to offer, then I am humbly grateful for this opportunity to serve.
Peter W. Newton
“Ever wonder why some spiritual teachers rub you the wrong way? Why some New Age teachings seem really wrong? If you have, then Are You Seeking the Light or Just Dancing With the Dark? Is for you! With honesty, candor, and maturity, Peter Newton reveals the cosmic forces of good and evil that affect New Age teachers and all ET channels. He explains the importance of discernment and listening to the inner voice – and gives us the tools to help evaluate the information that comes our way. I strongly recommend this book.”
--Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., From Elsewhere: Being ET in America, Universal Vision: Soul Evolution and the Cosmic Plan
“Peter Newton has written an excellent book, based on his considerable personal experience as a spiritual seeker, that should be “must” reading for anyone who is experiencing resistance, difficulties, and psychic disturbances and greetings along the metaphysical journey’s path. In clear language he elucidates how psychic greeting works and what to do about it. I recommend this book wholeheartedly.”
--Carla Lisbeth Rueckert, A Channeling Handbook
My first encounter with a church was the Congregational Church in Alston, Massachusetts. It was a few blocks away from the apartment that my mother and I shared on Warren Street in Brighton, both Brighton and Alston being part of Boston. It was the fall of 1954. I was nine and had just come to live with her full-time. Prior to then, she had boarded me out with families in the Boston area and would come to get me to spend weekends with her. They didn't have day-care centers in those days, and all her relatives lived in towns outside Boston that required a subway and train ride to get to. She never drove or owned a car.
My mother had divorced my dad when I was around two. This action that no doubt saved her sanity also got her ex-communicated from the Catholic Church that she had been raised in. It was ironic. Here she was a single mom in a day and time when society in general frowned upon single moms, and her church disowned her too. She herself didn't go to the church she sent me to. I suppose she felt a bit alienated with organized religion, but apparently felt that I should attend Sunday school. I went there for a couple of months, and then, without any warning, she had a massive stroke and died the week before Christmas.
I went to Denver to live with my mom's sister and her husband when tragedy struck again. My father, who had been living in Florida, found out that my mother had died and petitioned the Massachusetts courts for custody of me. He won. My father, and his new wife, a waitress, were both alcoholics and bragged to their friends about the Social Security survivor's check that came with me and that paid their rent each month. My stepmother died eight years later in her late thirties of cirrhosis of the liver. They moved frequently, and I often attended three or four schools in a year. I endured a considerable amount of physical and mental abuse from the two of them, but I was never in one school long enough for teachers to notice. I joined the Air Force at 17 to get away from them. During the years I lived with them, neither ever expressed the slightest interest in any religion or spirituality.
I mention all of this not to elicit sympathy, but to give you some idea of the influences early in my life. Nothing in our lives of any significance takes place by chance. My troubled childhood served to give me strength, which I've summoned whenever needed.
"God does not play dice with the universe." Albert Einstein (bite-size einstein: Quotations on Just About Everything From the Greatest Mind of the Twentieth Century, compiled by Jerry Maher and John P. Holms, St. Martin's Press, 1996, P.56)
The value systems I received were all instilled in me by my mother and her relatives. Her mother was from Germany and her dad was from Sweden. My mom was very close to her dad and her Swedish aunt, and she and I spent many weekends with them and their families. Were they churchgoers? No, actually very few of them were. They were, however, a fairly close family that to this day care about and, for the most part, know how to love one another. They imparted the values to me that were commonly passed on to children of my day (I was born in 1945) by the many different ethnic cultures that came to America from Europe at the turn of the last century.
Joining the Air Force at seventeen was good for me. I served four years, worked on jet fighters, got a high school equivalency diploma and was honorably discharged as a sergeant during the Vietnam War. After leaving the Air Force in late 1966, I came back to St. Petersburg, a city I had loved and spent the most time growing up in.
I got a job with Dictaphone Corporation as a service representative. With the job came an education as to how society really functioned in the workplace. In those days Dictaphone had a corner on the dictation market, and I went into hospitals, police stations, insurance companies, courts and multitudes of other businesses, daily, for a half-a-dozen years. I witnessed things such as one doctor chewing out another for misdiagnosing a patient, who as a result of the misdiagnosis was now lying on an autopsy table. I saw a seemingly mild-mannered psychiatrist have a temper tantrum when the patients had left his office. I saw an insurance company in St. Petersburg scurry to have its agents cancel property insurance as fast as its people could dial the phone. (Race riots racked St. Pete in the summer of '68 and parts of the town burned.) I saw that same insurance company pay its insurance adjusters bonuses for paying out the least in claims, and then overheard the conversations as the adjusters made "deals" that short-changed the insured. That job showed me the good and the bad about how people acted in their workplaces.
I then worked twelve years at a job that showed me how people acted and treated each other in their homes. I worked for Sears selling installed home-improvement products and went into thousands of homes. The homes I visited made up a cross-section of society. I remember one Saturday morning giving a fence estimate to a millionaire who owned a TV and several radio stations. He was friendly and unpretentious, but seemed lonely and unhappy. His home was huge and musty-smelling, and felt as though there wasn't much love in it. I went from his mansion, only a few miles away, to a happy home filled with love. It was a black family who was so poor that as I was sitting on their couch, I could literally see the ground through the large cracks in their floor. I learned countless lessons about life, people, and society in general in those two jobs.
During those two jobs I was married and divorced. My dysfunctional childhood from the age of ten on had left me clueless about how to give or receive love, or how relationships were supposed to work. One of the most positive things that happened in those years was the birth of my son, Doug, in 1971. He and I have always been very close.
Because of the nature of many things I have discovered about spirituality that I will be talking about in the rest of the book, I anticipated that you would want to know some of my background. I kept it brief and think you will realize that I have not come from a religious or spiritual background. The thoughts and opinions I express in this book are strictly my own.
My first real spiritual stirring took place in 1973. I was in a novelty store in Tyrone Square Mall in St. Petersburg when I came across the Desiderata for the very first time. As I stood there in the garishly lit store reading those profound words of wisdom, a spark was ignited within me that burns to this day to know the truth about Spirit. The Desiderata talked about having a right to be on Earth and the freedom to view God as I would choose to. The entire document is just a little over 300 words and contains what I have found to be many universal truths and profound wisdom about all aspects of life. For many years the myth existed that the Desiderata was found in a church in Baltimore in 1692, author unknown. It was really written by a man named Max Ehrmann who lived from 1872 to 1945 and wrote and copyrighted it in 1927. Regardless of when he lived, no doubt the words of wisdom have impacted many. The words in the Desiderata got me thinking about what I was doing here on Earth. I mean, how did I get here, and where did I come from? Conventional Christian teachings I had been exposed to prior to reading the Desiderata would have me believe that life was a single go around. Living only once and then going to either heaven or hell just never ever felt even remotely right to me. My knowingness told me that that concept was and is false.
Up until that day in the mall, my interest in spirituality had been confined to watching Hollywood's version of Christ through movies. I always admired and was quite fascinated with the "Christ" portrayed in these movies, but, again, the heaven or hell concept was the main thing that kept me from going to a church. I believe I watched every movie that Hollywood ever made about Christ several times each. The more I learned about Christ, the more he became my hero, and the more I wished that I could feel comfortable with the heaven or hell issue. But I simply couldn't. I have to admit that I was also turned off in those days by many of the "religious" people that crossed my path. I found many of them to be judgmental and hypocritical, far from the loving person that Christ was portrayed as being in those movies I so fondly loved watching.
In the early- to- mid '70s I did try a Congregational church for about six months, which I considered to be a middle-of-the-road Protestant church. The church and minister were both short on "fire and brimstone," but I didn't feel comfortable or the least bit inspired there. To me, it seemed as though the members of the church were just going through the motions of going to church. It was as if they were there because it was expected of them.
Shortly after trying the Congregational church I encountered a book that really accelerated my search for the truth about God and spirituality. I was involved in a long-term relationship with a woman in her early twenties who had an older, close relative tell her a story in strictest confidence. This relative told her about being in a car accident and leaving her body -- what is nowadays commonly called a near-death experience. Now, you have to picture this older relative as a woman who was brought up very conservatively and lived and acted very conservatively. She was approximately twenty years older, a professional woman, and telling her story to the woman I was involved with because, as she told her, "She had to tell someone." When this older relative told her story, I hadn't come into the picture yet. There is a good chance that it wouldn't have been told if there had been a possibility that it might be shared.
She had been in a small car that was broadsided at an intersection in Clearwater, Florida, and found herself floating above the car and watching the paramedics free her from the car. She had some of the typical near-death experiences, such as seeing the bright light and being told it wasn't her time yet. When the story was related to me, I was fascinated and wanted to know more about what happened, but, since the story was told in confidence, that wasn't possible. I remember thinking to myself that both women were very sincere and honest and that nothing was gained by either one of them in the telling of this story. Could it be real?
My answer came fairly quickly. A few months after being told about this experience, I came across an excerpt of Dr. Raymond Moody's Life After Life in Reader's Digest.
I was astounded, for here were literally the exact same things being described about people who had "died" but come back. I immediately went out and bought the book and couldn't read it fast enough. It was the mid '70s and I remember the feeling that I had as I was reading this book. I had the distinct feeling that I was "remembering" how things really are. The book resonated with me and brought me a lot of peace of mind about death and my own mortality. In the years since reading Life After Life I have come across other books on this subject, and I've met several people who have had NDEs (near-death experiences). I'm totally convinced that the soul lives on after death, and that reincarnation is the reality.
