Are You Seeking the Light or Just Dancing With the Dark?
A Guide to Spiritual Discernment COPYRIGHT © 2000 BY PETER W. NEWTON
UPDATED AND REVISED IN 2004, 2007, 2008, and 2009
- This Book is Dedicated To
- Mary Joyce von Cappelen Kruse,
whose constant love, wisdom, and infinite
patience enabled me to awaken and
continue on my spiritual path.
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- Peter W. Newton
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I want to thank every person I have ever spent any time around in my business as well as personal life. You know who you are, and you know you are too numerous to count and to mention. Each and every one of you has taught me something that is somewhere in this book. In addition, I’d like to thank the many authors whose books I cite. Your writings influenced and encouraged me to seek nothing less than the truth. A special thanks to Carla Lisbeth Rueckert, Jim McCarty, and the late Don Elkins for their efforts in bringing the Law of One material into modern existence. The Law of One material enabled me to fit the many pieces of the puzzles together.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Introduction
Endorsements
Early in Life
Starting to Awaken
The Beach House Lessons
Fell in Love With Christ but
Searching for the Answers When Joyce Arrived
"Life is Like a Bank Account"
Meeting the Tampa Group and the Entity Called FORM
Learning, Growing, and Experiences
Seeing the Big Picture and Finding the Law of One
Evil Exists Only in the Minds of Men?
The Price of Dancing With the Dark
Connecting at 70 Miles Per Hour
Reincarnation, Karma, and Meditation
Thoughts and Observations About Our Future
Putting It All Together
Welcome to the website for my book on spiritual discernment. I've spent the last 35 years of my life asking questions that many of us have pondered: Why are we here on this planet? Is there intelligent life elsewhere in the Universe? If there are intelligent life forms elsewhere, are they friendly towards humans? Speaking of human beings, why are some so inhumane to their fellow human beings? Is reincarnation a reality? Is the system of Karma, meaning a system of justice and balancing of one's actions, a reality? How do some psychics and channels actually get their information that they pass on to others in readings? Why do the teachings of Jesus and Buddha stress love and forgiveness, while so many organized religions teach us, in varying degrees, to fear God? Through years of study and meditation on my personal spiritual path, I found the answers to these questions and was surprised at what I discovered.
I learned that what we call evil doesn't just exist within the minds of mankind, but that there are humans and non-humans (Yes, you could call them aliens.) who are dedicated to service-to-self or what we commonly call evil. Love, kindness, compassion and forgiveness aren't what appeals to these entities, human or alien! Domination, conquering, and enslavement in one form or another, and what some would simply term greed, is what these beings are dedicated to.
I never set out to find evil or the Dark, I just wanted to know the answers to the questions above. I wanted to believe that all aliens who visit us come in peace and wished all mankind well, but that just wasn't the truth that I found.
I discovered that God is all about love and has nothing to do with judgment and retribution. Judgment and retribution were never from God, but lies put out by the Dark! The Dark doesn't want mankind to have an accurate or true understanding of God and has done an amazing job of manipulating mankind's understanding of God through numerous organized religions. Some religions were intentionally set up or infiltrated by the Dark to serve their purposes on Earth.
I found that the Dark commonly channel an entire book to writers who are thoroughly convinced that they are communicating with Mary, Jesus, an angel, and most commonly a "spirit guide." These writers are fooled into doing the Dark's work for them on Earth. The Dark will often supply as much as 99 percent spiritual truth in some books just to get a few of their significant lies across to humankind. Some of these books are the top selling books in New Thought today and can be readily found in the major chain stores that sell books as well as countless small metaphysical book and gift stores. There are numerous nationally known metaphysical speakers, who have written best-selling books for decades, who continue to endorse other books that are channeled by the Dark to unsuspecting authors of New Age materials, who think they are helping their readers to become enlightened.
The Dark's biggest and most successful lie of all is that they don't exist anywhere in the Universe, but only in the minds of mankind! This lie is often given in the form that there is no evil in the Universe, only Source and Well-being or the separation from Source or Well-Being. Another form is that evil only exists in the minds of humankind, and has no form anywhere else. Since the Dark have been so successful with these lies, today there are countless psychics and channels totally unaware that they are receiving messages from the Dark and passing them on to others in the form of "readings." This misinformation coming from the Dark has often destroyed and, in some cases, literally caused the deaths of people who put too much stock in the "readings" they received.
I wrote the last paragraph above, in '99, when I wrote this book. In the spring of 2007 I learned that two people I wrote about in '99 who were being fooled, or used by the Dark, have recently died! One was a man, named Dan, who channeled an entity that I called FORM in this book and the other was a woman minister, named Barbara, of a local metaphysical church who once sent me much needed healing energy. I knew and liked them both. However, they were convinced that they were helping others with their channeling. Both of these individuals died recently, and at an unusually young age, when they figured out for themselves "who" they were actually doing work for. In addition to the two I just mentioned, a Lightworker friend named Karen, just informed me about the sudden death of a close friend. Her close friend, Ariel, 45, a former architect, just died in a head on car crash on October 6, 2007. Through Karen I learned that Ariel had been channeling a negative (Dark) entity who was posing as her "Spirit Guide." Karen had seen Ariel the day before she died and told me that she as well as others, noticed that Ariel was acting very strangely, and was giving away all of her worldly possessions just hours before her death. When the Dark gains someone's confidence they will assist the Lightworker in helping other people with their problems. This assistance will appear to benefit the individual being helped. What is really going on, is that the Dark has an agenda that is not hardly in the best interest of the person channeling the Dark, or the person receiving the help. The Dark will often use somebody for years, before the true nature of their agenda shows itself. Then, when the Lightworker who is being used starts to figure out who they are actually channeling, or when the Dark no longer desires to use them, they end up dying of what appears on the surface as normal deaths. To those in the know, these aren't normal deaths, but instead the workings of the Dark. Needless to say, the Dark didn't want these three Lightworkers to write a "tell all" type book or talk about being fooled and used by the Dark. I advise later on in this book to never attempt to channel by yourself, but to use caution and a lot of discernment, with a group, if you must channel at all.
I know that some New Thought souls may say or think that just reading about the Dark could be dangerous and that just isn't so! I have been using the Universe's law of attraction for decades prior to the book and movie called the Secret coming out. I wrote a small section on "manifesting," another name for attracting, which remains unchanged since '99, at the back of this book. So I realize and know with first hand knowledge that reading about and gaining knowledge, that may help you or another old soul figure things out and make life more understandable, isn't going to bring the Dark to you.
This Earth of ours is quarantined by the forces of Light so that souls can make "free will" choices in establishing whether they want to be service-to-self, or service-to-others, as Christ and Buddha were advocating, without being disturbed in the process. By this I mean that the Dark has to operate by established rules of conduct on this planet. The forces of Light who sent Christ and Buddha to Earth make up 90% of all the intelligent life forces in all the Universes, and the Dark only account for approximately 10% of the beings out there. The forces of Light protect this planet and only allow the Dark certain limited interactions with the human beings here. Because of this, no human being has to ever fear or feel discomfort from the Dark! The power of love that Jesus, Buddha and others taught mankind is far stronger than the power of fear. Love does conquer all, and is the armor that, when combined with faith, is impenetrable. This is all spelled out clearly in the pages of my book.
It took years of my own "Dancing with the Dark" to recognize who and what they are, how they work, and how they have worked through the ages.
I am not affiliated with, nor do I belong to, any church. Am I a man who has led a perfect life? Hardly. I know that writing this book will please many individuals and groups, and most certainly upset others. My one and only goal is to provide those with an interest in knowing the truth about spirituality a way of discerning when they are being lied to by the Dark. In this new millennium, spiritual discernment will become more difficult for mankind as things continue to speed up in more ways than one.
I've been told by several people who see auras, that I'm a very old soul. Regardless of how old a soul I may be, it doesn't make me any better or greater than any other being on this earth; If those that see auras are correct, then perhaps older. I personally view becoming an old soul as a process we all must and do undertake in our upward journey to eventually become one with God. It is a fairly automatic process for all souls. Sometimes with age comes wisdom. If indeed that is what I have to offer in these pages, then I am humbly grateful for this opportunity to serve.
Peter W. Newton
“Ever wonder why some spiritual teachers rub you the wrong way? Why some New Age teachings seem really wrong? If you have, then Are You Seeking the Light or Just Dancing With the Dark? Is for you! With honesty, candor, and maturity, Peter Newton reveals the cosmic forces of good and evil that affect New Age teachers and all ET channels. He explains the importance of discernment and listening to the inner voice – and gives us the tools to help evaluate the information that comes our way. I strongly recommend this book.”
--Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., From Elsewhere: Being ET in America, Universal Vision: Soul Evolution and the Cosmic Plan
“Peter Newton has written an excellent book, based on his considerable personal experience as a spiritual seeker, that should be “must” reading for anyone who is experiencing resistance, difficulties, and psychic disturbances and greetings along the metaphysical journey’s path. In clear language he elucidates how psychic greeting works and what to do about it. I recommend this book wholeheartedly.”
--Carla Lisbeth Rueckert, A Channeling Handbook
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My first encounter with a church was the Congregational Church in Alston, Massachusetts. It was a few blocks away from the apartment that my mother and I shared on Warren Street in Brighton, both Brighton and Alston being part of Boston. It was the fall of 1954. I was nine and had just come to live with her full-time. Prior to then, she had boarded me out with families in the Boston area and would come to get me to spend weekends with her. They didn't have day-care centers in those days, and all her relatives lived in towns outside Boston that required a subway and train ride to get to. She never drove or owned a car.
My mother had divorced my dad when I was around two. This action that no doubt saved her sanity also got her ex-communicated from the Catholic Church that she had been raised in. It was ironic. Here she was a single mom in a day and time when society in general frowned upon single moms, and her church disowned her too. She herself didn't go to the church she sent me to. I suppose she felt a bit alienated with organized religion, but apparently felt that I should attend Sunday school. I went there for a couple of months, and then, without any warning, she had a massive stroke and died the week before Christmas.
I went to Denver to live with my mom's sister and her husband when tragedy struck again. My father, who had been living in Florida, found out that my mother had died and petitioned the Massachusetts courts for custody of me. He won. My father, and his new wife, a waitress, were both alcoholics and bragged to their friends about the Social Security survivor's check that came with me and that paid their rent each month. My stepmother died eight years later in her late thirties of cirrhosis of the liver. They moved frequently, and I often attended three or four schools in a year. I endured a considerable amount of physical and mental abuse from the two of them, but I was never in one school long enough for teachers to notice. I joined the Air Force at 17 to get away from them. During the years I lived with them, neither ever expressed the slightest interest in any religion or spirituality.
I mention all of this not to elicit sympathy, but to give you some idea of the influences early in my life. Nothing in our lives of any significance takes place by chance. My troubled childhood served to give me strength, which I've summoned whenever needed.
"God does not play dice with the universe." Albert Einstein (bite-size einstein: Quotations on Just About Everything From the Greatest Mind of the Twentieth Century, compiled by Jerry Maher and John P. Holms, St. Martin's Press, 1996, P.56)
The value systems I received were all instilled in me by my mother and her relatives. Her mother was from Germany and her dad was from Sweden. My mom was very close to her dad and her Swedish aunt, and she and I spent many weekends with them and their families. Were they churchgoers? No, actually very few of them were. They were, however, a fairly close family that to this day care about and, for the most part, know how to love one another. They imparted the values to me that were commonly passed on to children of my day (I was born in 1945) by the many different ethnic cultures that came to America from Europe at the turn of the last century.
Joining the Air Force at seventeen was good for me. I served four years, worked on jet fighters, got a high school equivalency diploma and was honorably discharged as a sergeant during the Vietnam War. After leaving the Air Force in late 1966, I came back to St. Petersburg, a city I had loved and spent the most time growing up in.
I got a job with Dictaphone Corporation as a service representative. With the job came an education as to how society really functioned in the workplace. In those days Dictaphone had a corner on the dictation market, and I went into hospitals, police stations, insurance companies, courts and multitudes of other businesses, daily, for a half-a-dozen years. I witnessed things such as one doctor chewing out another for misdiagnosing a patient, who as a result of the misdiagnosis was now lying on an autopsy table. I saw a seemingly mild-mannered psychiatrist have a temper tantrum when the patients had left his office. I saw an insurance company in St. Petersburg scurry to have its agents cancel property insurance as fast as its people could dial the phone. (Race riots racked St. Pete in the summer of '68 and parts of the town burned.) I saw that same insurance company pay its insurance adjusters bonuses for paying out the least in claims, and then overheard the conversations as the adjusters made "deals" that short-changed the insured. That job showed me the good and the bad about how people acted in their workplaces.
I then worked twelve years at a job that showed me how people acted and treated each other in their homes. I worked for Sears selling installed home-improvement products and went into thousands of homes. The homes I visited made up a cross-section of society. I remember one Saturday morning giving a fence estimate to a millionaire who owned a TV and several radio stations. He was friendly and unpretentious, but seemed lonely and unhappy. His home was huge and musty-smelling, and felt as though there wasn't much love in it. I went from his mansion, only a few miles away, to a happy home filled with love. It was a black family who was so poor that as I was sitting on their couch, I could literally see the ground through the large cracks in their floor. I learned countless lessons about life, people, and society in general in those two jobs.
During those two jobs I was married and divorced. My dysfunctional childhood from the age of ten on had left me clueless about how to give or receive love, or how relationships were supposed to work. One of the most positive things that happened in those years was the birth of my son, Doug, in 1971. He and I have always been very close.
Because of the nature of many things I have discovered about spirituality that I will be talking about in the rest of the book, I anticipated that you would want to know some of my background. I kept it brief and think you will realize that I have not come from a religious or spiritual background. The thoughts and opinions I express in this book are strictly my own.
My first real spiritual stirring took place in 1973. I was in a novelty store in Tyrone Square Mall in St. Petersburg when I came across the Desiderata for the very first time. As I stood there in the garishly lit store reading those profound words of wisdom, a spark was ignited within me that burns to this day to know the truth about Spirit. The Desiderata talked about having a right to be on Earth and the freedom to view God as I would choose to. The entire document is just a little over 300 words and contains what I have found to be many universal truths and profound wisdom about all aspects of life. For many years the myth existed that the Desiderata was found in a church in Baltimore in 1692, author unknown. It was really written by a man named Max Ehrmann who lived from 1872 to 1945 and wrote and copyrighted it in 1927. Regardless of when he lived, no doubt the words of wisdom have impacted many. The words in the Desiderata got me thinking about what I was doing here on Earth. I mean, how did I get here, and where did I come from? Conventional Christian teachings I had been exposed to prior to reading the Desiderata would have me believe that life was a single go around. Living only once and then going to either heaven or hell just never ever felt even remotely right to me. My knowingness told me that that concept was and is false.
Up until that day in the mall, my interest in spirituality had been confined to watching Hollywood's version of Christ through movies. I always admired and was quite fascinated with the "Christ" portrayed in these movies, but, again, the heaven or hell concept was the main thing that kept me from going to a church. I believe I watched every movie that Hollywood ever made about Christ several times each. The more I learned about Christ, the more he became my hero, and the more I wished that I could feel comfortable with the heaven or hell issue. But I simply couldn't. I have to admit that I was also turned off in those days by many of the "religious" people that crossed my path. I found many of them to be judgmental and hypocritical, far from the loving person that Christ was portrayed as being in those movies I so fondly loved watching.
In the early- to- mid '70s I did try a Congregational church for about six months, which I considered to be a middle-of-the-road Protestant church. The church and minister were both short on "fire and brimstone," but I didn't feel comfortable or the least bit inspired there. To me, it seemed as though the members of the church were just going through the motions of going to church. It was as if they were there because it was expected of them.
Shortly after trying the Congregational church I encountered a book that really accelerated my search for the truth about God and spirituality. I was involved in a long-term relationship with a woman in her early twenties who had an older, close relative tell her a story in strictest confidence. This relative told her about being in a car accident and leaving her body -- what is nowadays commonly called a near-death experience. Now, you have to picture this older relative as a woman who was brought up very conservatively and lived and acted very conservatively. She was approximately twenty years older, a professional woman, and telling her story to the woman I was involved with because, as she told her, "She had to tell someone." When this older relative told her story, I hadn't come into the picture yet. There is a good chance that it wouldn't have been told if there had been a possibility that it might be shared.
She had been in a small car that was broadsided at an intersection in Clearwater, Florida, and found herself floating above the car and watching the paramedics free her from the car. She had some of the typical near-death experiences, such as seeing the bright light and being told it wasn't her time yet. When the story was related to me, I was fascinated and wanted to know more about what happened, but, since the story was told in confidence, that wasn't possible. I remember thinking to myself that both women were very sincere and honest and that nothing was gained by either one of them in the telling of this story. Could it be real?
My answer came fairly quickly. A few months after being told about this experience, I came across an excerpt of Dr. Raymond Moody's Life After Life in Reader's Digest.
I was astounded, for here were literally the exact same things being described about people who had "died" but come back. I immediately went out and bought the book and couldn't read it fast enough. It was the mid '70s and I remember the feeling that I had as I was reading this book. I had the distinct feeling that I was "remembering" how things really are. The book resonated with me and brought me a lot of peace of mind about death and my own mortality. In the years since reading Life After Life I have come across other books on this subject, and I've met several people who have had NDEs (near-death experiences). I'm totally convinced that the soul lives on after death, and that reincarnation is the reality.
Chapter 3, The Beach House Lessons
In 1978, I went through a divorce that left me emotionally drained. Like many of us, I had wanted to have the 2.5 children we were all supposed to have in those days and live happily ever after. Alas, my wife spread her wings and set out to find the bright lights. When she served me with papers, I went to see a St. Petersburg divorce attorney that I knew from my years with Dictaphone. Tom, who I first met in '67, early in his law career, was himself divorced. Despite his wealth and popularity, Tom always was an unpretentious person, unlike some of the attorneys whose machines I serviced in those days. We hit it off the first time we met.
While talking with Tom about the papers I had been served, I told him I intended to take my share of the money from my house about to be sold and buy "toys." I told him that I was going to buy a brand new sports car and a Hobie Cat catamaran sailboat. He told me that he had just bought a beach house on one of the local beaches to "kick around at on the weekends," and asked if I'd like to keep my Hobie at his beach house. I immediately said yes, and he had his chauffeur/handyman get a key for his beach house made for me.
The house was located on Sunset Beach, which is part of Treasure Island, one of the connected islands on the Gulf next to St. Petersburg. A classic bachelor's pad, it had several bedrooms and all the conveniences, including a hot tub that adjoined a big back deck overlooking the beach. I taught Tom what I knew about sailing, and he and some of his friends taught me the finer points of losing one's self in wine, women and song, as the saying goes. I was driving a new Datsun 280ZX, had a new sailboat, plenty of women to date, and could come and go and entertain dates at the beach house whenever I wanted to.
Over the Christmas holidays, I went in Tom's limo with his entire office staff to the airport where a chartered Lear jet flew us to Freeport in the Bahamas. When we got there, limos took us to several adjoining suites at the Bahama Princess Towers, where we stayed for a long weekend.
Initially I enjoyed the new lifestyle presented to me, but I kept feeling like something was missing. I tried to convince myself that I was happy, or surely should be happy. The fact of the matter was that this new lifestyle wasn't bringing me any happiness or peace of mind. As I spent more time around Tom and his friends, I discovered that they weren't particularly happy either.
Like a lot of people, we thought that buying and having new "toys" would bring happiness, and it never does. One adopts the erroneous philosophy that I will be happy when...I buy the new car, make "X" amount of dollars, and the list goes on forever. One of the examples of being ego driven instead of spiritually seeking occurred just after I bought my new 280ZX. Tom had a Cadillac convertible and a limo, but he didn't have a sports car, so he promptly went out and bought a new Corvette. His 'Vette was only a few days old when he invited me to drive it from his home on Park Street to the beach house. We were only a few blocks from his house when I bottomed out his brand new car on the rough red bricks of Park Street. I remember apologizing to him for driving the 'Vette over the bump in the road hard enough that it bottomed out. He said, "Don't worry about it." What struck me at the moment, though, was the look on his face of embarrassment, as if he, not his car, had bottomed out. The following week he bought a new Mercedes 450 convertible that wouldn't bottom out at that spot in the road.
After a year and a half of keeping my sailboat at Tom's beach house, I needed to get away from him and the negativity of the lifestyle, so I moved my sailboat to another friend's place. Giving Tom the key back to his beach house was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. How do you tell a friend you care about that just being around him and most of his friends was bumming you out? I never looked back or regretted my decision to leave that environment.
I didn't truly understood Tom and his personality until many years later. In early '92, about six months before Tom died of a heart attack at 56, the St. Petersburg Times wrote a several-page profile. The writer spent several days with him and really captured a lot of what he was about. Tom was a man who basically lived for the enjoyment of doing his job. He enjoyed being the most successful and well-known divorce attorney in the area, and he confessed he didn't have a "life" outside of his law practice.
In my opinion, the reason that Tom didn't have a life outside of work was because of his lack of belief in any higher power. He had zero interest in anything spiritual. I tried on many occasions to talk with him about the subject but never got anywhere. The furthest I got was giving him a gift of a little plaque with the Desiderata on it. He read it once and then hung it in a bathroom. Later in this book I will be talking about spiritual systems of service to self or service to others. Most people choose one or the other, and once in a while a man like Tom comes along who tries to live his life sitting on the fence.
I knew this friend and acquaintance, who left behind an estate worth eight million, for 25 years of my life. I will remember him as a man who sometimes acted happy on the outside, but was truly sad, lonely and hollow on the inside.
I learned invaluable lessons about life and my own self at that beach house. I learned firsthand that money and status can't begin to buy happiness or peace of mind. I saw that when one ties one's self-worth and happiness into things and possessions, the lifestyle always requires bigger and better to achieve an artificial form of happiness. I learned that lives without Spirit in them are lives with something painfully missing.
Chapter 4, Fell in Love With Christ but...
In the fall of '80, after learning that no amount of wine, women and song, or possessions, would bring any happiness into my life, I turned to Christ. A buddy who I played tennis with and had known years earlier when he and I were in marriages that didn't work, had also been trying my failed road to happiness. He had reached the same conclusions that I had, only in different ways, and had come to accept Christ at a local fundamentalist church. Shortly after he did this, he immediately started to sell me on the concept of how accepting Christ had brought him tremendous peace of mind.
Within about a month I had followed suit. I had wholeheartedly joined and immediately immersed myself in the church and congregation and began to experience a feeling of peace of mind and great comfort. I remember getting up in front of the congregation and spelling out to them in a "testimony" my past experiences that were not admirable. I also got baptized in a large "dunking" tank that was built into the front of the church.
About six months after I became a member, the pastor and board of directors of this 300-member church decided to have a capital funds campaign to raise money to buy additional land alongside of the church because the congregation was growing. The pastor asked me to be in charge of the promotion committee, with the main goal of putting out a brochure to the congregation. I ended up putting out a brochure on a shoestring budget that really got the job done. In fact I even received a letter from the church's home office thanking me and recognizing my efforts. The reason I mention this is because I want you to understand that for almost one year's time I was really into this church and being a fundamentalist Christian, until...
I started having doubts about many things. The fundamentalist viewpoint about reincarnation was one of the things that got to me. They believe that each soul lives only once and that at the end of that soul's time on earth the soul goes to a heaven or a hell. I had a very hard time with this viewpoint because each time I heard this rigid philosophy there was a part of me that said, "No way!" It just didn't feel right, and my "knowingness" told me it wasn't the truth.
This first surfaced when, after being a member for about a year, I was expected to get involved with what the church called EE -- Evangelism Explosion. It was a practice at this church where two women and a man or two men and a woman would go out into people's homes in the community to "witness for Christ." This group of three people, once inside someone's home, would start things off with asking their main question: "If you died this very minute, do you know that your soul would go to heaven for sure?" I ended up viewing this practice as what it was: a scare tactic, pure and simple. Was the intent to really witness for Christ or simply build up the membership of the congregation, or both? I never tried to answer that question because the scare tactic question bothered me to no end.
It wasn't just EE that got to me. It was also hearing people in that church debating whether people of other fundamentalist churches were really saved because "that" church only sprinkles when they baptize, they don't immerse like we do. There simply was too much smugness and elitism going on around me. Often, I witnessed the same people doing a lot of judging on Sundays, then going out into the business community during the week and doing things that I didn't feel were particularly Christian, or in the fairest interest of others.
I ended up ultimately knowing I had to break away from that church, and I did. It was kind of like my beach house days, in the sense that my senses and what I've learned to call my "knowingness" told me to leave and not look back. Leaving that church, and its people, was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I truly loved the Christ that I had found, but even that couldn't hold me there. I also knew that the members of that church didn't associate with people who weren't members and that I would lose a lot of friends, and I did. The buddy who had talked me into joining the church had remarried, and he and his wife were among those who didn't know me after I left.
Chapter 5, Searching for the Answers When Joyce Arrived
I left the fundamentalist church with my love for Christ totally intact and with a very strong desire to know the truth about him and all aspects of spirituality. I already had one Bible but found myself buying another, one in which the things Jesus was supposed to have said were highlighted in red. Over a span of several months, I read the New Testament, about Christ and what he said, over and over trying to come to conclusions. I finally surmised that the most important things that Christ was trying to tell mankind were really just three things. Two of the things he stated as commandments, and I think the third should also have been one. They are quite simple, but yet such essential things, that many overlook them. Christ told us to love God, and to love our fellow man. The part that I think is just as essential is to forgive others and, therefore, not to judge them.
While I was examining what Christ was about, I re-examined my decision numerous times to leave that fundamentalist church. Each time I did, I came to the same conclusions. I could not lie to myself and tell myself that we live once and once only. It made no sense to me from a logical or a feeling perspective. There were other reasons why I left, but if I had to name the main one, it would be the fundamentalist lack of tolerance and understanding of reincarnation.
It was the early summer of 1981 when I met the person who has been the greatest influence in my life. I was working for Sears selling home improvement products when she called Sears for a roof estimate. I was one of six people who sold roofing for Sears that potentially could have been sent to her house. Her name was Mary Joyce von Cappelen Kruse, a very spry 81-year -old who was still driving in the daytime. She lived by herself in a simple wood house in the middle of the city, without a lock on the front door. No lock on her front door was my first clue that she was different.
I was standing in her yard discussing the merits of selecting a light green shingle over the all-white shingle when she looked over my shoulder into the distance and started saying something that got my attention. She told me, "You have a son who is about ten years old who lives with his mother up around the Tennessee area." (My son was ten, and living with his mother in Tennessee at the time!) She continued on, "You and your son are very, very old souls, who, along with other very old souls, have chosen to come to Earth at this time, to aid mankind in the spiritual changes that will take place in your lifetimes." When she got through speaking she acted as though nothing had happened, and I was speechless. Since she acted as though nothing had taken place, and I was totally at a loss to know or explain what had just taken place, I too acted as though nothing out of the ordinary had taken place. I finished writing up her roofing order and left quickly. It wasn't as though I was scared or threatened by her or what she said; I was perplexed and clueless as to what had just transpired. The word dumbfounded also comes to mind.
I went back to Sears and asked if anyone had inquired about me and was told no. The roofing estimate card with her name and address had been shuffled together with other people seeking an estimate for a Sears' roof. They were then given out to the six of us, literally at random and on an even basis. I tried to forget what had happened, but could not forget the words that had been spoken to me and, again, how did she do that? The next day I found a neatly hand-written note underneath my apartment door when I got home. (My name and address were listed in the phone book.) The note thanked me for being courteous and taking care of her roofing needs, and oh, by the way, could we be friends? I didn't know what to think at that point. For several days I pondered what was going on, and who was this woman? I was curious and wanted to know how she had known what she did, and why she said what she had said.
The next day I was adding this event to my pondering when I got some answers. Now, before I tell you what I made of all this, I have to tell you that I have learned through my many years of spiritually seeking that there really aren't any coincidences and that Spirit can and does communicate with us in some very subtle ways. I also need to add that all my life, whenever I've wanted to know the answer to something with enough desire, the answer usually comes within a few days of my asking the question. The answers don't always come in words, but more often a combination of words and feelings. Again, I'll use the word knowingness, for I often simply just know something, and can't even tell myself how I know. At least, that's how it has always worked for me. Okay, back to the answer I received.
What came to me was that my choice of Christ, and the things that he stood for and expounded upon, was not ever going to leave my life. A change had taken place in me. I knew that no amount of money, or material things of any kind on this Earth could ever tempt me to accept a different system. I knew that if I felt this strongly in my beliefs, and I was able to receive information (Jan and a Pisces) that was beyond logic in being able to do, that it was possible that this Joyce was receiving her information from the "good guys" too. I literally felt like I had received a sign from God that it was okay to call this 81-year-old woman who wanted to be my friend, so I did. I don't know who the quote is from, but I've heard that "when the student is ready, the teacher will appear." This is exactly what had taken place, and it was to be the second time in my life that this had happened to me.
Chapter 6, "Life is Like a Bank Account"
I called Joyce and we became instant friends. She and I communicated on a depth I had never experienced with anybody else. She was 45 years older than I was, and so the relationship was always platonic. Although I came to her as a student, she always treated me with a respect that transcended who I am in this life. She was among the most remarkable people I've ever met. Her strength of character and personality were formidable, and one sensed this in her presence. Yet conversely her depths of humbleness and humility were always astounding to me. She was born in Ohio and grew up in Illinois and Wisconsin. She and her husband, a school teacher came to St. Petersburg in the early 1920s. (He died in the mid-'70s.) They raised four successful children of their own and thirteen foster children. She did this in a day and time when there weren't social service agencies and the like, so she received no financial remuneration of any kind. The thirteen children were kids that one way or another found their way to Joyce. She always found a way to feed and clothe them and make room in her little wood-frame house on Queen Street that I found her in. The list of people she had helped through the years was amazing. I met all four of her children and got to know several of them fairly well. She was in many ways the "Mother Teresa" of St. Pete and truly walked her talk of her spiritual beliefs.