Chapter 3, The Beach House Lessons
In 1978, I went through a divorce that left me emotionally drained. Like many of us, I had wanted to have the 2.5 children we were all supposed to have in those days and live happily ever after. Alas, my wife spread her wings and set out to find the bright lights. When she served me with papers, I went to see a St. Petersburg divorce attorney that I knew from my years with Dictaphone. Tom, who I first met in '67, early in his law career, was himself divorced. Despite his wealth and popularity, Tom always was an unpretentious person, unlike some of the attorneys whose machines I serviced in those days. We hit it off the first time we met.
While talking with Tom about the papers I had been served, I told him I intended to take my share of the money from my house about to be sold and buy "toys." I told him that I was going to buy a brand new sports car and a Hobie Cat catamaran sailboat. He told me that he had just bought a beach house on one of the local beaches to "kick around at on the weekends," and asked if I'd like to keep my Hobie at his beach house. I immediately said yes, and he had his chauffeur/handyman get a key for his beach house made for me.
The house was located on Sunset Beach, which is part of Treasure Island, one of the connected islands on the Gulf next to St. Petersburg. A classic bachelor's pad, it had several bedrooms and all the conveniences, including a hot tub that adjoined a big back deck overlooking the beach. I taught Tom what I knew about sailing, and he and some of his friends taught me the finer points of losing one's self in wine, women and song, as the saying goes. I was driving a new Datsun 280ZX, had a new sailboat, plenty of women to date, and could come and go and entertain dates at the beach house whenever I wanted to.
Over the Christmas holidays, I went in Tom's limo with his entire office staff to the airport where a chartered Lear jet flew us to Freeport in the Bahamas. When we got there, limos took us to several adjoining suites at the Bahama Princess Towers, where we stayed for a long weekend.
Initially I enjoyed the new lifestyle presented to me, but I kept feeling like something was missing. I tried to convince myself that I was happy, or surely should be happy. The fact of the matter was that this new lifestyle wasn't bringing me any happiness or peace of mind. As I spent more time around Tom and his friends, I discovered that they weren't particularly happy either.
Like a lot of people, we thought that buying and having new "toys" would bring happiness, and it never does. One adopts the erroneous philosophy that I will be happy when...I buy the new car, make "X" amount of dollars, and the list goes on forever. One of the examples of being ego driven instead of spiritually seeking occurred just after I bought my new 280ZX. Tom had a Cadillac convertible and a limo, but he didn't have a sports car, so he promptly went out and bought a new Corvette. His 'Vette was only a few days old when he invited me to drive it from his home on Park Street to the beach house. We were only a few blocks from his house when I bottomed out his brand new car on the rough red bricks of Park Street. I remember apologizing to him for driving the 'Vette over the bump in the road hard enough that it bottomed out. He said, "Don't worry about it." What struck me at the moment, though, was the look on his face of embarrassment, as if he, not his car, had bottomed out. The following week he bought a new Mercedes 450 convertible that wouldn't bottom out at that spot in the road.
After a year and a half of keeping my sailboat at Tom's beach house, I needed to get away from him and the negativity of the lifestyle, so I moved my sailboat to another friend's place. Giving Tom the key back to his beach house was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. How do you tell a friend you care about that just being around him and most of his friends was bumming you out? I never looked back or regretted my decision to leave that environment.
I didn't truly understood Tom and his personality until many years later. In early '92, about six months before Tom died of a heart attack at 56, the St. Petersburg Times wrote a several-page profile. The writer spent several days with him and really captured a lot of what he was about. Tom was a man who basically lived for the enjoyment of doing his job. He enjoyed being the most successful and well-known divorce attorney in the area, and he confessed he didn't have a "life" outside of his law practice.
In my opinion, the reason that Tom didn't have a life outside of work was because of his lack of belief in any higher power. He had zero interest in anything spiritual. I tried on many occasions to talk with him about the subject but never got anywhere. The furthest I got was giving him a gift of a little plaque with the Desiderata on it. He read it once and then hung it in a bathroom. Later in this book I will be talking about spiritual systems of service to self or service to others. Most people choose one or the other, and once in a while a man like Tom comes along who tries to live his life sitting on the fence.
I knew this friend and acquaintance, who left behind an estate worth eight million, for 25 years of my life. I will remember him as a man who sometimes acted happy on the outside, but was truly sad, lonely and hollow on the inside.
I learned invaluable lessons about life and my own self at that beach house. I learned firsthand that money and status can't begin to buy happiness or peace of mind. I saw that when one ties one's self-worth and happiness into things and possessions, the lifestyle always requires bigger and better to achieve an artificial form of happiness. I learned that lives without Spirit in them are lives with something painfully missing.
Chapter 4, Fell in Love With Christ but...
In the fall of '80, after learning that no amount of wine, women and song, or possessions, would bring any happiness into my life, I turned to Christ. A buddy who I played tennis with and had known years earlier when he and I were in marriages that didn't work, had also been trying my failed road to happiness. He had reached the same conclusions that I had, only in different ways, and had come to accept Christ at a local fundamentalist church. Shortly after he did this, he immediately started to sell me on the concept of how accepting Christ had brought him tremendous peace of mind.
Within about a month I had followed suit. I had wholeheartedly joined and immediately immersed myself in the church and congregation and began to experience a feeling of peace of mind and great comfort. I remember getting up in front of the congregation and spelling out to them in a "testimony" my past experiences that were not admirable. I also got baptized in a large "dunking" tank that was built into the front of the church.
About six months after I became a member, the pastor and board of directors of this 300-member church decided to have a capital funds campaign to raise money to buy additional land alongside of the church because the congregation was growing. The pastor asked me to be in charge of the promotion committee, with the main goal of putting out a brochure to the congregation. I ended up putting out a brochure on a shoestring budget that really got the job done. In fact I even received a letter from the church's home office thanking me and recognizing my efforts. The reason I mention this is because I want you to understand that for almost one year's time I was really into this church and being a fundamentalist Christian, until...
I started having doubts about many things. The fundamentalist viewpoint about reincarnation was one of the things that got to me. They believe that each soul lives only once and that at the end of that soul's time on earth the soul goes to a heaven or a hell. I had a very hard time with this viewpoint because each time I heard this rigid philosophy there was a part of me that said, "No way!" It just didn't feel right, and my "knowingness" told me it wasn't the truth.
This first surfaced when, after being a member for about a year, I was expected to get involved with what the church called EE -- Evangelism Explosion. It was a practice at this church where two women and a man or two men and a woman would go out into people's homes in the community to "witness for Christ." This group of three people, once inside someone's home, would start things off with asking their main question: "If you died this very minute, do you know that your soul would go to heaven for sure?" I ended up viewing this practice as what it was: a scare tactic, pure and simple. Was the intent to really witness for Christ or simply build up the membership of the congregation, or both? I never tried to answer that question because the scare tactic question bothered me to no end.
It wasn't just EE that got to me. It was also hearing people in that church debating whether people of other fundamentalist churches were really saved because "that" church only sprinkles when they baptize, they don't immerse like we do. There simply was too much smugness and elitism going on around me. Often, I witnessed the same people doing a lot of judging on Sundays, then going out into the business community during the week and doing things that I didn't feel were particularly Christian, or in the fairest interest of others.
I ended up ultimately knowing I had to break away from that church, and I did. It was kind of like my beach house days, in the sense that my senses and what I've learned to call my "knowingness" told me to leave and not look back. Leaving that church, and its people, was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I truly loved the Christ that I had found, but even that couldn't hold me there. I also knew that the members of that church didn't associate with people who weren't members and that I would lose a lot of friends, and I did. The buddy who had talked me into joining the church had remarried, and he and his wife were among those who didn't know me after I left.
Chapter 5, Searching for the Answers When Joyce Arrived
I left the fundamentalist church with my love for Christ totally intact and with a very strong desire to know the truth about him and all aspects of spirituality. I already had one Bible but found myself buying another, one in which the things Jesus was supposed to have said were highlighted in red. Over a span of several months, I read the New Testament, about Christ and what he said, over and over trying to come to conclusions. I finally surmised that the most important things that Christ was trying to tell mankind were really just three things. Two of the things he stated as commandments, and I think the third should also have been one. They are quite simple, but yet such essential things, that many overlook them. Christ told us to love God, and to love our fellow man. The part that I think is just as essential is to forgive others and, therefore, not to judge them.
While I was examining what Christ was about, I re-examined my decision numerous times to leave that fundamentalist church. Each time I did, I came to the same conclusions. I could not lie to myself and tell myself that we live once and once only. It made no sense to me from a logical or a feeling perspective. There were other reasons why I left, but if I had to name the main one, it would be the fundamentalist lack of tolerance and understanding of reincarnation.
It was the early summer of 1981 when I met the person who has been the greatest influence in my life. I was working for Sears selling home improvement products when she called Sears for a roof estimate. I was one of six people who sold roofing for Sears that potentially could have been sent to her house. Her name was Mary Joyce von Cappelen Kruse, a very spry 81-year -old who was still driving in the daytime. She lived by herself in a simple wood house in the middle of the city, without a lock on the front door. No lock on her front door was my first clue that she was different.
I was standing in her yard discussing the merits of selecting a light green shingle over the all-white shingle when she looked over my shoulder into the distance and started saying something that got my attention. She told me, "You have a son who is about ten years old who lives with his mother up around the Tennessee area." (My son was ten, and living with his mother in Tennessee at the time!) She continued on, "You and your son are very, very old souls, who, along with other very old souls, have chosen to come to Earth at this time, to aid mankind in the spiritual changes that will take place in your lifetimes." When she got through speaking she acted as though nothing had happened, and I was speechless. Since she acted as though nothing had taken place, and I was totally at a loss to know or explain what had just taken place, I too acted as though nothing out of the ordinary had taken place. I finished writing up her roofing order and left quickly. It wasn't as though I was scared or threatened by her or what she said; I was perplexed and clueless as to what had just transpired. The word dumbfounded also comes to mind.
I went back to Sears and asked if anyone had inquired about me and was told no. The roofing estimate card with her name and address had been shuffled together with other people seeking an estimate for a Sears' roof. They were then given out to the six of us, literally at random and on an even basis. I tried to forget what had happened, but could not forget the words that had been spoken to me and, again, how did she do that? The next day I found a neatly hand-written note underneath my apartment door when I got home. (My name and address were listed in the phone book.) The note thanked me for being courteous and taking care of her roofing needs, and oh, by the way, could we be friends? I didn't know what to think at that point. For several days I pondered what was going on, and who was this woman? I was curious and wanted to know how she had known what she did, and why she said what she had said.
The next day I was adding this event to my pondering when I got some answers. Now, before I tell you what I made of all this, I have to tell you that I have learned through my many years of spiritually seeking that there really aren't any coincidences and that Spirit can and does communicate with us in some very subtle ways. I also need to add that all my life, whenever I've wanted to know the answer to something with enough desire, the answer usually comes within a few days of my asking the question. The answers don't always come in words, but more often a combination of words and feelings. Again, I'll use the word knowingness, for I often simply just know something, and can't even tell myself how I know. At least, that's how it has always worked for me. Okay, back to the answer I received.
What came to me was that my choice of Christ, and the things that he stood for and expounded upon, was not ever going to leave my life. A change had taken place in me. I knew that no amount of money, or material things of any kind on this Earth could ever tempt me to accept a different system. I knew that if I felt this strongly in my beliefs, and I was able to receive information (Jan and a Pisces) that was beyond logic in being able to do, that it was possible that this Joyce was receiving her information from the "good guys" too. I literally felt like I had received a sign from God that it was okay to call this 81-year-old woman who wanted to be my friend, so I did. I don't know who the quote is from, but I've heard that "when the student is ready, the teacher will appear." This is exactly what had taken place, and it was to be the second time in my life that this had happened to me.
Chapter 6, "Life is Like a Bank Account"
I called Joyce and we became instant friends. She and I communicated on a depth I had never experienced with anybody else. She was 45 years older than I was, and so the relationship was always platonic. Although I came to her as a student, she always treated me with a respect that transcended who I am in this life. She was among the most remarkable people I've ever met. Her strength of character and personality were formidable, and one sensed this in her presence. Yet conversely her depths of humbleness and humility were always astounding to me. She was born in Ohio and grew up in Illinois and Wisconsin. She and her husband, a school teacher came to St. Petersburg in the early 1920s. (He died in the mid-'70s.) They raised four successful children of their own and thirteen foster children. She did this in a day and time when there weren't social service agencies and the like, so she received no financial remuneration of any kind. The thirteen children were kids that one way or another found their way to Joyce. She always found a way to feed and clothe them and make room in her little wood-frame house on Queen Street that I found her in. The list of people she had helped through the years was amazing. I met all four of her children and got to know several of them fairly well. She was in many ways the "Mother Teresa" of St. Pete and truly walked her talk of her spiritual beliefs.
Joyce was an example of service to others and practiced the unconditional love that Christ talked about. Catch was, she was totally turned off by organized religion. Like myself, she had broken away from the guilt, fire and brimstone that many churches offered. She studied spirituality and metaphysics her entire life, along with astrology.
Her relationship with God, which she preferred to refer to in a broader definition as the word "Spirit," was a close one. Let me explain her use of the word Spirit that I chose to adopt years ago, which I use in this book. Joyce recognized, as I do, that there is a Divine Power or Force that is the Creator of all. She, like myself, preferred to call God the Creator. Most of the time she would use the word Spirit, which in her way of thinking was God plus all of his subordinates such as the angels and the spirit guides.
Joyce was a brilliant woman who formed her own opinions even when they were counter to the mainstream thought of her day. She was a voracious reader of everything she could get her hands on that pertained to spirituality. She had also studied religion at the college level when Stetson University first came to St. Pete. She was an ordained minister of a church called the Universal Church of the Master, of San Leandro, California, but I never heard her refer to herself as a reverend and never saw her use the title. She told me she got ordained so that she could go into the local jails and prisons to help people. The authorities in St. Pete back in the ‘30s and ‘40s would harass metaphysical people for doing counseling if they weren't an ordained reverend affiliated with a church, she said. Joyce never charged anyone for her help or counseling her entire life. In fact, she wasn't very keen on those that did. Her attitude was that if a psychic, for instance, had a "gift," he or she should share it as much as possible. She recognized they needed an income and said that they should charge modest amounts, or take a love offering. A love offering means the person pays what they can afford or think the service was worth.
One of the first books that Joyce suggested I read was The Lost Years of Jesus Revealed, by the Rev. Dr. Charles Francis Potter. This little paperback published in 1958 was, and remains today, a real eye-opener and served to give me some of the answers that I was seeking. In this book he talks about the Jews who preceded Christ, known as the Essenes, who are credited with having written the Dead Sea Scrolls. Although there have been numerous books written about the Dead Sea Scrolls, I find Dr. Potter's no-frills early edition to be on the money, and in plain English. If Christ was not an Essene, or taught by them, then at the very least, they and their Teacher of Righteousness influenced him. Space doesn't permit me to go into every aspect of this awesome little book, but if you ever suspected that the Bible has been tampered with intentionally by mankind, then read this book. You won't be disappointed. Dr. Potter names what was added and deleted, the date, place and by whom, and all the information he cites can be found in other sources and verified as accurate. If you are the kind of person who has a bumper sticker that says something to the effect of, "God said it, it's in the Bible, and that's the end of it," don't bother to read Dr. Potter's book; it will offend you.
Joyce believed in and participated in metaphysics in St. Petersburg for many decades when it was a very unpopular thing to do. She told me several stories about how people with more rigid spiritual views than her own had tried to make things difficult for her and had done so through the years. For the most part, she really would not let it get to her. She would always tell herself that that was where they were at and that was okay.
She spent many hours a day in her 80's praying and meditating. Towards the beginning of our relationship I got an idea of just how well she was able to manifest things. To manifest something is to put forth a prayer or affirmation to Spirit, or God, or whatever name you find comfortable to refer to the Divine Force in the Universe. In this prayer or affirmation, you state what you want to have happen, and then expect it to happen. The expecting it to happen is having faith that it will take place. A few years after meeting and knowing Joyce, I started to date a woman that I would end up being with for seven years. When she and I first started dating we would go out to eat at local restaurants, every weekend, in the middle of the tourist season here. Now, if you are a native and live in St. Pete and choose to go to certain restaurants that the tourists go to, you know you will have to hunt for parking and have a long wait to be seated. Well, that just wasn't happening. Every week we would go out to eat, and, lo and behold, a parking place would appear at the front door out of nowhere. Instead of a long wait, tables would seemingly appear to open up out of nowhere. This was going on for months and completely baffling the two of us until one day that we had Joyce over for dinner. Joyce, with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eyes, asked us after dinner if we were having any luck finding parking places when we went out to eat on the weekends. In a flash we both knew she was responsible for our remarkable streak of good luck! She said she was just trying to make things easier for us, and indeed she had done so. Her actions helped convince me of the power of positive affirmations.
Joyce never had a regimen of teaching me spirituality; she would present things as the opportunities made themselves available. For instance, one day in the late '80s I was working at home on one of my Native American sculptures. (I left Sears in '85 and had decided to pursue making my living as a self-employed sculptor. I started carving wood about the time my son was born in '71. Remember I said earlier that twice I had a teacher appear when I was ready? In '79, an American master wood carver, who lives in St. Augustine, made me his protege. He had spent three-and-a-half years studying the art/craft in Oberammergau, Germany, and trained me to be an artist on the many weekends that we worked together. In the '80s, I was one of a handful of American wood carvers to be nominated and accepted into the Guild of Master Craftsmen International of the United Kingdom and was also asked to start Florida's first ever statewide wood carving competition and exhibition. This annual event, put on by the Florida State Fair Authority, provided me some income, and I was also teaching wood sculpture at St. Petersburg Junior College. There were also private students that I taught, and of course I was trying to sell my Native American sculptures at art shows throughout the state. So this was where I was at when this lesson of Joyce's took place.) I looked across the street from the studio that was in my house and noticed an elderly neighbor attempting to change a flat tire on his car. I put my sculpting tools down and walked across the street and offered to help. The neighbor was thrilled that I was changing his tire, because it was really a bit more than he was able to do. It only took a few minutes to get his spare put on so that he could drive down to the tire store and have it fixed. As I started across the street to where I lived, the neighbor and his wife both thanked me for my help. If they hadn't thanked me it wouldn't have bothered me very much, as I was glad to help, and besides, I had only spent about ten minutes of time at that. Later on that day, I told Joyce about changing that neighbor's tire when she told me her "life is like a bank account" story. She told me that back in the ‘20s, when she was working as a bookkeeper at a local bank, a strong thought/message had come to her. She said that every time you help someone you make a deposit for your soul, and that every time you harm someone or something, you make a withdrawal from your soul's account. Naturally, at the end of your life you want to have more deposits than withdrawals. "So Peter,” she concluded, “In reality, in a way, you should be thankful for the opportunity for changing their tire, because it gave you the opportunity to make a deposit for your soul." She was totally right and in an instant I recognized that what she had said was completely profound. It was to be about a half -a -dozen years later that I recognized that what she was talking about was a system of service to others. This was one of the main concepts that Christ and Buddha were trying to tell us about.