Joyce was an example of service to others and practiced the unconditional love that Christ talked about. Catch was, she was totally turned off by organized religion. Like myself, she had broken away from the guilt, fire and brimstone that many churches offered. She studied spirituality and metaphysics her entire life, along with astrology.
Her relationship with God, which she preferred to refer to in a broader definition as the word "Spirit," was a close one. Let me explain her use of the word Spirit that I chose to adopt years ago, which I use in this book. Joyce recognized, as I do, that there is a Divine Power or Force that is the Creator of all. She, like myself, preferred to call God the Creator. Most of the time she would use the word Spirit, which in her way of thinking was God plus all of his subordinates such as the angels and the spirit guides.
Joyce was a brilliant woman who formed her own opinions even when they were counter to the mainstream thought of her day. She was a voracious reader of everything she could get her hands on that pertained to spirituality. She had also studied religion at the college level when Stetson University first came to St. Pete. She was an ordained minister of a church called the Universal Church of the Master, of San Leandro, California, but I never heard her refer to herself as a reverend and never saw her use the title. She told me she got ordained so that she could go into the local jails and prisons to help people. The authorities in St. Pete back in the ‘30s and ‘40s would harass metaphysical people for doing counseling if they weren't an ordained reverend affiliated with a church, she said. Joyce never charged anyone for her help or counseling her entire life. In fact, she wasn't very keen on those that did. Her attitude was that if a psychic, for instance, had a "gift," he or she should share it as much as possible. She recognized they needed an income and said that they should charge modest amounts, or take a love offering. A love offering means the person pays what they can afford or think the service was worth.
One of the first books that Joyce suggested I read was The Lost Years of Jesus Revealed, by the Rev. Dr. Charles Francis Potter. This little paperback published in 1958 was, and remains today, a real eye-opener and served to give me some of the answers that I was seeking. In this book he talks about the Jews who preceded Christ, known as the Essenes, who are credited with having written the Dead Sea Scrolls. Although there have been numerous books written about the Dead Sea Scrolls, I find Dr. Potter's no-frills early edition to be on the money, and in plain English. If Christ was not an Essene, or taught by them, then at the very least, they and their Teacher of Righteousness influenced him. Space doesn't permit me to go into every aspect of this awesome little book, but if you ever suspected that the Bible has been tampered with intentionally by mankind, then read this book. You won't be disappointed. Dr. Potter names what was added and deleted, the date, place and by whom, and all the information he cites can be found in other sources and verified as accurate. If you are the kind of person who has a bumper sticker that says something to the effect of, "God said it, it's in the Bible, and that's the end of it," don't bother to read Dr. Potter's book; it will offend you.
Joyce believed in and participated in metaphysics in St. Petersburg for many decades when it was a very unpopular thing to do. She told me several stories about how people with more rigid spiritual views than her own had tried to make things difficult for her and had done so through the years. For the most part, she really would not let it get to her. She would always tell herself that that was where they were at and that was okay.
She spent many hours a day in her 80's praying and meditating. Towards the beginning of our relationship I got an idea of just how well she was able to manifest things. To manifest something is to put forth a prayer or affirmation to Spirit, or God, or whatever name you find comfortable to refer to the Divine Force in the Universe. In this prayer or affirmation, you state what you want to have happen, and then expect it to happen. The expecting it to happen is having faith that it will take place. A few years after meeting and knowing Joyce, I started to date a woman that I would end up being with for seven years. When she and I first started dating we would go out to eat at local restaurants, every weekend, in the middle of the tourist season here. Now, if you are a native and live in St. Pete and choose to go to certain restaurants that the tourists go to, you know you will have to hunt for parking and have a long wait to be seated. Well, that just wasn't happening. Every week we would go out to eat, and, lo and behold, a parking place would appear at the front door out of nowhere. Instead of a long wait, tables would seemingly appear to open up out of nowhere. This was going on for months and completely baffling the two of us until one day that we had Joyce over for dinner. Joyce, with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eyes, asked us after dinner if we were having any luck finding parking places when we went out to eat on the weekends. In a flash we both knew she was responsible for our remarkable streak of good luck! She said she was just trying to make things easier for us, and indeed she had done so. Her actions helped convince me of the power of positive affirmations.
Joyce never had a regimen of teaching me spirituality; she would present things as the opportunities made themselves available. For instance, one day in the late '80s I was working at home on one of my Native American sculptures. (I left Sears in '85 and had decided to pursue making my living as a self-employed sculptor. I started carving wood about the time my son was born in '71. Remember I said earlier that twice I had a teacher appear when I was ready? In '79, an American master wood carver, who lives in St. Augustine, made me his protege. He had spent three-and-a-half years studying the art/craft in Oberammergau, Germany, and trained me to be an artist on the many weekends that we worked together. In the '80s, I was one of a handful of American wood carvers to be nominated and accepted into the Guild of Master Craftsmen International of the United Kingdom and was also asked to start Florida's first ever statewide wood carving competition and exhibition. This annual event, put on by the Florida State Fair Authority, provided me some income, and I was also teaching wood sculpture at St. Petersburg College. So this was where I was at when this lesson of Joyce's took place. I looked across the street from the studio that was in my house and noticed an elderly neighbor attempting to change a flat tire on his car. I put my sculpting tools down and walked across the street and offered to help. The neighbor was thrilled that I was changing his tire, because it was really a bit more than he was able to do. It only took a few minutes to get his spare put on so that he could drive down to the tire store and have it fixed. As I started across the street to where I lived, the neighbor and his wife both thanked me for my help. If they hadn't thanked me it wouldn't have bothered me very much, as I was glad to help, and besides, I had only spent about ten minutes of time at that. Later on that day, I told Joyce about changing that neighbor's tire when she told me her "life is like a bank account" story. She told me that back in the ‘20s, when she was working as a bookkeeper at a local bank, a strong thought/message had come to her. She said that every time you help someone you make a deposit for your soul, and that every time you harm someone or something, you make a withdrawal from your soul's account. Naturally, at the end of your life you want to have more deposits than withdrawals. "So Peter,” she concluded, “In reality, in a way, you should be thankful for the opportunity for changing their tire, because it gave you the opportunity to make a deposit for your soul." She was totally right and in an instant I recognized that what she had said was completely profound. It was to be about a half -a -dozen years later that I recognized that what she was talking about was a system of service to others. This was one of the main concepts that Christ and Buddha were trying to tell us about.
Joyce also turned me on to the writings of, and about, Edgar Cayce. She felt that Cayce was sincere and that he was giving messages to mankind. In her opinion, he was tuned into the Akashic record (a record of all things that have ever or are likely to take place in our Universe), something I would find confirmed years later in The Law of One. (Much more about this awesome material later on.) Like everything else, she waited for me to find Cayce on my own, and then to ask. That's how it was with all the things she taught me. She strongly believed in the individual's rights of free will and never tried to push something on to me. It just wasn't her nature to do so.
Joyce died on October 12, 1992, on my mother's birthday, at almost 91 years of age. Although she was my best friend, and irreplaceable in my life, she and I were glad that she died when she did. The quality of her life deteriorated rapidly in the last few months of her life. She had had a series of small strokes that she had to struggle to recover from each time, and just to communicate had become difficult towards the end. Just shortly before she died, she told me she was ready and that "she had her bags packed." Said she would reserve a seat alongside of her on the switchboard for me. She used to jokingly say that she could picture the two of us as spirit guides/angels working side by side. She always had a great sense of humor and never took herself too seriously. Regardless of who or what I am, or may ever be as a soul, I know that I have been blessed to have been loved and guided by her.
Chapter 7, Meeting the Tampa Group and the Entity Called FORM
A few months before Joyce died, by a series of coincidences, I was led to a group of about a dozen old-soul types who gathered to meet once a week over in Tampa. I had met two women at a Unity church in Tampa on a Sunday and they had struck me as peace-loving, evolved souls who knew how to love. Imagine my surprise when a man I met in Clearwater, on the following Tuesday, introduced me to a group in Tampa, and there were the two women I had just met! I knew that Spirit wanted me to meet this group of people because two separate ways to be led to them were shown to me. I was sure that had a friend not introduced me to the man in Clearwater, then I would have gotten to know the two women better at the Unity church in Tampa. Either way, I knew I was supposed to be a part of this Tampa group that I had just met.
The group consisted of about a dozen people. They were about half male and half female, and the average age would have been late thirties or early forties. Every member of this group was very dedicated to expanding their consciousness and to growing spiritually. They were all highly intuitive and several had a gift for healing people. A couple of them were also able to see colored auras around people. They all knew that they were old souls, somehow connected, and were very harmonious with each other. They welcomed me and I immediately felt very comfortable with them.
They met once a week at the apartment of one of the group members to trade information on a variety of subjects in the realm of spirituality. There was a definite searching or seeking for the truth going on within these people as there was with myself. Meditating as a group was always done at these meetings and would bring an immediate sense of peace from the treadmill-running pace of the work world we all brought through the door with us. One of the things that was wonderful is that you could actually feel the love energy in the air around this group. Any spiritual group who meets with a goal of expanding their love and peace will also experience this. Often, if someone was feeling physically or emotionally low, we would put him or her down in a chair and stand around them and think and radiate love towards that person to heal them. If you were the person sitting in the chair, you could easily feel the love energy and feel yourself healing. Now, I want to point out that any, and I do mean any, group of people can do the same thing with regard to channeling love energy. You simply hold your hands out towards the person in the chair (they can be standing also) and visualize a column of pink healing love energy being directed by your hands directly into the person you are healing, while at the same time thinking love thoughts towards the person. If you go at this with a negative or doubtful attitude about it working, it won't work. One of the most important things I can tell you in this book is this: Anytime you are praying, trying to manifest something, or doing a healing on someone, you must believe that it will work, or nothing happens. Sometimes you won't be able to believe at first, so in that case, you fake it until you make it. The more that you are around others that know how to believe the less that you will need to fake it, for you will start to believe also. Now is not the place in this book to expound on why it is so important to believe; I will save it for later on, but I will tell you that when you have belief, you are having faith. This is one of the important things Christ was trying to teach mankind.
One of the things that I discovered very quickly as a common denominator type thing with the group, and other old souls I was to meet later in the Tampa Bay area, was that eating red meat usually falls away from us as we grow and awaken spiritually. It seems to be a gradual process with most people I've observed. It was strange: several months before joining this group, I had turned down a free steak dinner on my birthday in favor of a local fish called grouper. That was when I had started really noticing that I had very little desire for red meat. In fact, it just didn't digest the same in my body any longer. Within two months of my birthday, I had stopped eating beef, pork, and lamb and had resorted to eating fish, chicken and turkey instead. It wasn't something that I had made some kind of a conscious decision about; it simply just took place in my life.
The group ran itself quite harmoniously without the need for one person to be in charge, although one could see that a few in the group were thought of as perhaps older or wiser and were looked up to. One of these, a woman named Margaret, lived here in St. Pete, like myself. She and I became friends. I remember our first conversation because she was one of the ones who saw auras. She told me that she knew who I was by looking at my aura. "So who am I?" I replied. She proceeded to describe my aura, but not just the aura itself. She told me that there were geometric shapes that "floated" above my head that told her that I was a very old soul. Margaret then said, matter of factly, "I think your main job in this incarnation is to counter the forces of darkness." By now, being told this kind of thing didn't rattle me, though it did increase my curiosity. Another of the leader types told me similar things about myself, and I filed that away, too.
Once a month the majority of people in the group would gather together to listen to a channel, and they invited me to join them, which I did. Before I tell you about the experience let me explain a little about channeling. A channel is a person who changes his or her consciousness by going into a deep form of meditation, or trance. When channelers are in this state of mind, they then allow an entity, or personality, to speak to them or through them. There are a few channelers that are able to stay conscious when they channel, but they are very rare and usually have been channeling for a very long time. When the personality speaks through them they usually will have a different voice than their own. Usually the channeler's mannerisms, such as hand gestures and posture, will also change.
We drove to an apartment complex in the Tampa Bay area where we were admitted to a fairly large, modern apartment where the channeler lived. He appeared to be in his forties, quite outgoing and friendly. After about 15-20 guests showed up and seated themselves in a semi-circle in front of his recliner, John the channel sat down and proceeded to put himself into a trance. Within a few minutes, after a bit of trembling, John's personality did a complete transformation as the entity that calls itself "FORM" started talking. (FORM is an acronym of the entity's name.) FORM greeted everyone and was quite obviously looking through John's eyes. My very first gut feeling as I watched FORM talk was an uncomfortable one. When I asked myself why I was feeling this way, I immediately knew it was because I felt that FORM was an entity from the Dark, not the Light. It was nothing that he was saying that made me feel this way. On the contrary, what he was saying was phenomenal. The words of wisdom about love, life, health and relationships were profound!
Because the message was so powerful, and because the people I was with were so in support of this entity, I didn't dwell on this thought and feeling that FORM was from the Dark. I simply didn't want to believe that. I was warned ahead of time not to interrupt him when he was talking or to arrive late; FORM didn't like either. He would use a type of sarcasm to let the late person know he didn't appreciate his or her being late. He would do it with such intelligent wit and tact that latecomers often didn't realize that he was admonishing them. The majority of the audience kept a very low profile lest they be the targets of his biting wit.
Another reason they kept a low profile was because it quickly became apparent that FORM was able to read their thoughts as they were thinking things. He would be talking with someone and often tell them their thoughts, or gently nudge the truth out of them if they tried to hold back. This was very unnerving and took some getting used to. One thing for sure, this wasn't John putting on an act or faking it. The intelligence that FORM exhibited in conversing with several people simultaneously, and with total recall, and then being able to pick up where he left off on subject matter that was rather deep, was beyond impressive. I never entertained any thoughts that John could be faking all this because it was very apparent that no human possessed the I.Q. we were witnessing.
FORM went for about an hour and a half and would take a break to rest John. John would go lie down for about a half-hour while the guests mingled and would then return. He would put himself into a trance again, and FORM would be there. FORM would then talk for about another hour and then lead those gathered in a meditation. As he guided the group through the meditation, FORM talked about raising the energy level in the room, and that's exactly what he did. The love energy in the room that FORM generated was quite real and intense, as though you could cut it with a knife.
At the end of all this, my friends from the Tampa group asked me what I thought about all that had taken place. I told them about the gut feeling I had about FORM being a Dark entity posing as serving the Light. They didn't want to begin to entertain this thought. They were very adamant that FORM was from and serving the Light. I was to discover later that the ones who were most adamant weren't just tied into FORM's monthly sessions, but had also gone for private one-on-one readings with FORM. Since I wanted to be accepted and fit in, I kept silent about my thoughts about who or what FORM was in the months that followed.
Chapter 8, Learning, Growing, and Experiences
I quickly put my initial gut feelings about FORM behind me and assumed that he was from the "Good Guys." After all, his messages about life and love were so educational. At the urgings of some of the Tampa group I even went to him for several personal readings. I had even rationalized to myself that FORM's habit of cleverly putting people on the spot, of course always with great tact and cleverness, was just his "personality" showing through. I did, however, tape both the personal readings and the monthly meetings and would analyze every session. By doing this, over time, I started to see a pattern emerge, which I will discuss a bit later on.
I had quit trying, after seven years of effort, to support myself as an artist. I had to put in 70-80 hours per week just to make ends meet, and I wanted more time to put into my spiritual studying and reading. I wanted to do something that would allow me to use my hand-eye coordination and art skills, so I went to work for a dental lab. In early '93 I also sold my house to give me more time and money to further my studies of spirituality.
I found a group in the St. Pete area that was very similar in a lot of ways to the Tampa group. They met at a metaphysical bookstore for about six months and had about twenty-five people participating once a week. The very first night that I was at the St. Pete group, a woman named Darla approached me at the break. Darla was considered by this group as probably the most psychic, and she also saw auras. She asked my permission to share with me what she was seeing in my aura, and I agreed. She told me that there was a fairly large geometric shape floating directly above my head in my aura. She proceeded to draw the shape of it, and it resembled what a cartoonist might draw as a lightning bolt. Darla went on to tell me that she had never seen anything like it floating in other people's auras, and that her intuition told her that I was a very strong soul incarnated here to show people spiritual truth. She only stayed in this area for about six months and then went back to Dallas where she had come from. While she was here we became friends and she also gave me several psychic readings.
Shortly after Darla left St. Pete I had another unusual experience. I was having dinner with my friend Margaret at the Hurricane, a popular seafood restaurant on St. Petersburg Beach, on a Sunday afternoon. A young woman in her early twenties was sitting with a couple about her same age and was staring quite a lot at Margaret and me as we ate. After a bit, she walked over to our table and just awkwardly stood there for a few seconds before speaking. She asked Margaret and me if we were psychics, and Margaret and I looked at each other and smiled at each other. We are both very intuitive, but don't consider ourselves to be psychics. We asked the young woman to join us. As she sat down, Margaret turned to her and said, "You see our auras, don't you?" The woman said, "Yes," and added that she hadn't seen auras like ours, except once in the past she had seen a psychic whose aura was similar to ours. Not being able to see auras myself, I’d always had a certain amount of skepticism when Margaret and Darla described seeing my aura. The perfect stranger staring at me and then feeling compelled to walk up to me at the restaurant ended my skepticism right then and there!
From the late 80s, until just recently, I have gone to numerous psychics in the Tampa Bay area. Things that Joyce had told me had raised a desire in me to find out more about who I was and what I was supposed to do here in this incarnation. On top of that, people telling me they were seeing things in my aura were obviously sparking my curiosity, too. Besides who I was, my other main subject of interest, that I would ask questions about, was relationships and when my mate was to show up in my life. I would hear about psychics mostly from friends. If the psychic was supposed to be very good and accurate then I would go to him or her. I would generally go to the psychic at least twice, and often three or four times. Each time I went I would record them. I would prepare questions ahead of time and then would compare the tapes and write out notes to myself as to what I felt was going on. I would make a mental note to myself if I heard something during a reading that didn't resonate with me. In other words, did what was being told to me feel like the truth, or could it have possibly been a lie? I also would make note if the psychic during the reading would say he, she, or they, such as "They are telling me..." In all, I went to at least twenty psychics. I started going to them looking for answers, until I learned enough about true spirituality to know that you can never solve your problems or really get your answers through psychics. The last half dozen I went to were strictly as research. I learned a lot and found patterns going on.
The Tampa group ended up becoming uncomfortable for me and my friend Margaret. Several of the members got into channeling, and, in my opinion, they weren't too discerning about whom or what they channeled. They weren't challenging the entities that came through. They would bring in any entity that came to them without much concern as to whether it was serving the Light or the Dark.
At the same time I was going to the Tampa group, I had met a woman in St. Pete who had gotten into channeling. She started channeling an entity that called itself Ashtar. I knew from what she was telling me that this Ashtar wasn't a positive entity. At the time, I also was in communication with a friend in Arizona who had told me that a lot of people out there had experienced channeling an entity named Ashtar that claimed to be a positive entity but turned out to be from the Dark. They had found out that if several strong-willed people challenged whether it served the Light or not, it would leave. I spent a lot of time trying to educate my St. Pete acquaintance on the differences between positive and negative entities and the need for discernment by challenging an entity to be sure that you are communicating with a positive one. I wasn't successful with her. She had been trying for the past several years to get any entity to come to her, so that when Ashtar showed up, she only half-heartedly challenged it. Any challenging must always be done with one hundred percent conviction that it will work, or it won't! Since the entity was talking about love, this woman, who was an engineer, allowed the entity to appeal to her ego and ended up leaving St. Pete in a hurry when it told her to move. A year later, an acquaintance of hers told me she even let the mortgage company foreclose on her condo. I later found that the Dark often tells people to move across the country to find their soulmate etc., in order to separate the Lightworker from their friends and family. Once away from their friends and family the Dark can often bring these people to take their own lives, or "arrange" for accidents and illnesses to befall them. Each positive energy Lightworker the Dark can do away with increases the negativity on our planet.
Next thing I knew, one of the group in Tampa had gathered everyone together to hear "Ashtar." My friend Margaret and I challenged the entity coming through as Ashtar, and it left that afternoon, and wouldn't come back with her and me present. We asked Ashtar to say, "Jesus Christ is Lord." A negative entity won't make that statement. Shortly after that, the woman who had tried to bring in Ashtar was certain she was channeling Mary, but my instincts told me it wasn't Mary. This humble, sincere, and spiritually seeking woman was positive it was Mary because the entity was appearing to her as a hologram right in her own house. Please realize that the Dark has the very same access to every form of energy that exists as the positive service-to-others entities have. I had no intention of subjecting myself to channeled entities or energies that I felt were from the Dark, so I left the Tampa group about two years after I had originally joined it. Margaret and several others left the group shortly after I did. All of us from the original group have managed to stay friends and acquaintances and occasionally run into each other in the Bay area at health food stores and metaphysical events.
Early in the nineties I started having something take place in my life that at first I was reluctant to mention to anyone. When I feel calm and feel as though I'm in the arms of Spirit, and that Spirit is directing my life, I am directed to see repeating digits. I see 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, etc. on clocks, timers, tape counters, and often see this phenomena three or four times in a single day. My wristwatch, incidentally, is the analog type with hands. I'll be watching TV or driving down the road, and I will find myself looking at the clock on the dash, and there it is. It started happening to me in '91 and has been ongoing. I get a warm comforting feeling when I see this, as though my guardian angel or spirit guide is saying hello to me. When I asked Spirit what was happening when it first took place, I was told that communication from our guides and angels must be very subtle because of free will. I was told that this form of communication was allowed since it didn’t violate our free will. I learned a few months ago that one of my dearest friends, a prominent Tampa businesswoman named Patricia, has been having the very same thing happen to her, and also got the same message when she meditated that it was a guide or angel saying "hello." I'm mentioning this seeing 1:11, 2:22, etc. because I have a feeling that many people are having this happen to them presently, or will start to.
Through the years I have learned that Spirit communicates in some very subtle ways. It is not uncommon to be drawn to a sign in a store, or on the roadside when you are driving in your car. It can be painted, neon, carved out of wood, anything that contains letters and words. What to look for is this: you will think of the word, or words, at the precise same time that your eye spots it on the sign. If it is a message from Spirit, you will "feel" it, and sometimes you may find the hair raising on your arms, or get what is commonly known as goose bumps or chill bumps on your skin. You may find yourself listening to music and hear the word or words as you think them and simultaneously see them on a sign. That combination really gets your attention! Be open to the subtle ways that Spirit can, and does, communicate with us. Anytime something happens that has a very high mathematical probability against happening, such as seeing 1:11, 2:22, and 3:33 several times in the same day, ask yourself what is going on. Then be open to the possibility that Spirit is trying to say "hello" or more.
I wrote the preceding two paragraphs late this past Friday night, and thought I was through with the subject about ways Spirit communicates. This weekend, Spirit showed me another one with a very powerful message. Saturday morning, after playing tennis, I stopped at a health food store here in St. Pete to buy a few items. When the register total came up, the total was $22.22. It was the first time, in a very long time, that I had a purchase at a store come up with repeating digits. This story gets better. Sunday, after church, I had decided to go to a local park to meditate on exactly what order was best to write about the topics that are coming up in the next few chapters. On the way to the park, I stopped at my local Publix supermarket to pick up some loose-leaf notebook paper and a few other items, and the total was $11.11! Saturday, when the total was $22.22, got me thinking, but yesterday, when it was $11.11, I knew Spirit was trying to tell me something profound and very significant!
At the park Sunday, I worked on the order of the chapters for several hours by sitting in a lawn chair overlooking a canal that borders some forest. It borders the interstate in St. Pete, so I masked that noise, and the banging noise of an outside target shooting range, by listening through headphone to some mellow relaxing music as I worked. Before I started to work on the order of my book’s topics, I said some prayers and asked Spirit what was being shown to me by the two purchases and what exactly did Spirit want me to tell my readers.
Late in the afternoon the significance of the $22.22 and $11.11 was revealed to me. I was told by my own higher self that when I see repetitious numbers on a clock, such as the TV cable box, it is comforting, and sometimes I know I am getting a confirmation on something I am thinking about at the time. Then the reality hit me! I realized beyond any doubt that I had been directly guided. Spirit had guided me in the precise selection of several items at both stores. Although I had a general idea of the things I wanted to buy, I hadn't made my mind up to exactly what I was going to buy. You see, part of my daily prayers is to ask Spirit to show me what is in my best interest, in every affair of my life every day. That is exactly what happened! Spirit used the purchases to demonstrate how when we seek Spirit’s guidance how they come through our higher self’s thoughts to gently show us what is in our best interest without ever violating our free will!
Perhaps the most important thing I will share with you in this book is that in order to truly connect to Spirit, you must ask from your heart with total sincerity, on some kind of a regular basis, to be shown the way. You can say, "Father, show me the way," "Spirit, Guide me," "Jesus, I surrender my will." Any phrase of words spoken from the heart, which are similar to these, will put Spirit in your life guiding you. You still make the choices of what you want in your life, for Spirit can never violate your free will by making your choices for you. The important difference is that when we invite Spirit into our lives, the guiding and nudging process to bring us the greatest amount of joy, happiness and ease begins. This happens because once you ask Spirit to guide you, your actual true legitimate guides are then allowed to do so with far more freedom than before you gave them "permission." This is directly because of the Law of Free Will. Even the Light will not come to you without your permission. The law of free will prohibits contact unless you freely give your permission. I had it demonstrated to me this past weekend so that it would end up here on these pages for you to read!
Chapter 9, Seeing the Big Picture and Finding The Law of One
In the nineties I learned that there are no coincidences, that Spirit put me in situations so that I would go to psychics and channels. I had to dance with the Dark, and go through several years of frustration and confusion, before the truth emerged and my knowingness resonated with that truth. Many times I had to learn these things on my own and had to be able to stand alone in order to learn them. My main ability to figure things out stemmed from my intuition, or we can call it a gut feeling on things, my knowingness. What I am describing is my "higher self," and everyone has one.
My first major discovery was that the entity FORM was intentionally causing me grief. In the monthly meetings, I had gotten comfortable in being one of the ones to converse with him on a regular basis. If I asked a question that would challenge what he was saying in the slightest way, he would give me an answer that would try to embarrass me in front of the others. If it weren’t an intention to embarrass, then it would be something said to me in an attempt to shake my self-confidence. In other words he was trying to implant doubts and fears, -- and sometimes succeeding -- all the while teaching lessons about love, relationships and the like. He was so subtle and clever that I would find myself having to listen to the taped sessions to make sure I wasn't imagining things or taking something the wrong way. Where I noticed him doing this the most was when I went to him for one-on-one counseling, or in small groups that were of a seminar nature. These small seminar type groups were usually done on a weekend day or days. I mentioned some of this to friends at the seminars and was told that I was indeed imagining things. Like I said, I had to learn to stand alone. I finally came to the conclusion that my original gut feeling about FORM was correct, it was from the Dark serving the Dark. When I stopped going to FORM, my attitude and disposition improved dramatically. I even ended up making a humorous statement about it to several of my closest friends. I told them I was no longer on FORM power, but had switched over to internal "Peter" power. At the time I didn't know how right I was. In reality, what I had done was reconnect much stronger with that "higher self" we all possess for the answers. I was going within for the answers. It took several years, but most of the original Tampa group stopped going to FORM for the very same reasons that I had. They started noticing that FORM was teaching love, but building fear and doubts into them in the process. These were the same people who had previously thought I was imagining things about FORM, until they finally noticed it was happening to them. By not listening to my original gut feelings about FORM I had overridden my own "higher self's" message to me that he was from the Dark.
About the same time that I had figured out FORM was from the Dark, I started to notice some disturbing patterns in the psychics I was going to. The majority of them were doing things that were somewhat similar to FORM: They were trying to build doubt in places where previously there was none. I was also being told a lot of things that were clearly not in my best interest. After figuring FORM out, I was far more inclined to pay attention to my gut feelings when I was receiving readings and then go back and listen to the tape and make notes to myself. One of the prime examples of information being told to me that I didn't feel was in my best interest was the advice from several psychics that I should move, directing me out west. I went through about a year-and a-half span where I was being told that on a regular basis. I have visited the west, but don’t feel comfortable there. Each year that went by found me more and more skeptical of the psychics that I was going to.
In this same period I started to see a common message in the overwhelming majority of channeled books that I was reading that just didn't resonate with me at all. This message was that "evil exists only in the minds of men." Besides feeling this was a lie, I also reasoned that if evil existed in the minds of men only, why was Christ teaching mankind the Lord's prayer, which states, "Deliver us from evil?" Why the numerous references in the Bible about the Dark? Why the reference to "sons of darkness" in the Dead Sea Scrolls? It wasn't that I didn't believe that evil exists in the minds of men, for I do believe that all mankind has the ability to choose to be as good or evil as they want to be. A local reverend named Pat summed it up quite well one Sunday when she was talking about Native American beliefs. She said that there was a Native American saying that went something like this: "Every brave has a white dog and a black dog inside of them; it is up to the brave to figure out which dog to feed." Mankind choosing to be good or evil has always been a fact. Next I started to wonder if there are "beings" elsewhere in our Universe who choose to be evil, as the Dead Sea Scrolls seem to suggest. If there were, that would make the statement "Evil exists only in the minds of men" a lie, or at best, a half-truth.
I found the answers to these questions and many more in a book that impacted me as no other book ever has. The book is The Law of One: Book 1 by Ra an [sic] humble messenger of the Law of One. It has been published under that original name (as Ra requested) and also under the name of The Ra Material. The last printing of the book had both names listed and it can be found under both on bookstore computers. The three people responsible for the channeling of this book prefer that it be known as The Law of One and I whole-heartedly agree. Only the first volume goes by the dual titles; the subsequent volumes go by the name of The Law of One.