Joyce also turned me on to the writings of, and about, Edgar Cayce. She felt that Cayce was sincere and that he was giving messages to mankind. In her opinion, he was tuned into the Akashic record (a record of all things that have ever or are likely to take place in our Universe), something I would find confirmed years later in The Law of One. (Much more about this awesome book later on.) Like everything else, she waited for me to find Cayce on my own, and then to ask. That's how it was with all the things she taught me. She strongly believed in the individual's rights of free will and never tried to push something on to me. It just wasn't her nature to do so.
One day, in the late summer of '92, a few months before she died, she told me it was time to tell me some things that she had withheld from me for years. She told me that she had been instructed to withhold these things from me until a time in the future when she would be told to tell me, a time when I would be ready to hear them. She started off by telling me that I had not incarnated on the earth very many times, and that I had mostly been a Native American when I had. She also told me that I was one among a handful of the oldest souls in our Universe in physical form on the earth at this time, and that the spiritual "End Times" talked about in the Bible would take place within my lifetime. She told me that I would have things to do to ensure that the Dark would not have unfair advantages on the earth during the End Times. She said that I would be shown what to do and how, and when to do it, and that I should never worry about these matters. Last, she told me that my mother, who died when I was nine, was an angel, and had come to her several times in her meditations before the day that I had come to her house to do her roof estimate. She said that my mother had asked her to teach me what she knew and to look after me.
Joyce died on October 12, 1992, on my mother's birthday, at almost 91 years of age. Although she was my best friend, and irreplaceable in my life, she and I were glad that she died when she did. The quality of her life deteriorated rapidly in the last few months of her life. She had had a series of small strokes that she had to struggle to recover from each time, and just to communicate had become difficult towards the end. Just shortly before she died, she told me she was ready and that "she had her bags packed." Said she would reserve a seat alongside of her on the switchboard for me. She used to jokingly say that she could picture the two of us as spirit guides/angels working side by side. She always had a great sense of humor and never took herself too seriously. Regardless of who or what I am, or may ever be as a soul, I know that I have been blessed to have been loved and guided by her.
Chapter 7, Meeting the Tampa Group and the Entity Called FORM
A few months before Joyce died, by a series of coincidences, I was led to a group of about a dozen old-soul types who gathered to meet once a week over in Tampa. I had met two women at a Unity church in Tampa on a Sunday and they had struck me as peace-loving, evolved souls who knew how to love. Imagine my surprise when a man I met in Clearwater, on the following Tuesday, introduced me to a group in Tampa, and there were the two women I had just met! I knew that Spirit wanted me to meet this group of people because two separate ways to be led to them were shown to me. I was sure that had a friend not introduced me to the man in Clearwater, then I would have gotten to know the two women better at the Unity church in Tampa. Either way, I knew I was supposed to be a part of this Tampa group that I had just met.
The group consisted of about a dozen people. They were about half male and half female, and the average age would have been late thirties or early forties. Every member of this group was very dedicated to expanding their consciousness and to growing spiritually. They were all highly intuitive and several had a gift for healing people. A couple of them were also able to see colored auras around people. They all knew that they were old souls, somehow connected, and were very harmonious with each other. They welcomed me and I immediately felt very comfortable with them.
They met once a week at the apartment of one of the group members to trade information on a variety of subjects in the realm of spirituality. There was a definite searching or seeking for the truth going on within these people as there was with myself. Meditating as a group was always done at these meetings and would bring an immediate sense of peace from the treadmill-running pace of the work world we all brought through the door with us. One of the things that was wonderful is that you could actually feel the love energy in the air around this group. Any spiritual group who meets with a goal of expanding their love and peace will also experience this. Often, if someone was feeling physically or emotionally low, we would put him or her down in a chair and stand around them and think and radiate love towards that person to heal them. If you were the person sitting in the chair, you could easily feel the love energy and feel yourself healing. Now, I want to point out that any, and I do mean any, group of people can do the same thing with regard to channeling love energy. You simply hold your hands out towards the person in the chair (they can be standing also) and visualize a column of pink healing love energy being directed by your hands directly into the person you are healing, while at the same time thinking love thoughts towards the person. If you go at this with a negative or doubtful attitude about it working, it won't work. One of the most important things I can tell you in this book is this: Anytime you are praying, trying to manifest something, or doing a healing on someone, you must believe that it will work, or nothing happens. Sometimes you won't be able to believe at first, so in that case, you fake it until you make it. The more that you are around others that know how to believe the less that you will need to fake it, for you will start to believe also. Now is not the place in this book to expound on why it is so important to believe; I will save it for later on, but I will tell you that when you have belief, you are having faith. This is one of the important things Christ was trying to teach mankind.
One of the things that I discovered very quickly as a common denominator type thing with the group, and other old souls I was to meet later in the Tampa Bay area, was that eating red meat falls away from us as we grow spiritually. It was strange: several months before joining this group, I had turned down a free steak dinner on my birthday in favor of a local fish called grouper. That was when I had started really noticing that I had very little desire for red meat. In fact, it just didn't digest the same in my body any longer. Within two months of my birthday, I had stopped eating beef, pork, and lamb and had resorted to eating fish, chicken and turkey instead. It wasn't something that I had made some kind of a conscious decision about; it simply just took place in my life. I found that nobody in that group was eating red meat, and, like myself, it had just simply fallen away from each of them.
The group ran itself quite harmoniously without the need for one person to be in charge, although one could see that a few in the group were thought of as perhaps older or wiser and were looked up to. One of these, a woman named Margaret, lived here in St. Pete, like myself. She and I became friends. I remember our first conversation because she was one of the ones who saw auras. She told me that she knew who I was by looking at my aura. "So who am I?" I replied. She proceeded to describe my aura, but not just the aura itself. She told me that there were geometric shapes that "floated" above my head that told her that I was an extremely old soul. She went on to explain that she was hearing the word "watcher" being told to her by her intuition when she asked herself what these shapes meant. Margaret then said, matter of factly, "I think your main job in this incarnation is to counter the forces of darkness." By now, being told this kind of thing didn't rattle me, though it did increase my curiosity. Another of the leader types told me similar things about myself, and I filed that away, too.
Once a month the majority of people in the group would gather together to listen to a channel, and they invited me to join them, which I did. Before I tell you about the experience let me explain a little about channeling. A channel is a person who changes his or her consciousness by going into a deep form of meditation, or trance. When channelers are in this state of mind, they then allow an entity, or personality, to speak to them or through them. There are a few channelers that are able to stay conscious when they channel, but they are very rare and usually have been channeling for a very long time. When the personality speaks through them they usually will have a different voice than their own. Usually the channeler's mannerisms, such as hand gestures and posture, will also change.
We drove to an apartment complex in the Tampa Bay area where we were admitted to a fairly large, modern apartment where the channeler lived. He appeared to be in his forties, quite outgoing and friendly. After about 15-20 guests showed up and seated themselves in a semi-circle in front of his recliner, John the channel sat down and proceeded to put himself into a trance. Within a few minutes, after a bit of trembling, John's personality did a complete transformation as the entity that calls itself "FORM" started talking. (FORM is an acronym of the entity's name.) FORM greeted everyone and was quite obviously looking through John's eyes. My very first gut feeling as I watched FORM talk was an uncomfortable one. When I asked myself why I was feeling this way, I immediately knew it was because I felt that FORM was an entity from the Dark, not the Light. It was nothing that he was saying that made me feel this way. On the contrary, what he was saying was phenomenal. The words of wisdom about love, life, health and relationships were profound!
Because the message was so powerful, and because the people I was with were so in support of this entity, I didn't dwell on this thought and feeling that FORM was from the Dark. I simply didn't want to believe that. I was warned ahead of time not to interrupt him when he was talking or to arrive late; FORM didn't like either. He would use a type of sarcasm to let the late person know he didn't appreciate his or her being late. He would do it with such intelligent wit and tact that latecomers often didn't realize that he was admonishing them. The majority of the audience kept a very low profile lest they be the targets of his biting wit.