The first time I read the book I had a wonderful feeling of "remembering" what was in it. To say that this book resonated with me and that my knowingness told me I was reading the truth is an understatement. The book impacted me so strongly that words cannot describe it.
Two of the authors, Don Elkins and Carla Rueckert, spent about 19 years attempting, with mixed success, telepathically communicating with extraterrestrial beings. They were joined by another person, James McCarty, in 1980. On January 15, 1981, the three, using Carla as the instrument, made contact with an entity called Ra. Ra identified himself as an ancient astronaut from a sixth-density society, or civilization that it referred to as a social memory complex six billion years beyond us in evolution. Ra, who speaks with the authority and wisdom of all of the souls from Ra, spoke through Carla over a space of several years. In other words, Carla was channeling Ra, and Don Elkins was formulating questions to ask Ra. This was similar to John channeling FORM; the huge difference is that Ra is from a group of intelligent beings that, unlike FORM, serve God.
Ra began by telling them that there is only one law in the Universes (the Universes are infinite in number), and that law is the Law of One. It essentially means that all things are one with what we call God. What we call God, Ra calls the Infinite Creator. For the sake of simplicity, I will use the word Creator from this point on. The Creator, according to Ra, is pure love, which is also pure light. All beings are from this love/light, even the Dark, and yes, according to Ra, they most certainly do exist as beings. The first distortion, as Ra refers to it, of the Law of One is the Law of Confusion, which Ra says we call the law of free will. According to Ra, God, who I have been referring to as Spirit, which is God and its appointed hierarchy of angels and guides, is never about guilt, fear and judgment. Guilt and fear were put into our Bible from what Ra refers to as the Orions, who in our Universe come from the stars that make up the Orion Nebula in our galaxy. Ra calls the Orions the negatives. They call themselves the Empire. I call these negatives the Dark. One could also call them satanic or evil. Ra belongs to what is known as the Confederation, short for Confederation of Planets in Service to the Infinite Creator. It is not a coincidence that you have heard the names Confederation and Empire in both television and movie productions here on Earth. According to Ra, writers, producers and directors are frequently given "material" in their dreams. This material is intended over time to educate Earth's population to some of the realities that actually take place in outer space.
Ra, and the other members of the Confederation being in service to the Creator, are always in service to others and are considered as being of positive polarity. The Dark are always in service to self and are known as the negatives. Ra goes on to explain that this earth is a third-density planet in the process of changing into a fourth-density planet of positive polarity and that the people on Earth are third density. According to Ra, nothing will stop Earth from becoming a fourth-density-positive planet. The issue has already been decided in the heavens.
Third density is the density of self-awareness. Third density could also be described as the density of feelings, both physical and emotional. It is a place where new beings with a consciousness, and a higher self to guide them, come to incarnate many times.
The main purpose of incarnating in third density is for the being, through many incarnations, to choose or pick whether it wants to be in service to self or service to others. Third is the only density where beings that are in service to self and service to others live on the same planet.
Just as there are seven colors in the visible color spectrum and seven musical notes in an octave, there are seven planes in each density. The soul must master the lessons in each of the seven planes of a density to be "harvested" (harvested is Ra's term) or accepted into the next highest density. For those of us on Earth, learning self-awareness means to experience the physical and emotional feelings living on Earth exposes us to. There are planets that are of first and second density, but these planets only support mineral, plant and animal life forms, not beings with a system of consciousness such as we possess.
Fourth density, which we are moving towards, is called the density of love or understanding. Fifth density is called the density of light or wisdom. Sixth is light/love, love/light or unity. Seventh is called the gateway density and Ra describes it as the cycle (a density is also called a cycle) where we become one with all, having no memory, identity, past or future, but existing in the all. Ra refers to eighth density as "A mystery not to be plumbed."
In each incarnation here in a third density world we are always choosing a polarity of being in service to self (what we commonly call evil, dark, satanic or negative) or service to others, which Ra calls Christ-consciousness. Service to others is what Buddha, Christ and other masters who have incarnated on Earth have tried to teach mankind.
All of the densities above third are polarized as being either positive or negative. For example, if you were a fourth-density negative entity (being) you would not be able to live on a fourth-density positive planet.
Let me illustrate how societies live in the densities above third density. Beings, such as the sixth-density beings of Ra, are in service to, and help, the beings in the densities below theirs. They do this by answering the call or desire for help from the densities below theirs while letting the beings choose their own evolution. In other words, they help to the best of their ability without compromising the free will of self-government to those helped.
The Dark sixth-density being has one goal and one goal only, and that is to enslave all the beings in the densities below it. It also has to abide by the Law of Free Will and somewhat does, but never to the degree that the forces of Light adhere to. The Dark are consistently trying to sell the idea of service to self to those here in third density who will listen, for this is the only density where they can "recruit" beings into their system. The forces of Light far outnumber the forces of Darkness in our Universe and all the other Universes. Approximately ninety percent of all the beings in the densities above us are in service to others.
The information in The Law of One is really staggering. Ra explains that the reason Earth hasn't made contact with extraterrestrials in a confirmed way such as UFOs being readily visible to the masses is because we are quarantined intentionally by those above us. An example of this quarantine is that SETI, the Search for Extra Terrestrial Intelligence, which has been monitoring the Universe for radio signals of alien life since 1960, hasn't picked up the first alien radio transmission. As for UFOs landing on the White House lawn, it's a nice story line for science fiction movies, but it’s not going to happen. For either the forces of Light (Confederation) or forces of Darkness (Empire) to do so would be a gross violation of the free will of the people living on this planet. Think of it: Some people would be in awe of the aliens and want to call them Gods, and others would be in fear and taking their lives, regardless of which aliens landed. According to Ra, there are councils that oversee who is allowed to appear (the Confederation and the Empire both send UFOs here) in our skies and for that matter also land and make contact with us. These councils balance the contact that either side has with us and ensure our free will.
Per Ra, where humans were abducted or felt fear when contacted by aliens, this has been the work of the Dark. The Dark stay away from people who have chosen positive polarity. They must respect free will and can also be commanded away the same way you would challenge a channeled entity. Because of free will, I would advise anyone seeing a UFO not to think or say anything asking or giving permission to go aboard the UFO. For instance, if you don't want to be abducted, don't say or think something along the lines of "Scotty, beam me up." You just might get your wish. As I stated earlier, the service-to-others members of the Confederation, also known as Christ-consciousness beings, also "visit" us from time to time. I would advise anyone seeing a UFO to be sure of his or her polarity and be very specific in making any contact with the UFO. Contact with the Dark's UFOs is almost always a fearful experience. Contact with Confederation members, although less likely to occur, is always a pleasurable experience leaving you feeling loved. When in doubt, attempt no contact!
Ra states that the earth will become a fourth-density planet right around the year 2011. Fourth density is described by Ra as a density of love where people are telepathic when they choose to communicate that way. The people are aware of the thoughts of others and they are in total harmony with each other. There are individual differences, but they are automatically harmonized by group consensus. The people are more full of life than third density. These are some of the major descriptions of life in fourth density. The first time I read the description in the Ra material, the words of Christ in his sermon on the mount, in Matthew 5:5, came to my mind: "Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth."
Ra stated that Earth changes are a necessary part of the earth converting to a fourth-density positive planet and that collective consciousness of humankind will affect the number and severity of the Earth changes. It went on to state that the earthquakes, floods, etc. will act as catalysts for mankind. This is easy to see when a disaster strikes. I remember years ago when Hurricane Andrew hit south of here, some people in service to self were selling water for ten dollars a gallon; of course, many others helped their neighbors instead. Ra tells that in order for a human being to live through these times and be harvested into fourth density, the person must be able to love and forgive. Each person will have to do it for himself or herself and that just talking about love won't get the job done. People must walk their talk. In fact, Ra says that each human being must be a minimum of 51 percent in service to others, in his or her polarity, in order to be harvested into fourth density. Humans that aren't able to be harvested into fourth density will begin third density over again on another third-density planet. (There are hundreds of third density planets in our Universe.) No being on earth will be allowed to sit on a fence; everyone alive in these present times will have to choose service to self or service to others. Those that are virtually total service to self will be harvested into a fourth-density negative planet.
There are on the earth presently, approximately 65 to 90 million souls that Ra calls Wanderers. They are spread among the earth's population. Given the earth's population, about one in every 125-150 people is a Wanderer. According to Ra these Wanderers are souls from fourth, fifth and mostly sixth density that have agreed to incarnate on the earth at this point in time. They are very old souls that are here to offset the negativity on earth and to help increase the harvest. These Wanderers can be found in every walk of life and in every country on Earth. Some have occupations that limit the number of people they influence directly, such as farming. Others, my knowingness tells me, are some of the current movie directors who are making films that are influencing mankind to be more loving and compassionate. Wanderers have been coming to Earth all through mankind's evolutionary progress, and Ra names Ben Franklin and Thomas Jefferson as examples of these. If you are getting a strong feeling that I am describing you, and you would like additional information on this subject, read the insightful book From Elsewhere by Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., who enthusiastically endorses The Ra Material as being the truth. He says, "Without a doubt The Ra Material is the single most important source of written teaching I've ever encountered." When Mandelker made this statement the book was more widely known as The Ra Material and today it’s known more commonly as The Law of One.
Incidentally, you will find many other topics in The Law of One besides what I am able to talk about here, including how the pyramids were built and how we as people got here on this earth. This would be a good time to point out that the channeling sessions covered two-and-a-half years and that the entire material is contained in a total of five volumes. The first book goes by the titles The Law of One and The Ra Material, but the remaining four volumes go under the name The Law of One. I've read volumes 2-4 at least twice each, and have read the first book about four or five times. (Vol. 5 was just released in 1998.) Ra used a very formal English that leaves no doubt to his meaning. Still, most people may need to read something more than once to really understand what is being said.
One of the questions I asked myself quite a while ago you may be asking yourself, so allow me to play skeptic and also share what I believe. That question is, are the five books fake, or false? Let's explore this.
To begin with, there have been several people involved with this material. The chances of the information having been made up diminish greatly when more than one person has been involved with the channeling. I am not aware of the parties involved profiting, to any significant degree, from this material. On the contrary, their consistent attitude has been more or less of letting people be led to the material. None has tried to get himself or herself or the material into the limelight. I first wrote to Carla in 1994 for advice on a personal matter when I was still confused about what was going on with the psychics and channels I was going to. I received a very thoughtful, detailed, several-page-long reply, dated 2-27-94. Her sincerity and kindness showed all through her reply. I'm sure she had no idea that I would ever write a book promoting The Law of One, for back then I hadn't even entertained the thought. Carla wrote another book that I totally recommend to anyone who wants to know and understand more about discernment in channeling. It is called A Channeling Handbook. What comes across in this small but tremendously valuable book is her sincere desire to serve mankind and dedication to Christ-consciousness. I have looked for years and can find no agenda being filled by any of the parties involved in bringing the words of Ra to mankind. Ra states that these three were chosen to receive the material because of their determination and desire to know the truth, combined with their dedication to Christ-consciousness, or what Ra calls service to others. Carla went into a deep trance for all the Ra sessions. For the first 20 sessions she didn't even read what she had channelled. The three of them chose to do that to be sure what was coming in was totally pure. It also needs to be mentioned, that many things in science, especially in the area of quantum physics were told to mankind back in the first year of contact that science has proven to be true over 30 years later. I indeed invite a close scrutiny of the material by anyone, for I know that its truth will resonate with all who read it.
Chapter 10, Evil Exists Only in the Minds of Men?
If evil exists only in the minds of men, and we as a people on Earth are gullible enough to believe this lie then we are setting ourselves up for all manner of mayhem.
The most common place you will find this lie is in channeled books. Walk into any metaphysical/New Age book store and you will find dozens of channeled works that contain this lie somewhere, usually towards the end of the book. You will also find this lie in channeled books that can be found in nationwide chain stores. I'm not saying that every channeled book contains this lie, but a very high percentage do. In this chapter I will tell you how the Dark manage to get this and many other pieces of misinformation into print. Later, I will show the scenarios and effects of what happens when they are successful.
The Dark get this lie into books because well-intentioned, spiritually seeking people are often misled into believing they are channeling a spirit guide or angel serving the Light when they are not! There is only one God. The forces of Light sent us Christ and other masters to show us a system based upon love and service to others. The Dark, which The Law of One tells us exist as intelligent beings, alive and dedicated to conquest and enslavement, advocate a system that is service to self. Both of these groups of intelligent beings are from that one God, or from the Light.
The Dark often come to people when they are meditating, offering to guide them, and then tell these people that they are from the light. When the Dark makes this statement that they are from the Light, they are technically correct! Since the Light is considered to be God, then they are from God. The big problem with this is that they don't serve the Light or God! The Dark are always in service to the self and their goals are always conquest and enslavement. Remember, God, which is pure love and light, allows total free will, and that means that God doesn't begin to stop the Dark from being the Dark. This play on words about being "from the light" is one of their most common and successful tricks.
If you read a book or any other material that is channeled, and in this book it tells you that in order to connect to your guide you should do specific things, be very cautious. Some examples of specific things would be to ask for a certain specific named entity and sometimes at a specific time or place. To begin with, many channeled books don't mention anywhere in the book that they are channeled. I have seen them published under all kinds of names, including Native American sounding names. The Light will never advocate that you seek a guide or guides. When the written material directs you to meditate at a certain time or day, or tells you to ask for the name of a certain entity or guide, you are about to dance with the Dark if you follow the advice. Remember, the Dark must get your permission, regardless of how slight that permission might be, in order to come to you. The law of free will doesn't allow any member of the Confederation (service to other beings of positive polarity such as Christ) to tell you in printed material to ask for them.
Another trick of the Dark is to provide specific information in books on how to raise your Kundalini energy in order to connect with your "higher self." Kundalini is an ancient Sanskrit word that essentially describes the coiled energy stored at the base of the human spine. Raising one's Kundalini energy is a process of breathing and concentration with the goal of raising and directing the body's energy through the seven Chakra energy points.
Every soul on Earth, including the brand new soul who goes out and robs a convenience store and shoots the clerk without feeling any remorse or sense of guilt, has a higher self. The higher self is a high sixth-density intelligence that is with all of us at all times. To connect to it, we merely need to listen to it. If we want to, we can ignore the feelings it gives to us, or pickle ourselves with drugs and alcohol so that we don't feel. Our higher self communicates with us mainly through feelings but also in thoughts that are our own voice talking to us. When wise men and masters of this earth have said the answers are within us, they were talking about connecting to our higher self.
The ploy of the Dark in getting someone to raise his or her Kundalini energy when he or she is not knowledgeable about spiritual discernment is that the person has essentially been tricked into channeling. It's about as dangerous as sending a young driver out on the freeway in rush-hour traffic when he or she has never driven a car before. A person channeling with little or no discernment will usually be contacted at first by discarnate entities of the Astral planes (ghosts) who will pose as all kinds of things, including spirit guides if they are of service-to-self polarity. Often the new channel can get rid of or see through these contacts, as many of them weren't that intelligent as live human beings on Earth. The real problem is that once someone starts to go "out there" channeling, he or she will sooner or later connect with some very intelligent, but very negative beings, posing as positive service-to-others spirit guides.
If you wish to channel, or channeling comes easy to you, you would have to seek or strongly desire to have a positive, service-to-others entity make contact with you. This also holds true for the process called auto-writing where people's pens start to seemingly move on their own. If you did make contact with a positive entity, the entity would never give you any answers to anything that you would ask that could possibly violate your free will. In other words, a positive entity is not going to guide you by talking to you on a daily basis. Your lessons and Karma are for you to learn and figure out for yourself, and by going within and listening to your higher self you will be guided in this manner instead. When I talked about buying items in stores where the totals added up to $22.22 and $11.11, this was an example of the kind of guidance that Spirit allows that doesn't violate our free will.
Dark entities are by far the easiest to channel and will commonly violate your free will by giving very specific information about yourself or your friends or virtually anything else you seek.
Another thing that throws people off into believing that they have made contact with a positive entity is that the Dark negative entity can send to the channeler the same warm-fuzzy love energy as the positive entity can. Energy, according to Ra, is available for both positive and negative entities to utilize. Not only love energy, but healing energy.
I once attended a small metaphysical-spiritual church in the St. Pete area where I'm sure the reverend was channeling the Dark. I only went there for about five to six weeks, because going there didn't feel right. I came to the conclusion that although this reverend talked about service to others, she was quite selfish and self-serving. I visited her home on several occasions where it was obvious that she was into power seeking, with little regard for where the power was coming from. It was the classic case of not walking one's talk. While going to her church, I needed an operation and was waiting for my medical insurance to begin. One day, I was in pain at my job, and I called her from work. I had seen her do several healings at her church on Sundays. She sent me healing energy over the phone that was very real. I felt a warm sensation in the area that was painful, and an immediate reduction in pain that lasted for several days.
Besides sending energy, the Dark can also make things appear, such as holograms of people. Remember, both the forces of Light and the forces of Darkness have equal access to all the forms of energy that exist in the Universes.
One of the ways the Dark are able to trick people into thinking that they are dealing with an entity of the Light is that the Dark will often teach the very same identical lessons about love, life, relationships, etc. as entities from the Light. This is exactly what was happening when I was dancing with the entity FORM that I used to go to. FORM could and did talk for hours about love and loving. It had me fooled for several years. I have found that the Dark will gladly send out as much as 99 percent service-to-others, positive polarity lessons of truth about things such as love, just to get a few of their lies into a book or to someone channeling them. The Dark know that the channeler, and people who will read the channeled material, will resonate with that 99 percent truth. They use the 99 percent truth to slip in their lies like a smoke screen so that they go unnoticed, their main lie always being that evil doesn't exist, except in the minds of men.
A common form of book channeled from the Dark is what I refer to as the gloom-and-doom type. This kind of book will prophesize catastrophic events to take place on Earth. Sometimes the entity will claim to come from a Federation, or an organization of some kind. The entity will usually have an alien sounding name, such as Triton from Startius. I made these two names up, but I'm sure you get the idea. This kind of a book is designed by the Dark to dispense disinformation about the future of Earth and its inhabitants or simply to cause fear and confusion.
Of course, when the prophesied event fails to take place, the author is embarrassed and usually feels foolish. People just opening up to spirituality will sometimes read the book and, when nothing happens, be turned off and not have any further interest in spiritual matters. Part of this is because they may have told their friends and relatives about a prophesied event that doesn't take place. For example, an author unwittingly channeling the Dark might write about a predicted flood intended to devastate a particular area in a certain year that never materializes.
A book that is channeled from a positive entity will never contain gloom and doom or give you anything close to specific information regarding upcoming Earth changes. In fact, when The Law of One was being channeled, Ra was asked on more than one occasion about Earth changes and never gave any specific answers. Listen to what Ra's answer was regarding this topic: "This inconvenience, or disharmonious vibratory complex, has begun several of your years in your past. It shall continue unabated for a period of approximately thirty of your years." That answer was given by Ra on January 24, 1981. So with this in mind, if you come across a book telling you so-and-so year will be the year of the big flood, this information didn't come from a service-to-others source. They can't and won't violate your free will.
Then there is the techno-mumbo-jumbo book that will attempt to tell you how things really are up there. Its purpose is to confuse you, or make you feel dumb for not really getting it, and sometimes to turn you off from spiritually seeking. One of the books of this type that I read was about the size of a Bible, white with gold lettering, that used biblical terms, and the whole book meant absolutely nothing. I spent weeks trying to get it before I realized what was going on. You will never feel talked down to, belittled, or approached with less than total respect if the material is from a positive source.
I would also advise you to look very closely at any book that contains a "message" from Jesus or Mary, regardless of how many messages of love are in the book. In my opinion, from having read all of The Law of One and other writings, I don't think the real Jesus or Mary is likely to show up in a channeled book to mankind. Nevertheless, they keep appearing in numerous metaphysical books given to mankind by the Dark.
Since we have talked about channeling, allow me to offer some suggestions on the subject. My first advice would be to read Carla Rueckert's A Channeling Handbook. In my opinion, she is one of, if not the, nation's most experienced people on this subject. Next, I advise the would-be channeler to never attempt to channel alone. If you are in a group of people who all have chosen service to others, which is what Ra calls Christ-consciousness, you reduce, but don't always eliminate, the chances of contacting the Dark, meaning a negative entity posing as a positive entity. I would then have the group recite the Lord's prayer and then command and visualize the white light of Christ-consciousness around themselves. When contact is made, ask the entity to say, "Jesus Christ is Lord". If you feel/ think that it may be a Dark entity posing as serving the Light, the channeler must challenge the entity in the name of Jesus Christ to leave and be very emphatic about doing so. This is very important: If the channel making the challenge is not of a very positive polarity (dedicated to service to others) or is the least bit doubtful of his or her ability to challenge the contact, then that contact, if it is from the Dark, will stay and begin to lie to the channeler about itself. The challenge must be done with 100 percent faith that the channel can invoke the name and power of the Light to command the negative entity away. Here in the western world the words Jesus Christ are the most powerful, even though there were other masters who walked the earth. If a challenge is done with 99 percent faith, then it is really "fear," and the entity, if it is Dark, will know this and stay.
Remember that there are some discarnate entities (not living in a physical body, the earth's dead) who inhabit the invisible Astral planes that exist around the earth who are very negative and part of the Dark. These entities will usually leave very quickly if challenged properly. The Dark from higher densities will stay and lie and are extremely clever. I'd also like to point out that I have seen books channeled from the Dark that offer "prayers of protection." If you look carefully at the wording you will see that these false "prayers of protection" will intentionally send the lower Astral plane entities away, while being totally useless against the higher Dark entities. They often contain words about protecting the user of the prayer from "unenlightened spirits." If you channel, constantly realize that the Dark will use any trick to technically get your permission for them to come and "guide" you.
If you choose to channel with the intention of getting the answers for yourself, you will always get the Dark coming through. If your channeling is intended to help or serve others, without a profit to yourself as your main motive, then you will have some chance at connecting with a positive entity. Again, I strongly suggest that you read and study Rueckert's book and others on the subject, and never try channeling alone.
Whether you have read a book, or been the author who had the Dark come to you posing as a "guide" and wrote a book with their help, I want to say that it is easy to be fooled by them. I danced with the Dark on numerous occasions trying to find the truth and know that dancing with them, being fooled by them, was a significant portion of my personal path. Had I not been fooled, I wouldn't have the knowledge or experiences or have had the interest to pursue writing this book. The Dark are very clever. They lie and will take the slightest amount of an invitation as someone seeking them. They will skirt or break the laws of free will at every opportunity, and they just don't play fair. If you have found yourself dancing with the Dark, don't feel bad. You're hardly alone. I would advise you to chalk it up as a learning experience and then file it away. Don't flog yourself over it; many very bright people have been fooled by them, and, unfortunately, many more will continue to be. One of the reasons that it is easy to be fooled by them is that we on earth would like to believe that all extraterrestrials, who are in planes above us and have higher technology than we, are good guys. Unfortunately, that is not the reality.
In The Law of One, session 25, which was channeled on February 16, 1981, Ra talks extensively about battles between the Confederation (known as forces of Light, Christ-consciousness, service to others, positives) and the Orion Confederation (known as forces of Darkness, service to self, satanic, negatives) that are on-going and are fought on higher planes than our third-density existence. In the higher densities above us, there are far more entities of the Light than there are of the Dark. Since both the Light and the Dark must get their fourth-density members from third-density planets such as Earth, both sides are in competition for the souls of the humans here.
I have already described to you how the Dark entity FORM had me fooled into believing I was listening to an entity serving the Light. This has been happening to humans for thousands of years. Ra answered only the questions put to it and never gave out the first bit of information on its own. In many cases, it denied information because it would violate someone's free will. Keep this in mind as you continue reading.
Ra was asked about the entity Moses and stated that Moses was a very positive (service-to-others) person, but that the Dark had a hand in influencing the Ten Commandments so that they ended up starting with "Thou shalt not." Ra stated, in so many words, that "Thou shalt not" never came from the forces of Light, or, so there is no misunderstanding on this, God, or Spirit. Spirit never gives commands to mankind. Ra further states that both the New and Old Testament, more so the Old, were both heavily influenced by the Dark coming to people on Earth. In other words, even the writers of the Old and New Testaments of the Bible were often fooled into believing they were talking to the Light when it was the Dark, posing as the Light, instead! This is one of the major reasons so many organized religions on Earth are at odds with each other!
My purpose in writing this book is not to have everyone looking for Satan in every action of mankind or to get into the morass of what exactly is evil. I am not interested in how Satan broke off from the Creator eons ago. I am totally convinced that evil is very real and exists in the Universe and not just in the minds of men. My main concern with evil is that spiritually seeking people know how to discern when they are dealing with it, wherever they find it.
The best book on the subject of evil that I have encountered is by M. Scott Peck, M.D.. In People of the Lie: The Hope of Healing Human Evil, Peck undertakes a comprehensive study of evil in all forms and states, “There are quite popular systems of thought these days, such as Christian Science or The Course in Miracles, which define evil as unreality. It is a half truth. The spirit of evil is one of unreality, but it itself is real. It really exists. To think otherwise is to be misled. Indeed, as several have commented, perhaps Satan's best deception is its general success in concealing its own reality from the human mind." (Touchstone Paperback Edition, 1983, p. 208)
I certainly do agree with Peck's comments, but since I haven't studied Christian Science at all, I won’t comment about that religion, as for the Course in Miracles, I have many close friends in the Tampa Bay area, who I love dearly, who study it and are quite into it. For the most part, I have observed that because of the Course, these friends don't believe that evil exists outside the minds of men.
Chapter 11, The Price of Dancing With the DarkIn order to show you what happens as a result of the Dark having success with their main lie -- that they don't exist -- and the many other lies that they often get into many channeled books, it is necessary to talk first about psychics.
Over the last 15 years I've gone to at least 25 psychics in the Tampa Bay area. Of these, I believe that only two or three were listening to their higher self only when they gave me a "reading."
Although we have already talked about the higher self, let's review it a bit. It is a direct line to the soul and Universal Intelligence that nothing, not even the Dark, can interfere with. It is that "gut feeling," or what I have referred to as my "knowingness" in several places throughout this book. Another name for it is our intuition. Some people have a very sensitive higher self and we say they possess ESP, or extra-sensory-perception, which is a gift. The two or three psychics that I went to, that I felt were reading their own higher selves, had the gift of ESP.
If I have learned anything from The Law of One and all the other books that I feel contained information on true spirituality, it is that each of us on Earth is here for several purposes. The primary purpose is to learn the lessons third density has to offer us while we continue to grow in consciousness. A secondary purpose is to resolve Karma. I believe sincerely, and have since childhood, that Earth is one big soul testing ground, and The Law of One and other things I've read bear this out. I learned from The Law of One that we incarnate here on earth in third density many times automatically, with Spirit picking our incarnations until we are conscious enough to select our own incarnations. When we become conscious enough, we select parents and major situations in our lifetime for the very best opportunity to grow as souls and balance our Karmic debts. Spirit insures your free will on this earth to do these things. This being the case, in my opinion, you will never find a psychic who can give you answers to the decisions that are ultimately yours to make. With the three psychics in my own experiences that I think were positive in polarity, they weren't given, or able to receive, information that could have violated my free will. The most I was able to get from these three or four was a confirmation of things that I had already figured out for myself. The irony is that our friends do this all the time for us for free.
If you have close friends, hopefully of both sexes, you will find that if they are truly your friend, and truly close to you, they will "read" for you. They will give you suggestions and confirmations of what you are pondering and will let you know when you are fooling yourself. This natural process of "reading" was shown to me clearly one Saturday morning after playing tennis with my friend Dave, a mental health counselor. He and I have been "reading" for each other for years in the normal course of our friendship.
With the other twenty or so psychics I went to, here is what I found. In addition to listening to their higher selves, they also listened to what most of them referred to as their "spirit guide" or "guides." I believe several of these “guides” were negative entities from a higher service-to-self density. I think the most common source of these guides were negative discarnate entities from the Astral plane. It became very obvious to me that they were from some form of the Dark and weren't positive, service-to-other types. I also discovered that these “guides” that I believe were from the Dark always have an agenda, even if it takes years to show up!
Let's look at some of the aspects and characteristics of what a typical reading from one of these sixteen looked like. Just like the three or four readers that I thought were positive, these sixteen usually used cards of some sort. They would invariably tell me many things all throughout the reading that they knew that I would want to hear, that they knew would appeal to my ego. Sprinkled into the reading would be statements of fact that were very accurate, intentionally designed to give the reader credibility. In my opinion, this information was being telepathically given to these psychics by the Dark, who have access to the Akashic Records of all things that have ever happened. The Akashic Records, also known as the Hall of Records or Universal Mind, exist in another plane. The Dark, as well as entities of the Light, have equal access to this "library" of sorts. A Dark entity looking into the Akashic can literally tell you, or describe to you, anything, and I do mean anything, that has ever happened in your past. I once was told the exact words used by an older cousin when she was faced with the difficult task of telling me at nine years old that my mother had just died. The specific information being told to you is designed to make the psychic appear accurate, and to impress and hook you enough into coming back for future readings.
One of the tip-offs that the psychic is listening to something other than him or herself is that they will often make mention of their source during the reading. It may be only once during the reading, which is one of the reasons I advocate always taping a reading. You will hear them say, "He said," "She said," "They said," "Spirit said," etc. If you ask the psychic whom they are referring to, as I always have, he or she will often tell you it's their guide or guides, or my guide or guides talking to them. The problem with this, again, is that, per Ra, because of the law of free will, positive entities don't go around assisting psychics in doing personal readings for people.