Another reason they kept a low profile was because it quickly became apparent that FORM was able to read their thoughts as they were thinking things. He would be talking with someone and often tell them their thoughts, or gently nudge the truth out of them if they tried to hold back. This was very unnerving and took some getting used to. One thing for sure, this wasn't John putting on an act or faking it. The intelligence that FORM exhibited in conversing with several people simultaneously, and with total recall, and then being able to pick up where he left off on subject matter that was rather deep, was beyond impressive. I never entertained any thoughts that John could be faking all this because it was very apparent that no human possessed the I.Q. we were witnessing.
FORM went for about an hour and a half and would take a break to rest John. John would go lie down for about a half-hour while the guests mingled and would then return. He would put himself into a trance again, and FORM would be there. FORM would then talk for about another hour and then lead those gathered in a meditation. As he guided the group through the meditation, FORM talked about raising the energy level in the room, and that's exactly what he did. The love energy in the room that FORM generated was quite real and intense, as though you could cut it with a knife.
At the end of all this, my friends from the Tampa group asked me what I thought about all that had taken place. I told them about the gut feeling I had about FORM being a Dark entity posing as serving the Light. They didn't want to begin to entertain this thought. They were very adamant that FORM was from and serving the Light. I was to discover later that the ones who were most adamant weren't just tied into FORM's monthly sessions, but had also gone for private one-on-one readings with FORM. Since I wanted to be accepted and fit in, I kept silent about my thoughts about who or what FORM was in the months that followed.
Chapter 8, Learning, Growing, and Experiences
I quickly put my initial gut feelings about FORM behind me and assumed that he was from the "Good Guys." After all, his messages about life and love were so educational. At the urgings of some of the Tampa group I even went to him for several personal readings. I had even rationalized to myself that FORM's habit of cleverly putting people on the spot, of course always with great tact and cleverness, was just his "personality" showing through. I did, however, tape both the personal readings and the monthly meetings and would analyze every session. By doing this, over time, I started to see a pattern emerge, which I will discuss a bit later on.
I had quit trying, after seven years of effort, to support myself as an artist. I had to put in 70-80 hours per week just to make ends meet, and I wanted more time to put into my spiritual studying and reading. My consciousness had increased to where I would have felt too uncomfortable using my intuition to have gone back into sales. I wanted to do something that would allow me to use my hand-eye coordination and art skills, so I went to work for a dental lab. In early '93 I also sold my house to give me more time and money to further my studies of spirituality.
I found a group in the St. Pete area that was very similar in a lot of ways to the Tampa group. They met at a metaphysical bookstore for about six months and had about twenty-five people participating once a week. The very first night that I was at the St. Pete group, a woman named Darla approached me at the break. Darla was considered by this group as probably the most psychic, and she also saw auras. She asked my permission to share with me what she was seeing in my aura, and I agreed. She told me that there was a fairly large geometric shape floating directly above my head in my aura. She proceeded to draw the shape of it, and it resembled what a cartoonist might draw as a lightning bolt. Darla went on to tell me that she had never seen anything like it floating in other people's auras, and that her intuition told her that I was a very strong soul incarnated here to show people spiritual truth. She only stayed in this area for about six months and then went back to Dallas where she had come from. While she was here we became friends and she also gave me several psychic readings.
Shortly after Darla left St. Pete I had another unusual experience. I was having dinner with my friend Margaret at the Hurricane, a popular seafood restaurant on St. Petersburg Beach, on a Sunday afternoon. A young woman in her early twenties was sitting with a couple about her same age and was staring quite a lot at Margaret and me as we ate. After a bit, she walked over to our table and just awkwardly stood there for a few seconds before speaking. She asked Margaret and me if we were psychics, and Margaret and I looked at each other and smiled at each other. We are both very intuitive, but don't consider ourselves to be psychics. We asked the young woman to join us. As she sat down, Margaret turned to her and said, "You see our auras, don't you?" The woman said, "Yes," and added that she hadn't seen auras like ours, except once in the past she had seen a psychic whose aura was similar to ours. Not being able to see auras myself, I’d always had a certain amount of skepticism when Margaret and Darla described seeing my aura. The perfect stranger staring at me and then feeling compelled to walk up to me at the restaurant ended my skepticism right then and there!
From the late 80s, until just recently, I have gone to numerous psychics in the Tampa Bay area. Things that Joyce had told me had raised a desire in me to find out more about who I was and what I was supposed to do here in this incarnation. On top of that, people telling me they were seeing things in my aura were obviously sparking my curiosity, too. Besides who I was, my other main subject of interest, that I would ask questions about, was relationships and when my mate was to show up in my life. I would hear about psychics mostly from friends. If the psychic was supposed to be very good and accurate then I would go to him or her. I would generally go to the psychic at least twice, and often three or four times. Each time I went I would record them. I would prepare questions ahead of time and then would compare the tapes and write out notes to myself as to what I felt was going on. I would make a mental note to myself if I heard something during a reading that didn't resonate with me. In other words, did what was being told to me feel like the truth, or could it have possibly been a lie? I also would make note if the psychic during the reading would say he, she, or they, such as "They are telling me..." In all, I went to at least twenty psychics. I started going to them looking for answers, until I learned enough about true spirituality to know that you can never solve your problems or really get your answers through psychics. The last half dozen I went to were strictly as research. I learned a lot and found patterns going on.
The Tampa group ended up becoming uncomfortable for me and my friend Margaret. Several of the members got into channeling, and, in my opinion, they weren't too discerning about whom or what they channeled. They weren't challenging the entities that came through. They would bring in any entity that came to them without much concern as to whether it was serving the Light or the Dark.
At the same time I was going to the Tampa group, I had met a woman in St. Pete who had gotten into channeling. She started channeling an entity that called itself Ashtar. I knew from what she was telling me that this Ashtar wasn't a positive entity. At the time, I also was in communication with a friend in Arizona who had told me that a lot of people out there had experienced channeling an entity named Ashtar that claimed to be a positive entity but turned out to be from the Dark. They had found out that if several strong-willed people challenged whether it served the Light or not, it would leave. I spent a lot of time trying to educate my St. Pete acquaintance on the differences between positive and negative entities and the need for discernment by challenging an entity to be sure that you are communicating with a positive one. I wasn't successful with her. She had been trying for the past several years to get any entity to come to her, so that when Ashtar showed up, she only half-heartedly challenged it. Any challenging must always be done with one hundred percent conviction that it will work, or it won't! Since the entity was talking about love, this woman, who was an engineer, allowed the entity to appeal to her ego and ended up leaving St. Pete in a hurry when it told her to move. A year later, an acquaintance of hers told me she even let the mortgage company foreclose on her condo. I later found that the Dark often tells people to move across the country to find their soulmate etc., in order to separate the Lightworker from their friends and family. Once away from their friends and family the Dark can often bring these people to take their own lives, or "arrange" for accidents and illnesses to befall them. Each positive energy Lightworker the Dark can do away with increases the negativity on our planet.
Next thing I knew, one of the group in Tampa had gathered everyone together to hear "Ashtar." My friend Margaret and I challenged the entity coming through as Ashtar, and it left that afternoon, and wouldn't come back with her and me present. We asked Ashtar to say, "Jesus Christ is Lord." A negative entity won't make that statement. Shortly after that, the woman who had tried to bring in Ashtar was certain she was channeling Mary, but my instincts told me it wasn't Mary. This humble, sincere, and spiritually seeking woman was positive it was Mary because the entity was appearing to her as a hologram right in her own house. Please realize that the Dark has the very same access to every form of energy that exists as the positive service-to-others entities have. I had no intention of subjecting myself to channeled entities or energies that I felt were from the Dark, so I left the Tampa group about two years after I had originally joined it. Margaret and several others left the group shortly after I did. All of us from the original group have managed to stay friends and acquaintances and occasionally run into each other in the Bay area at health food stores and metaphysical events.
Early in the nineties I started having something take place in my life that at first I was reluctant to mention to anyone. When I feel calm and feel as though I'm in the arms of Spirit, and that Spirit is directing my life, I am directed to see repeating digits. I see 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, etc. on clocks, timers, tape counters, and often see this phenomena three or four times in a single day. My wristwatch, incidentally, is the analog type with hands. I'll be watching TV or driving down the road, and I will find myself looking at the clock on the dash, and there it is. It started happening to me in '91 and has been ongoing. I get a warm comforting feeling when I see this, as though my guardian angel or spirit guide is saying hello to me. When I asked Spirit what was happening when it first took place, I was told that communication from our guides and angels must be very subtle because of free will. I was told that this form of communication was allowed since it didn’t violate our free will. I learned a few months ago that one of my dearest friends, a prominent Tampa businesswoman named Patricia, has been having the very same thing happen to her, and also got the same message when she meditated that it was a guide or angel saying "hello." I'm mentioning this seeing 1:11, 2:22, etc. because I have a feeling that many people are having this happen to them presently, or will start to.
Through the years I have learned that Spirit communicates in some very subtle ways. It is not uncommon to be drawn to a sign in a store, or on the roadside when you are driving in your car. It can be painted, neon, carved out of wood, anything that contains letters and words. What to look for is this: you will think of the word, or words, at the precise same time that your eye spots it on the sign. If it is a message from Spirit, you will "feel" it, and sometimes you may find the hair raising on your arms, or get what is commonly known as goose bumps or chill bumps on your skin. You may find yourself listening to music and hear the word or words as you think them and simultaneously see them on a sign. That combination really gets your attention! Be open to the subtle ways that Spirit can, and does, communicate with us. Anytime something happens that has a very high mathematical probability against happening, such as seeing 1:11, 2:22, and 3:33 several times in the same day, ask yourself what is going on. Then be open to the possibility that Spirit is trying to say "hello" or more.