The common way that a psychic gets hooked up to a "guide" that is a Dark entity posing as a positive entity usually happens like this: The psychic will be meditating, and an entity will come to the psychic, often with messages of love and the offering of its assistance. This new "spirit guide" will often tell the psychic that by letting him or her assist in the readings, the psychic will be able to help people much better than he or she could in the past. If the psychic has been exposed enough to books or classes of study that teach the lie that "evil exists only in the minds of men" and believes this, then a connection is easily made. In this case the psychic foolishly thinks that every entity that it connects with must be a "spirit guide" to help him or her. When this happens, there is usually no attempt to challenge or discern the polarity of the entity claiming to be their “guide.”
We now have a person who may have had a limited amount of ESP all of a sudden looking very psychic, because he or she now has a negative entity telepathically supplying detailed information. These psychics are usually encouraged by the “guide” to start charging for their services. It is only a short matter of time before they discover that they can charge between $30 and $60 or more for a half-hour reading.
The psychic may have also been a well-intentioned person who truly understood that there are positive and negative entities and simply got fooled when he or she went to challenge this “guide” that offered to help. Understand that in either scenario, that "guide," which is really a Dark entity, is going to build up and play upon the psychic's ego and encourage the psychic to charge money. The negative entity knows that as soon as the money starts flowing, the psychic is less likely to question things. I have seen this many times. Many of the psychics that I went to would only accept cash. This leads one to wonder how much money they were reporting to the government. Obviously, if the psychic became known for being accurate or good then he or she could conceivably quit his or her “day job” and go full time into being a psychic. This process is happening all the time with increasing frequency.
Let's go back to a typical reading. Remember that I said that the negative entity posing as a positive "spirit guide" always has an agenda. Let's examine this. The process is very much the same as what happened with the channel FORM that I went to. Under the guise of helping, the Dark create havoc with people's lives. The negative entity, through the psychic, will, over time, sew fear, doubt and confusion into the person being read. Incidentally, when I say over time, I mean that the Dark have infinite patience. They can wait for years to start their agenda, while they talk about things such as love, health and relationships. The psychic often isn't even really aware of what is happening. This is also the case when someone is channeling a negative entity for him or herself, not trying to be a psychic, foolishly thinking he or she is connected to his or her "guide."
After the person being read starts to trust and rely on the readings, then the negative entity will start its agenda. It will advise the person being read to do things such as get a divorce, quit or change jobs, move to another state, etc., when none of these is in the best interest of him or her.
The "spirit guide" who is whispering telepathically into a psychic's ear is infinitely patient. It also can and will remember anything it has previously told you. In fact, if you go to another psychic who is also being fooled into using a "guide," the new “guide” and psychic will know every lie previously told you! It took me a while to figure this out, but I found that the forces of Darkness are literally all linked together. They seem to have their own telepathic internet.
I also found it not unusual to have one negative entity "guide" inform on another about being from the Dark during readings. I had to go to the two psychics involved several times to catch the planted misinformation and to conclude that both psychics were listening to a Dark entity.
If you are conversing with an entity or channeling one, and you haven't challenged it properly, preferably with a very strong service-to-others type group behind you, the odds are overwhelming that your entity is of negative polarity. I don't care how fancy a title it has, or how many lessons of love are coming from it; you may want to challenge it again, or for the first time. Understand that if it is indeed a positive entity, it won't mind being challenged. It is extremely difficult to make contact with positive polarity entities. You must be very much a service-to-others type person in your own personal polarity and then be doing a very high degree of seeking for them to make contact with you.
When innocent or naive spiritually-seeking people go to psychics or allow a "guide" to start coming to them, they can cause themselves tremendous grief. There really isn't any way to estimate the damage that happens when people make the mistake of allowing themselves to be misled by the Dark. Quitting marriages, jobs, and moving when it's not in your best interest all have their prices. The ultimate price, or what I would call the worst scenario of the Dark's posing as positive "spirit guides” through readings or channels, is death.
About five or six years ago, when I still worked at the dental lab, I came home one afternoon, which I virtually never did, to find an interesting talk show on local TV. The Kathy Fountain Show featured interviews with local people of interest. This particular afternoon Fountain had four guests, three men and a woman, who called themselves the Overcomers. I decided to tape the show. The guests talked about going to the "next level" and overcoming their needs for such things as coffee, alcohol and sex. They had left their families eighteen years earlier to follow their two leaders.
I showed the tape to several of my friends who were interested in learning more about discernment. I told them that the interviewees showed all the symptoms, in their answers, of people who were listening to a Dark channel. Not once did the four "Overcomers" mention the word love. They acted very smug and elite, as if they knew things that everyone else didn't. In every case in the past, where I found that the Dark had someone fooled, I noticed the Dark had built up the egos of those they had fooled.
I was saddened to learn that these four spiritually seeking people were part of the Heaven's Gate group of 39 that took their lives on March 26, 1997. My knowingness had told me years earlier that they were listening to a Dark entity. I also believe it wasn't a coincidence that I viewed and taped that TV show that day. It was part of my education from Spirit about the Dark.
Anytime the Dark can confuse or disorient a positive soul into taking its life, this is the ultimate of the Dark's agendas. The Dark always have an agenda each time they get someone to write something for them, or each time they come to someone posing as a positive guide. They are also very patient with their agendas -- the Heaven's Gate group was started in '75. The forces of Darkness gain every time they snuff out the light of a positive person on Earth. Whether they succeed in doing it temporarily or permanently, it is the Dark's never-ceasing agenda. The following was added in 2007. I wrote earlier in this book about a metaphysical reverend who was channeling the Dark and who once sent me powerful and affective healing energy when I needed a serious operation. I recently learned in the past year and a half, that both she and the man who channeled the entity called FORM, have died. He was in his mid forties and she was in her mid to late 50s when they died. I don't know the particulars of either death, but my "knowingness" tells me that the Dark was involved with their early deaths. For years they both had been fooled and used by the Dark. No doubt the Dark didn't want them writing or telling others what they knew once they learned the truth.
I want to make a few comments on the subject of mediums, people who claim to communicate with the dead. I don't buy it if they are claiming any on-going dialogue over any period of time. The reason I don't buy it is the same reason I know that "spirit guides" aren't coming to assist from the Light, and that is the same free-will issue. If someone from the dead is communicating on any regular basis with someone alive, it would end up interfering with the lessons and Karma the living person has to work through on his or her own.
I have been told many stories of people getting one last impression or message from the recently departed, and this, I do believe, is real and okay. When I say recently, I'm talking within about a year. One of my closest cousins, Charlotte, lost one of her sons in a drowning accident in the Pacific many years ago. She and several of her family needed some kind of closure on this, and months later it came in the form of a dream, but not to someone in her family. The woman who had the dream was a friend who hadn't even met the son who was lost. She described him as appearing in white robes and telling her that he was happy and all right. Charlotte got some solace from this, but her husband and daughter got even more.
One of the last areas involving the Dark is the area of attachments. I strongly recommend anyone wanting more information on this subject to read Peck's accounts of possession and exorcism that are contained in People of the Lie. I have witnessed and assisted healers in the Bay area with helping remove Astral plane entities attached to people who didn't want them. I helped by directing love energy to the healer and the person wanting the attachment removed. The healer could visually see the attached entity. I couldn't, but sensed its presence. I noticed a pronounced change in the people's personalities when the unwelcome attached entity was removed. They immediately became more positive acting and sounding.
The last area where I also believe that Dark entities exist is in the area of abductions. There are dozens upon dozens of intelligent, rational-thinking Americans who are totally convinced that they were abducted. They tell of accounts of several hours of time missing in their days or nights. Then, when they are put into hypnotic regression, they tell similar stories of short, gray-colored aliens with large, cold-looking black eyes examining them. The further common denominator is the fear and remembrance of being helpless and in pain at the hands of these aliens. It is my belief that these abductions are real and the work of the Dark. I have met several responsible and sincere people in the Tampa Bay area who have claimed to have been abducted. The only thing they gained by telling me their stories was the possible risk of appearing foolish. They weren't, and they didn't seek any limelight. I counseled them on ways to avoid future contact.
Yes, evil does exist in the minds of men, but it also exists in many other forms, on Earth and in the Universes. Evil has no hold over people who choose the Light and service to others. I could also describe these people another way: They are very loving. Love always has been, and always will be, the strongest force in the Universes.
Chapter 12, Connecting at 70 Miles Per Hour
I never did find out who I am through psychics. Over twenty psychics told me that I am a watcher, a master, a grand-master, an ambassador of one of the constellations, an angel and an archangel, among other things. Every one of them described me as an "old soul." I had concluded by my knowingness, long before going to psychics, that I am indeed some kind of an old soul, and I'm comfortable with that. I think I am also a Wanderer, because it resonated with me when I read it for the first time in The Law of One. If I'm wrong, and I were to find out someday that I’m an old third-density soul, that would be fine, too.
As for finding the mate that I will spend the rest of my life with, that hasn't happened -- yet. When it is the right time for it to happen, I'm sure it will take place. I could easily write several chapters on the runarounds that I got from psychics on this issue of finding a mate. It wouldn't have been so bad if they were just runarounds, but there were several instances where the bad advice I was given, prior to my figuring things out, did cause myself and others some major grief at times.
So, all in all, I learned that regardless of who we are, regardless of how rich or poor, young or old, it is up to each of us to make our own decisions and choices that guide us through this life. Nobody is going to get the answers from psychics, myself included. The only answer will always be to go within.
Since I just touched on the subject of old souls, allow me to make some wrap-up comments. If you followed what I was writing when I was describing Wanderers in The Law of One, you have figured out that there are really two types of old souls presently on the earth. There are the old-soul, third-density-type people, who have incarnated hundreds of times here on Earth, who have learned how to love and forgive, and are ready to be harvested into fourth density. Then there are the Wanderers that Ra tells us are souls from fourth, fifth, and sixth densities who are in third-density bodies at present. These Wanderers are subject to everything that any other third-density human is subject to, and they must also love and forgive to make it into fourth density. As I look among my friends, and my relatives, I am not for a second going to entertain the thought of who is who. I can't tell with any total certainty and neither can anyone else. Any old soul, regardless of whether he or she is of third or sixth-density, should be happy to be on Earth as we approach the exciting changes and opportunities that will occur as our planet changes into a fourth-density planet. One final comment to anyone who thinks he or she is an old soul: If indeed you are one, you are here to set an example and assist in the thousands of ways that mankind can evolve and become more loving. It is never something to get your ego inflated over. To put things into perspective, go out and grab a leaf off of a tree, and then ask yourself how many leaves there are on the trees on Earth. When you get your answer, that's how many old souls have come before you, and that's how many will come after you here on this earth. Being an old soul is never being greater or better than. It is simply being older than others. All souls will eventually get there.
With what I learned about psychics, channels and how the Dark can come to people posing as the Light, I ended up significantly reinforcing my earlier beliefs that the Bible has been tampered with. Does this mean that I don't read it? No, I do read it, but I use common sense and my intuition when I do. I know why the Old Testament is full of fear and talks about things such as "an eye for an eye." I prefer to read the New Testament, which talks about love instead. I know by my knowingness that the Christ I love is the same Christ that fundamentalist Christians love, but I will never believe that humans who don't accept Christ will not make it to "Heaven."
There are, and have been for hundreds of years, Asians, mostly Buddhists, who have never heard of the name Jesus Christ, yet they live lives of loving and service to others. The Native Americans who roamed America for centuries also didn't know of Christ. These peoples, for the most part, were also loving and peaceful and served others. Since the time of Christ, there have been millions of souls who have walked this earth who didn't hear about Christ, and it is illogical for me to believe in a God who would have punished them for not even knowing!
I recently heard a Sri Lankan Buddhist monk, Bhante Y. Wimala, speak here in St. Pete. Bhante's messages of wisdom on many subjects, especially love, weren't essentially any different from Christ's. I also read his Lessons of the Lotus, a beautiful book on the spiritual lessons he has learned in his travels. Everything in his book was based on love. Now I'm not advocating that we all go out tomorrow and become Buddhists. That's not what I am saying. Nor am I claiming to be an expert on religions. I am only saying that I was impressed with this particular Buddhist and his book. They were both teaching love and service to others, exactly what I found in The Law of One. He came to St. Pete, and I don't think it was a coincidence that I heard him speak.
I am, however, suggesting that all organized religions focus on what I call the basics of true spirituality (true spirituality is my term, not Ra's) as outlined in The Law of One. Things such as really teaching to love all mankind equally and unconditionally, and not just those people who are worshiping alongside of you. Things such as truly practicing the Golden Rule. It would also be a great benefit to all mankind if organized religions would teach not to judge each other and truly learn to forgive each other.
A few years back I got bored being a dental technician and went back to college to earn a teaching degree. I taught emotionally handicapped public school children and some juvenile delinquents. My kids often got into arguments over minor things, and sometimes before the day was out weren't sure how it all started. I told them about the Hatfields and the McCoys, two families in rural America who started killing each other over some kind of dispute, whose later relatives couldn't and didn't remember how it all started. My advice to organized religions on Earth is the same as I give my kids: forgive and forget. It's powerful healing for individuals as much as it is for large organizations. Ultimately, love is love, regardless of what language it is spoken in. God is far too large to be contained, let alone contained in, or by, any one religion, or sect of a religion. No organized religion on this earth will ever convince me that the one and only Creator, God, wants anyone to kill another in his or her name. If something is not love based, it's not from God, and it is fear based. If it is fear based, be wary. That's usually the trademark of the Dark.
We are all one! Every human on this earth is my brother and sister, even those in prison for murder. Every alien in space, both the positive and, yes, the Dark negative ones, is also my brother and sister. Every animal and plant that is alive is also a part of me. Ra says that the Law of One is practiced throughout the Universes. It's now time we started practicing it on this earth! None of us is any better than the next person; we are just at varying levels of learning and experiences. I urge everyone, especially those in organized religions, to read The Law of One and discover for yourself that not all aliens come here in peace, and that the Dark has gained tremendously from the confusion and distancing that organized religions have brought to humankind.
I'm not saying don't go to a church or belong to a religion. What I am saying is recognize that everyone on Earth is your brother or sister, not just the people who sit in your church with you. If you do go to a church where the lessons are always about sinning, fear and retribution, instead of loving, caring and personal growth, perhaps it's time for a new church. I wouldn’t hesitate to try many churches or perhaps a Buddhist temple, in order to locate a place where love and forgiveness and self -empowerment are being taught. The main thing is to find a church where love is genuinely practiced and not just talked about, and where fear and judgment are not to be found. For many people, simply being out in nature by a body of water or in a forest is their church, and that’s fine, too. Spirit is everywhere.
I have talked a lot in this book about the subject of free will. Until I read the information given by Ra, I didn't really understand the subject, or how it applies to us. Since this earth is a planet that is literally quarantined, so that souls can come here and choose whether they want to be service to self or service to others, neither side will come to you unless you seek them. Neither the forces of Light nor Dark can get involved in your life, unless you choose for them to be. I am not going to tell you how to connect to the Dark, but I will tell you how to connect to the Light, and stay connected.