I wrote the preceding two paragraphs late this past Friday night, and thought I was through with the subject about ways Spirit communicates. This weekend, Spirit showed me another one with a very powerful message. Saturday morning, after playing tennis, I stopped at a health food store here in St. Pete to buy a few items. When the register total came up, the total was $22.22. It was the first time, in a very long time, that I had a purchase at a store come up with repeating digits. This story gets better. Sunday, after church, I had decided to go to a local park to meditate on exactly what order was best to write about the topics that are coming up in the next few chapters. On the way to the park, I stopped at my local Publix supermarket to pick up some loose-leaf notebook paper and a few other items, and the total was $11.11! Saturday, when the total was $22.22, got me thinking, but yesterday, when it was $11.11, I knew Spirit was trying to tell me something profound and very significant!
At the park Sunday, I worked on the order of the chapters for several hours by sitting in a lawn chair overlooking a canal that borders some forest. It borders the interstate in St. Pete, so I masked that noise, and the banging noise of an outside target shooting range, by listening through headphone to some mellow relaxing music as I worked. Before I started to work on the order of my book’s topics, I said some prayers and asked Spirit what was being shown to me by the two purchases and what exactly did Spirit want me to tell my readers.
Late in the afternoon the significance of the $22.22 and $11.11 was revealed to me. I was told by my own higher self that when I see repetitious numbers on a clock, such as the TV cable box, it is comforting, and sometimes I know I am getting a confirmation on something I am thinking about at the time. Then the reality hit me! I realized beyond any doubt that I had been directly guided. Spirit had guided me in the precise selection of several items at both stores. Although I had a general idea of the things I wanted to buy, I hadn't made my mind up to exactly what I was going to buy. You see, part of my daily prayers is to ask Spirit to show me what is in my best interest, in every affair of my life every day. That is exactly what happened! Spirit used the purchases to demonstrate how when we seek Spirit’s guidance how they come through our higher self’s thoughts to gently show us what is in our best interest without ever violating our free will!
Perhaps the most important thing I will share with you in this book is that in order to truly connect to Spirit, you must ask from your heart with total sincerity, on some kind of a regular basis, to be shown the way. You can say, "Father, show me the way," "Spirit, Guide me," "Jesus, I surrender my will." Any phrase of words spoken from the heart, which are similar to these, will put Spirit in your life guiding you. You still make the choices of what you want in your life, for Spirit can never violate your free will by making your choices for you. The important difference is that when we invite Spirit into our lives, the guiding and nudging process to bring us the greatest amount of joy, happiness and ease begins. This happens because once you ask Spirit to guide you, your actual guides are then allowed to do so with far more freedom than before you gave them "permission." This is directly because of the Law of Free Will. Even the Light will not come to you without your permission. The law of free will prohibits contact unless you freely give your permission. I had it demonstrated to me this past weekend so that it would end up here on these pages for you to read!
Chapter 9, Seeing the Big Picture and Finding The Law of One
In the nineties I learned that there are no coincidences, that Spirit put me in situations so that I would go to psychics and channels. I had to dance with the Dark, and go through several years of frustration and confusion, before the truth emerged and my knowingness resonated with that truth. Many times I had to learn these things on my own and had to be able to stand alone in order to learn them. My main ability to figure things out stemmed from my intuition, or we can call it a gut feeling on things, my knowingness. What I am describing is my "higher self," and everyone has one.
My first major discovery was that the entity FORM was intentionally causing me grief. In the monthly meetings, I had gotten comfortable in being one of the ones to converse with him on a regular basis. If I asked a question that would challenge what he was saying in the slightest way, he would give me an answer that would try to embarrass me in front of the others. If it weren’t an intention to embarrass, then it would be something said to me in an attempt to shake my self-confidence. In other words he was trying to implant doubts and fears, -- and sometimes succeeding -- all the while teaching lessons about love, relationships and the like. He was so subtle and clever that I would find myself having to listen to the taped sessions to make sure I wasn't imagining things or taking something the wrong way. Where I noticed him doing this the most was when I went to him for one-on-one counseling, or in small groups that were of a seminar nature. These small seminar type groups were usually done on a weekend day or days. I mentioned some of this to friends at the seminars and was told that I was indeed imagining things. Like I said, I had to learn to stand alone. I finally came to the conclusion that my original gut feeling about FORM was correct, it was from the Dark serving the Dark. When I stopped going to FORM, my attitude and disposition improved dramatically. I even ended up making a humorous statement about it to several of my closest friends. I told them I was no longer on FORM power, but had switched over to internal "Peter" power. At the time I didn't know how right I was. In reality, what I had done was reconnect much stronger with that "higher self" we all possess for the answers. I was going within for the answers. It took several years, but most of the original Tampa group stopped going to FORM for the very same reasons that I had. They started noticing that FORM was teaching love, but building fear and doubts into them in the process. These were the same people who had previously thought I was imagining things about FORM, until they finally noticed it was happening to them. By not listening to my original gut feelings about FORM I had overridden my own "higher self's" message to me that he was from the Dark.
About the same time that I had figured out FORM was from the Dark, I started to notice some disturbing patterns in the psychics I was going to. The majority of them were doing things that were somewhat similar to FORM: They were trying to build doubt in places where previously there was none. I was also being told a lot of things that were clearly not in my best interest. After figuring FORM out, I was far more inclined to pay attention to my gut feelings when I was receiving readings and then go back and listen to the tape and make notes to myself. One of the prime examples of information being told to me that I didn't feel was in my best interest was the advice from several psychics that I should move, directing me out west. I went through about a year-and a-half span where I was being told that on a regular basis. I have visited the west, but don’t feel comfortable there. Each year that went by found me more and more skeptical of the psychics that I was going to.
In this same period I started to see a common message in the overwhelming majority of channeled books that I was reading that just didn't resonate with me at all. This message was that "evil exists only in the minds of men." Besides feeling this was a lie, I also reasoned that if evil existed in the minds of men only, why was Christ teaching mankind the Lord's prayer, which states, "Deliver us from evil?" Why the numerous references in the Bible about the Dark? Why the reference to "sons of darkness" in the Dead Sea Scrolls? It wasn't that I didn't believe that evil exists in the minds of men, for I do believe that all mankind has the ability to choose to be as good or evil as they want to be. A local reverend named Pat summed it up quite well one Sunday when she was talking about Native American beliefs. She said that there was a Native American saying that went something like this: "Every brave has a white dog and a black dog inside of them; it is up to the brave to figure out which dog to feed." Mankind choosing to be good or evil has always been a fact. Next I started to wonder if there are "beings" elsewhere in our Universe who choose to be evil, as the Dead Sea Scrolls seem to suggest. If there were, that would make the statement "Evil exists only in the minds of men" a lie, or at best, a half-truth.
I found the answers to these questions and many more in a book that impacted me as no other book ever has. The book is The Law of One: Book 1 by Ra an [sic] humble messenger of the Law of One. It has been published under that original name (as Ra requested) and also under the name of The Ra Material. The last printing of the book had both names listed and it can be found under both on bookstore computers. The three people responsible for the channeling of this book prefer that it be known as The Law of One and I whole-heartedly agree. Only the first volume goes by the dual titles; the subsequent volumes go by the name of The Law of One.
The first time I read the book I had a wonderful feeling of "remembering" what was in it. To say that this book resonated with me and that my knowingness told me I was reading the truth is an understatement. The book impacted me so strongly that words cannot describe it.
Two of the authors, Don Elkins and Carla Rueckert, spent about 19 years attempting, with mixed success, telepathically communicating with extraterrestrial beings. They were joined by another person, James McCarty, in 1980. On January 15, 1981, the three, using Carla as the instrument, made contact with an entity called Ra. Ra identified himself as an ancient astronaut from a sixth-density society, or civilization that it referred to as a social memory complex six billion years beyond us in evolution. Ra, who speaks with the authority and wisdom of all of the souls from Ra, spoke through Carla over a space of several years. In other words, Carla was channeling Ra, and Don Elkins was formulating questions to ask Ra. This was similar to John channeling FORM; the huge difference is that Ra is from a group of intelligent beings that, unlike FORM, serve God.
Ra began by telling them that there is only one law in the Universes (the Universes are infinite in number), and that law is the Law of One. It essentially means that all things are one with what we call God. What we call God, Ra calls the Infinite Creator. For the sake of simplicity, I will use the word Creator from this point on. The Creator, according to Ra, is pure love, which is also pure light. All beings are from this love/light, even the Dark, and yes, according to Ra, they most certainly do exist as beings. The first distortion, as Ra refers to it, of the Law of One is the Law of Confusion, which Ra says we call the law of free will. According to Ra, God, who I have been referring to as Spirit, which is God and its appointed hierarchy of angels and guides, is never about guilt, fear and judgment. Guilt and fear were put into our Bible from what Ra refers to as the Orions, who in our Universe come from the stars that make up the Orion Nebula in our galaxy. Ra calls the Orions the negatives. They call themselves the Empire. I call these negatives the Dark. One could also call them satanic or evil. Ra belongs to what is known as the Confederation, short for Confederation of Planets in Service to the Infinite Creator. It is not a coincidence that you have heard the names Confederation and Empire in both television and movie productions here on Earth. According to Ra, writers, producers and directors are frequently given "material" in their dreams. This material is intended over time to educate Earth's population to some of the realities that actually take place in outer space.
Ra, and the other members of the Confederation being in service to the Creator, are always in service to others and are considered as being of positive polarity. The Dark are always in service to self and are known as the negatives. Ra goes on to explain that this earth is a third-density planet in the process of changing into a fourth-density planet of positive polarity and that the people on Earth are third density. According to Ra, nothing will stop Earth from becoming a fourth-density-positive planet. The issue has already been decided in the heavens.
Third density is the density of self-awareness. Third density could also be described as the density of feelings, both physical and emotional. It is a place where new beings with a consciousness, and a higher self to guide them, come to incarnate many times.
The main purpose of incarnating in third density is for the being, through many incarnations, to choose or pick whether it wants to be in service to self or service to others. Third is the only density where beings that are in service to self and service to others live on the same planet.
Just as there are seven colors in the visible color spectrum and seven musical notes in an octave, there are seven planes in each density. The soul must master the lessons in each of the seven planes of a density to be "harvested" (harvested is Ra's term) or accepted into the next highest density. For those of us on Earth, learning self-awareness means to experience the physical and emotional feelings living on Earth exposes us to. There are planets that are of first and second density, but these planets only support mineral, plant and animal life forms, not beings with a system of consciousness such as we possess.
Fourth density, which we are moving towards, is called the density of love or understanding. Fifth density is called the density of light or wisdom. Sixth is light/love, love/light or unity. Seventh is called the gateway density and Ra describes it as the cycle (a density is also called a cycle) where we become one with all, having no memory, identity, past or future, but existing in the all. Ra refers to eighth density as "A mystery not to be plumbed."
In each incarnation here in a third density world we are always choosing a polarity of being in service to self (what we commonly call evil, dark, satanic or negative) or service to others, which Ra calls Christ-consciousness. Service to others is what Buddha, Christ and other masters who have incarnated on Earth have tried to teach mankind.
All of the densities above third are polarized as being either positive or negative. For example, if you were a fourth-density negative entity (being) you would not be able to live on a fourth-density positive planet.
Let me illustrate how societies live in the densities above third density. Beings, such as the sixth-density beings of Ra, are in service to, and help, the beings in the densities below theirs. They do this by answering the call or desire for help from the densities below theirs while letting the beings choose their own evolution. In other words, they help to the best of their ability without compromising the free will of self-government to those helped.
The Dark sixth-density being has one goal and one goal only, and that is to enslave all the beings in the densities below it. It also has to abide by the Law of Free Will and somewhat does, but never to the degree that the forces of Light adhere to. The Dark are consistently trying to sell the idea of service to self to those here in third density who will listen, for this is the only density where they can "recruit" beings into their system. The forces of Light far outnumber the forces of Darkness in our Universe and all the other Universes. Approximately ninety percent of all the beings in the densities above us are in service to others.
The information in The Law of One is really staggering. Ra explains that the reason Earth hasn't made contact with extraterrestrials in a confirmed way such as UFOs being readily visible to the masses is because we are quarantined intentionally by those above us. An example of this quarantine is that SETI, the Search for Extra Terrestrial Intelligence, which has been monitoring the Universe for radio signals of alien life since 1960, hasn't picked up the first alien radio transmission. As for UFOs landing on the White House lawn, it's a nice story line for science fiction movies, but it’s not going to happen. For either the forces of Light (Confederation) or forces of Darkness (Empire) to do so would be a gross violation of the free will of the people living on this planet. Think of it: Some people would be in awe of the aliens and want to call them Gods, and others would be in fear and taking their lives, regardless of which aliens landed. According to Ra, there are councils that oversee who is allowed to appear (the Confederation and the Empire both send UFOs here) in our skies and for that matter also land and make contact with us. These councils balance the contact that either side has with us and ensure our free will.
Per Ra, where humans were abducted or felt fear when contacted by aliens, this has been the work of the Dark. The Dark stay away from people who have chosen positive polarity. They must respect free will and can also be commanded away the same way you would challenge a channeled entity. Because of free will, I would advise anyone seeing a UFO not to think or say anything asking or giving permission to go aboard the UFO. For instance, if you don't want to be abducted, don't say or think something along the lines of "Scotty, beam me up." You just might get your wish. As I stated earlier, the service-to-others members of the Confederation, also known as Christ-consciousness beings, also "visit" us from time to time. I would advise anyone seeing a UFO to be sure of his or her polarity and be very specific in making any contact with the UFO. Contact with the Dark's UFOs is almost always a fearful experience. Contact with Confederation members, although less likely to occur, is always a pleasurable experience leaving you feeling loved. When in doubt, attempt no contact!
Ra states that the earth will be a fourth-density planet right around the year 2011. Fourth density is described as a density of love where people are telepathic when they choose to communicate that way. The people are aware of the thoughts of others and they are in total harmony with each other. There are individual differences, but they are automatically harmonized by group consensus. The people are more full of life than third density. These are some of the major descriptions of life in fourth density. The first time I read the description in the Ra material, the words of Christ in his sermon on the mount, in Matthew 5:5, came to my mind: "Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth."
Ra states that Earth changes are a necessary part of the earth converting to a fourth-density positive planet and that the earthquakes, floods, etc. will act as catalysts for mankind. This is easy to see when a disaster strikes. I remember years ago when Hurricane Andrew hit south of here, some people in service to self were selling water for ten dollars a gallon; of course, many others helped their neighbors instead. Ra tells that in order for a human being to live through these times and be harvested into fourth density, the person must be able to love and forgive. Each person will have to do it for himself or herself and that just talking about love won't get the job done. People must walk their talk. In fact, Ra says that each human being must be a minimum of 51 percent in service to others, in his or her polarity, in order to be harvested into fourth density. Humans that aren't able to be harvested into fourth density will begin third density over again on another third-density planet. (There are hundreds of third density planets in our Universe.) No being on earth will be allowed to sit on a fence; everyone alive in these present times will have to choose service to self or service to others. Those that are virtually total service to self will be harvested into a fourth-density negative planet.
There are on the earth presently, approximately 65 to 90 million souls that Ra calls Wanderers. They are spread among the earth's population. Given the earth's population, about one in every 125 people is a Wanderer. According to Ra these Wanderers are souls from fourth, fifth and mostly sixth density that have agreed to incarnate on the earth at this point in time. They are very old souls that are here to offset the negativity on earth and to help increase the harvest. These Wanderers can be found in every walk of life and in every country on Earth. Some have occupations that limit the number of people they influence directly, such as farming. Others, my knowingness tells me, are some of the current movie directors who are making films that are influencing mankind to be more loving and compassionate. Wanderers have been coming to Earth all through mankind's evolutionary progress, and Ra names Ben Franklin and Thomas Jefferson as examples of these. If you are getting a strong feeling that I am describing you, and you would like additional information on this subject, read the insightful book From Elsewhere by Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., who enthusiastically endorses The Ra Material as being the truth. He says, "Without a doubt The Ra Material is the single most important source of written teaching I've ever encountered." When Mandelker made this statement the book was more widely known as The Ra Material and today it’s known more commonly as The Law of One.
Incidentally, you will find many other topics in The Law of One besides what I am able to talk about here, including how the pyramids were built and how we as people got here on this earth. This would be a good time to point out that the channeling sessions covered two-and-a-half years and that the entire material is contained in a total of five volumes. The first book goes by the titles The Law of One and The Ra Material, but the remaining four volumes go under the name The Law of One. I've read volumes 2-4 at least twice each, and have read the first book about four or five times. (Vol. 5 was just released in 1998.) Ra used a very formal English that leaves no doubt to his meaning. Still, most people may need to read something more than once to really understand what is being said.
One of the questions I asked myself quite a while ago you may be asking yourself, so allow me to play skeptic and also share what I believe. That question is, are the five books fake, or false? Let's explore this.
To begin with, there have been several people involved with this material. The chances of the information having been made up diminish greatly when more than one person has been involved with the channeling. I am not aware of the parties involved profiting, to any significant degree, from this material. On the contrary, their consistent attitude has been more or less of letting people be led to the material. None has tried to get himself or herself or the material into the limelight. I first wrote to Carla in 1994 for advice on a personal matter when I was still confused about what was going on with the psychics and channels I was going to. I received a very thoughtful, detailed, several-page-long reply, dated 2-27-94. Her sincerity and kindness showed all through her reply. I'm sure she had no idea that I would ever write a book promoting The Law of One, for back then I hadn't even entertained the thought. Carla wrote another book that I totally recommend to anyone who wants to know and understand more about discernment in channeling. It is called A Channeling Handbook. What comes across in this small but tremendously valuable book is her sincere desire to serve mankind and dedication to Christ-consciousness. I have looked for years and can find no agenda being filled by any of the parties involved in bringing the words of Ra to mankind. Ra states that these three were chosen to receive the material because of their determination and desire to know the truth, combined with their dedication to Christ-consciousness, or what Ra calls service to others. Carla went into a deep trance for all the Ra sessions. For the first 20 sessions she didn't even read what she had channelled. The three of them chose to do that to be sure what was coming in was totally pure. It also needs to be mentioned, that many things in science, especially in the area of quantum physics were told to mankind back in the first year of contact that science has proven to be true over 27 years later. I indeed invite a close scrutiny of the material by anyone, for I know that its truth will resonate with all who read it.
Chapter 10, Evil Exists Only in the Minds of Men?
If evil exists only in the minds of men, and we as a people on Earth are gullible enough to believe this lie then we are setting ourselves up for all manner of mayhem.
The most common place you will find this lie is in channeled books. Walk into any metaphysical/New Age book store and you will find dozens of channeled works that contain this lie somewhere, usually towards the end of the book. You will also find this lie in channeled books that can be found in nationwide chain stores. I'm not saying that every channeled book contains this lie, but a very high percentage do. In this chapter I will tell you how the Dark manage to get this and many other pieces of misinformation into print. Later, I will show the scenarios and effects of what happens when they are successful.
The Dark get this lie into books because well-intentioned, spiritually seeking people are often misled into believing they are channeling a spirit guide or angel serving the Light when they are not! There is only one God. The forces of Light sent us Christ and other masters to show us a system based upon love and service to others. The Dark, which The Law of One tells us exist as intelligent beings, alive and dedicated to conquest and enslavement, advocate a system that is service to self. Both of these groups of intelligent beings are from that one God, or from the Light.
The Dark often come to people when they are meditating, offering to guide them, and then tell these people that they are from the light. When the Dark makes this statement that they are from the Light, they are technically correct! Since the Light is considered to be God, then they are from God. The big problem with this is that they don't serve the Light or God! The Dark are always in service to the self and their goals are always conquest and enslavement. Remember, God, which is pure love and light, allows total free will, and that means that God doesn't begin to stop the Dark from being the Dark. This play on words about being "from the light" is one of their most common and successful tricks.
If you read a book or any other material that is channeled, and in this book it tells you that in order to connect to your guide you should do specific things, be very cautious. Some examples of specific things would be to ask for a certain specific named entity and sometimes at a specific time or place. To begin with, many channeled books don't mention anywhere in the book that they are channeled. I have seen them published under all kinds of names, including Native American sounding names. The Light will never advocate that you seek a guide or guides. When the written material directs you to meditate at a certain time or day, or tells you to ask for the name of a certain entity or guide, you are about to dance with the Dark if you follow the advice. Remember, the Dark must get your permission, regardless of how slight that permission might be, in order to come to you. The law of free will doesn't allow any member of the Confederation (service to other beings of positive polarity such as Christ) to tell you in printed material to ask for them.
Another trick of the Dark is to provide specific information in books on how to raise your Kundalini energy in order to connect with your "higher self." Kundalini is an ancient Sanskrit word that essentially describes the coiled energy stored at the base of the human spine. Raising one's Kundalini energy is a process of breathing and concentration with the goal of raising and directing the body's energy through the seven Chakra energy points.
Every soul on Earth, including the brand new soul who goes out and robs a convenience store and shoots the clerk without feeling any remorse or sense of guilt, has a higher self. The higher self is a high sixth-density intelligence that is with all of us at all times. To connect to it, we merely need to listen to it. If we want to, we can ignore the feelings it gives to us, or pickle ourselves with drugs and alcohol so that we don't feel. Our higher self communicates with us mainly through feelings but also in thoughts that are our own voice talking to us. When wise men and masters of this earth have said the answers are within us, they were talking about connecting to our higher self.
The ploy of the Dark in getting someone to raise his or her Kundalini energy when he or she is not knowledgeable about spiritual discernment is that the person has essentially been tricked into channeling. It's about as dangerous as sending a young driver out on the freeway in rush-hour traffic when he or she has never driven a car before. A person channeling with little or no discernment will usually be contacted at first by discarnate entities of the Astral planes (ghosts) who will pose as all kinds of things, including spirit guides if they are of service-to-self polarity. Often the new channel can get rid of or see through these contacts, as many of them weren't that intelligent as live human beings on Earth. The real problem is that once someone starts to go "out there" channeling, he or she will sooner or later connect with some very intelligent, but very negative beings, posing as positive service-to-others spirit guides.
If you wish to channel, or channeling comes easy to you, you would have to seek or strongly desire to have a positive, service-to-others entity make contact with you. This also holds true for the process called auto-writing where people's pens start to seemingly move on their own. If you did make contact with a positive entity, the entity would never give you any answers to anything that you would ask that could possibly violate your free will. In other words, a positive entity is not going to guide you by talking to you on a daily basis. Your lessons and Karma are for you to learn and figure out for yourself, and by going within and listening to your higher self you will be guided in this manner instead. When I talked about buying items in stores where the totals added up to $22.22 and $11.11, this was an example of the kind of guidance that Spirit allows that doesn't violate our free will.
Dark entities are by far the easiest to channel and will commonly violate your free will by giving very specific information about yourself or your friends or virtually anything else you seek.
Another thing that throws people off into believing that they have made contact with a positive entity is that the Dark negative entity can send to the channeler the same warm-fuzzy love energy as the positive entity can. Energy, according to Ra, is available for both positive and negative entities to utilize. Not only love energy, but healing energy.
I once attended a small metaphysical-spiritual church in the St. Pete area where I'm sure the reverend was channeling the Dark. I only went there for about five to six weeks, because going there didn't feel right. I came to the conclusion that although this reverend talked about service to others, she was quite selfish and self-serving. I visited her home on several occasions where it was obvious that she was into power seeking, with little regard for where the power was coming from. It was the classic case of not walking one's talk. While going to her church, I needed an operation and was waiting for my medical insurance to begin. One day, I was in pain at my job, and I called her from work. I had seen her do several healings at her church on Sundays. She sent me healing energy over the phone that was very real. I felt a warm sensation in the area that was painful, and an immediate reduction in pain that lasted for several days.
Besides sending energy, the Dark can also make things appear, such as holograms of people. Remember, both the forces of Light and the forces of Darkness have equal access to all the forms of energy that exist in the Universes.
One of the ways the Dark are able to trick people into thinking that they are dealing with an entity of the Light is that the Dark will often teach the very same identical lessons about love, life, relationships, etc. as entities from the Light. This is exactly what was happening when I was dancing with the entity FORM that I used to go to. FORM could and did talk for hours about love and loving. It had me fooled for several years. I have found that the Dark will gladly send out as much as 99 percent service-to-others, positive polarity lessons of truth about things such as love, just to get a few of their lies into a book or to someone channeling them. The Dark know that the channeler, and people who will read the channeled material, will resonate with that 99 percent truth. They use the 99 percent truth to slip in their lies like a smoke screen so that they go unnoticed, their main lie always being that evil doesn't exist, except in the minds of men.
A common form of book channeled from the Dark is what I refer to as the gloom-and-doom type. This kind of book will prophesize catastrophic events to take place on Earth. Sometimes the entity will claim to come from a Federation, or an organization of some kind. The entity will usually have an alien sounding name, such as Triton from Startius. I made these two names up, but I'm sure you get the idea. This kind of a book is designed by the Dark to dispense disinformation about the future of Earth and its inhabitants or simply to cause fear and confusion.
Of course, when the prophesied event fails to take place, the author is embarrassed and usually feels foolish. People just opening up to spirituality will sometimes read the book and, when nothing happens, be turned off and not have any further interest in spiritual matters. Part of this is because they may have told their friends and relatives about a prophesied event that doesn't take place. For example, an author unwittingly channeling the Dark might write about a predicted flood intended to devastate a particular area in a certain year that never materializes.
A book that is channeled from a positive entity will never contain gloom and doom or give you anything close to specific information regarding upcoming Earth changes. In fact, when The Law of One was being channeled, Ra was asked on more than one occasion about Earth changes and never gave any specific answers. Listen to what Ra's answer was regarding this topic: "This inconvenience, or disharmonious vibratory complex, has begun several of your years in your past. It shall continue unabated for a period of approximately thirty of your years." That answer was given by Ra on January 24, 1981. So with this in mind, if you come across a book telling you so-and-so year will be the year of the big flood, this information didn't come from a service-to-others source. They can't and won't violate your free will.
Then there is the techno-mumbo-jumbo book that will attempt to tell you how things really are up there. Its purpose is to confuse you, or make you feel dumb for not really getting it, and sometimes to turn you off from spiritually seeking. One of the books of this type that I read was about the size of a Bible, white with gold lettering, that used biblical terms, and the whole book meant absolutely nothing. I spent weeks trying to get it before I realized what was going on. You will never feel talked down to, belittled, or approached with less than total respect if the material is from a positive source.
I would also advise you to look very closely at any book that contains a "message" from Jesus or Mary, regardless of how many messages of love are in the book. In my opinion, from having read all of The Law of One and other writings, I don't think the real Jesus or Mary is likely to show up in a channeled book to mankind. Nevertheless, they keep appearing in numerous metaphysical books given to mankind by the Dark.
Since we have talked about channeling, allow me to offer some suggestions on the subject. My first advice would be to read Carla Rueckert's A Channeling Handbook. In my opinion, she is one of, if not the, nation's most experienced people on this subject. Next, I advise the would-be channeler to never attempt to channel alone. If you are in a group of people who a