In thirty five years of seeking the truth about spirituality, I know beyond a doubt that going to a church isn't required to connect to Spirit. (Once again, if you are currently going to a church, and it meets your needs and nourishes you, then continue to go.) What does matter is choosing to connect from your heart. When Christ told people that to get to heaven they must be like a child, he was talking about having the sincerity and unpretentiousness of a child. The amount of time spent worshipping is also not the issue. You could spend hours a day on your knees praying and never connect to Spirit.
It doesn't really matter where you worship. What does matter is that you make a spiritual choice. If you are moved by the messages of love and service to others that Christ, Buddha and others have been imparting to mankind, then connect to Spirit, in service to others. This means living a life where you are practicing the things that they did, and doing it all from the heart, not out of fear, but out of love for all mankind.
Connecting to Spirit can be done anywhere, and I do mean anywhere. You can even drive down the interstate to work in the morning, for ten minutes a day at 70 MPH, and connect just fine. Obviously, if praying means to you closing your eyes, don't even consider driving and praying. However, if you can pray and drive with your eyes open, turn the radio off and just be in silence. Start by saying the Lord's prayer, and if you find yourself just mouthing the words, start it all over again. Then simply say your prayers as though you are talking to a good friend, which is what Spirit is and more, of course. Here is the most important part of all of this: to connect to Spirit, and I will also call it the Holy Spirit or God, you must make a statement, of some kind, asking for guidance in your words, from your heart. For example, you could say "Dear Father (Spirit, Lord, God, Creator, or whatever you are comfortable with), in every affair of my life, large and small, known and unknown to me, show me what is in my best interest." Or you could say "I surrender my will" or "guide me." A simple "Show me the way" will work. Any statement that is you speaking from your heart, said anywhere on a regular basis (daily is nice, but don't chastise yourself if you get too busy and forget a day), making a choice to allow God and Spirit into your life, will change your life. It involves putting your ego aside and letting Spirit guide your life for your greatest good. It can also be expressed as "Let go, and let God."
When a person makes this choice with sincerity from the heart, his or her whole life will change. The reason that his or her life changes is because Spirit will literally start to guide every aspect of his or her life. We have our higher self guiding us, but this higher self, which is our instincts, is not the same as Spirit guiding us. Remember what I said earlier: The word Spirit means God and his or her angels and spirit guides. When you choose to connect to Spirit you start receiving help from Spirit. This help will come to you 24 hours a day and will be in many different forms. When you asked God to show you the way, you also gave permission to all of God's assistants to enter your life. Without your permission you limit the amount of help that God will send you, because of free will!
The help you will receive will literally be in every aspect of your life. A lot of it will come in the form of feelings and thoughts about things. For example, in most cases, you will find yourself eating healthier foods and taking care of yourself more. When you are at the market shopping or simply thinking about what you desire to eat, you will find yourself "guided" into making the choices that are in your best interest. It is very subtle guiding, but you will find things in your life flowing with ease. Bad habits, and any addictions, will simply fall away from you, and, if you look back, without any real effort on your part. Be prepared for a few miracles, for I promise they will start taking place in your life.
In addition to being and feeling guided you will feel the warm feelings of a love energy which is with you always, even on those days that you might act a little less spiritual. Walking a spiritual path for most people is often a two-step-forward and, occasionally, one-step-back proposition. On those days that you don't feel very spiritual, you are just as loved and guided and protected. Spirit has infinite patience. It will wait for you and never judges you.
Everything I am writing here is what I have personally discovered and put into practice. I know it works. Remember, in order to connect you must do it from your heart, not your head, or nothing will happen!
Chapter 13, Reincarnation, Karma, and Meditation
As I have written earlier, I have no doubt that reincarnation is the way that things work. Let me share some thoughts on reincarnation and the related subject of Karma. For starters, we have already "been there and done that.” Anyone attracted to this kind of book has most likely been many nationalities, been both sexes, and had numerous occupations in many previous lives on Earth. There is a reason that our previous history is not made known to us in this present incarnation, and it's a simple one: We can't handle it. It would be nice to think that we have all been royalty in all our past lives, but that's not realistic. Reality and common sense tell us that some of us have no doubt been criminals and have not always done the right thing. Sorry, but the odds that we were all "saints" in all our past incarnations aren't that good. I'm mentioning this because it's been my observation that we are better off not knowing our past. I only recommend doing hypnosis and past regression work when every other mean to solving present incarnation problems has been exhausted. For most of us, to find out who and what we were would get our egos too involved and would most likely hold us back in this present life. For example, if you did find out you were very wealthy in your last lifetime, and are just making ends meet now, it would be hard now not to be resentful.
Some thoughts about things I have learned about Karma: As you may already know, Karma is an old Sanskrit word that essentially means that all of our thoughts, emotions and actions eventually come back to us. Karma is a balancing of things. I've learned that it is a universal balancing. This balancing is not just of individuals, but of entire nations. Often we get upset with what we perceive as a lack of justice in this plane of existence, but the Universe never forgets. If you intentionally think harm or do physical harm to another, unless that entity is willing to forgive, or Spirit "graces" you out of the issue, that Karma will have to be balanced one day. I've experienced what happens when I did balance some Karma issues in this lifetime. I discovered that in that fleeting moment we get the answer to "Why is this happening?" If we stop for a moment and reflect on what we have learned, the Karma will be balanced and gone. I found that Spirit never rubs our noses in it, regardless of what we have done. It literally takes about thirty seconds to a minute to do what I have come to call "owning it." Once you own it, and acknowledge the lesson, it's not repeated again.
Another thing: It is not your imagination -- all things are speeding up, including the time it takes to balance Karma in this lifetime. I've noticed Karma in our present lives is speeding up with each passing year. A careless thought or intention, that a few years ago might have taken a year to come back to you, may now fully cycle in only days or weeks.
My knowingness told me that Karma stays on the books for several lifetimes for the best opportunity to balance things out. I also found this confirmed in The Law of One and other sources. Someone once asked me why Spirit allows children to suffer? Spirit immediately presented me the following scenario so I might answer the question. Imagine a civil war battlefield where the Union and Confederate armies had just fought a battle in some woods. A soldier got separated from his unit and was by himself and came across one of the enemy lying on the ground with a bullet wound in his shoulder. The separated soldier, seeing the wounded enemy on the ground, who didn't pose any threat to himself, had the choice of walking away and leaving the enemy alone to be found by his own army. However, this separated soldier was very angry at the enemy and, seeing this wounded enemy on the ground, took his bayonet and stabbed the already wounded soldier in one of his legs. He did this out of pure meanness. The wounded soldier on the ground recovered nicely from the bullet wound in his shoulder, but the bayonet wound in his leg was very deep and got infected, and he lost his leg. That separated soldier who bayoneted the enemy out of meanness, when he wasn't in harm himself, reincarnated a few years ago. He was the three-year-old who lost his leg in a car accident and must experience what life is like with the loss of a leg. To have been a soldier in a war not of one's choosing hasn't ever been the cause of anyone's Karma. It was the free-will choice to harm another that required the balancing.
There is no right or proper way for everyone to meditate, to find peace and answers. I have learned that there are things that are in common with most of us. For instance, I always advise keeping pencil and paper handy in your bedroom, for Spirit often chooses this not quite awake time to communicate. It reminds me of the old expression, "I'll have to sleep on that." I have found that I often receive the answers to things that I have been pondering when I first wake up. Sometimes the answer is in words, sometimes in a feeling, and sometimes both.
I find that the key for me to get an answer on anything is how much do I really desire the answer, or am I just sort of curious? The greater my sincere desire to know something, the more I increase my chances of being shown the answer. Be open to receiving answers anywhere and at anytime. It would be nice if my answers came to me when I sit down to do what I call a formal meditation, but that seldom happens to me. I get my answers driving down the highway, brushing my teeth, watching television and in a whole host of other activities.
One thing I always do when I sit down to meditate is take several very deep breaths, with the emphasis on exhaling slowly. This calms and settles me down and allows me to relax. I also often prefer to have a background sound, such as a babbling brook, ocean waves or wind chimes. I usually will meditate when I first get up in the morning; that is when I like to be still. The main goal of meditating is to be still and to get in touch with yourself and with Spirit, so as to achieve peace -- and not, as many people think, to receive specific messages. To quiet your mind may take weeks and months, and don't get discouraged or disappointed if you don't have success at quieting your mind at all; some people don't.
What I really like to do when I have the time and the cooperation of the weather is to walk and meditate. I am cognizant of where I am, and of traffic, but still can get very relaxed by the walking process. I also prefer to walk alongside water if I can. Whether it is the beach or a small pond, it seems to help and soothe me.
There is no one way that is best for everyone. You will just have to do a little experimenting. There are many good books on the subject. Bhante Y. Wimala has a great section on meditating in the book I cited above, Lessons of the Lotus. Keep focused on achieving peace with your meditation and don't spend any thought or time on whether you are getting any messages from Spirit. If you are choosing to connect to Spirit, don't worry; you will receive messages and information in many ways that are best suited to you. This I can promise you.
Chapter 14, Thoughts and Observations About Our Future
In the late '80s I found myself drawn to several books about Edgar Cayce. My friend Joyce was convinced that he was among the most accurate of the people who have made prophesies about Earth's and mankind's future. When I read Cayce's predictions about large Earth changes, such as quakes and the earth shifting on its axis, at the very moment I was reading these things I had a knowingness that some of these things could take place in my lifetime. I remember it as a sort of sad feeling that stayed with me for weeks. This sad feeling led me to seek the truth as to whether these predictions would come true. I had a very strong desire to know the truth on this issue, so I wondered for weeks about it. I got my answer in the form of three very powerful and memorable dreams that came to me three nights in a row. Before I tell you what was in the dreams, let me tell you about the intensity of them.
It was as if I almost had never dreamed in my life before these three. Imagine watching a television where the sound and the color were just so-so. Perhaps faded is a better choice of words. Then someone comes along and turns up the sound and adjusts the colors so that they are extremely vivid. This is what they were like. Along with the intensity of seeing, and being in the dream, was a remembrance of the most minute details that have stayed with me to this day. These three dreams left no doubt whatsoever in my mind that if Spirit wants us to know something, or communicate something of significance, we will most certainly get the message.
The first night's dream had me in an old house by the bay here in St. Pete. I spent what seemed like hours exploring what things were in the house, unconcerned with who owned it, and felt that what I was doing was okay. When I came out of this house, I looked across the street and saw that the bay had risen by several feet above the normal high tide and was starting to flood the streets. I felt detached and without any fear or emotion as I witnessed the bay rising. What also stood out, that separated these dreams from others, was that I was totally alone. There were no voices, cars driving by, barking dogs, any of the normal noises to be found in a neighborhood. The next evening I awoke to the same kind of dream, feeling detached, and with nobody in the dream but myself, this time exploring a different house on the highest ground in St. Pete. When I came out of this house, after several hours, I saw where the Gulf had risen and St. Pete had become an island. The third night was a much shorter dream; same detachment and solitude, but I was shown the corner of a lot of one (I don't know which one, just knew it was one) of my New England cousin's homes. The ground had dropped about 20 feet, exposing fence posts and tree roots. My knowingness told me that the third dream was to show me that the water rising in St. Pete wasn't from a hurricane. It was to show me that these things had come from widespread changes to our earth.
In the approximately twenty years since these three dreams, I have periodically asked if these things will still occur. Today, my knowingness gives me the message today in 2009 of possibly or perhaps. I live across the street from Tampa Bay and can throw a rock twice and hear kerplunk so obviously I'm not living in fear of this taking place. Cayce clearly stated that the variables that determine the probability and severity of any future Earth changes depend on the thoughts and actions of the masses. If enough of us on the planet learn to love, first ourselves, then others, we can eliminate many predicted earth changes or reduce their severity. They will also lessen in direct proportion to our ability to focus on positive outcomes. I'm not going to go into this subject here at length, but in a nutshell, all thoughts are things! Events in our world literally happen by what we all think. This principal works for individuals and it also works when individuals are in a large group. When we are in a large group it is called collective consciousness. One thing that I'd like to point out is that the water rising in my first dream was slow and not sudden. This ties directly into what Cayce said too. He said that "If" we have Earth changes that produce water rising that they would take place gradually. Here in 2009, I read a book about Cayce's predictions of earth changes in the late 30's. It seems that at that time that he was making these predictions he was having difficulties with an unknown entity trying to come through him when he was in trance. He and his group of followers made the decision to not accept the entities assistance that was offered. You can safely assume it wasn't a positive oriented entity.
There was a time back in the early '90s when I used to subscribe to a newsletter put out by a person who made predictions about earth-changes. This person would predict gloom and doom for our planet each month. When I started to understand collective consciousness, I stopped subscribing. I did this for several reasons. To begin with, I realized that I was lending my portion of the collective consciousness towards the gloom-and-doom prophesies that kept coming with every issue. It was affecting my ability to be positive. I also reasoned that since I read a newspaper everyday, and watch TV news on an occasional basis, I am fairly aware of world events and could see my own big picture, which I have.
I think that we may experience some changes to the Earth and the possibility of the Earth shifting on its axis slightly, but I know that with positive prayers, thoughts and actions, we can lessen these things considerably. In addition, my knowingness tells me that we are not going to undergo any major Armageddon-type catastrophe, such as an asteroid or worldwide nuclear warfare destroying all of us on Earth.
Earth changes are occurring for essentially two reasons: To balance the earth's energy fields, such as the magnetic fields around the world as the earth prepares itself to be a fourth-density positive planet. Second, the earth-changes act as a catalyst to coerce some of mankind into making a choice between service to self and service to others. Natural disasters always bring out the best and the worst in people.
We are also told in The Law of One material, that the "harvest" of third-density souls into the fourth-density positive planet Earth is predetermined to become, will occur around 2011. The Mayan calendar stops in the year 2012 and the Incan in 2013. It should be pointed out that some researchers on these two past civilizations believe the dates could be off by a couple of years. I don't for a second believe that these dates all being in the same span of time is a coincidence.
Not all the significant changes to mankind will come through earth changes. Every year we will see more of the truth about all things that affect us being shown to us. As the truth is shown to us these truths will bring about significant social changes in how we all live and get along. Everyday I witness more and more disclosures about the real truths of things in every aspect of society. The exposing of the tobacco companies is one example. Not only did many in that industry know for years that their product was addictive, some even tried to find ways to increase the nicotine in order to increase the addiction of the smokers of their products. We are going to see many things exposed for all to see, because society is going to evolve and become much more open. Eventually, all the activities of the Dark will be exposed to the light of day for those who will have the eyes to see.
Ra states that the "harvest" will be around the year 2011 and that the great majority of Earth's present inhabitants will have to repeat their third density incarnations all over again. That means that the self-serving, self-centered, so-called "evil" people of today will no longer be a part of the earth's population sometime in the future. The timing of their departure wasn't given to us in The Law of One material. What we do know is that they will repeat the lessons of third density on some other third -density planet, but not Earth. What I don't know and what isn't stated in the Law of One, is do these individuals who haven't obtained 51% in service-to-others, or the 95% in service-to-self plateau required to be taken into a 4th density negative society, leave Earth by the winter solstice (December 21, 2012) in some cosmic moment of judgment of sorts, and just disappear one day? Another possibility would be that perhaps as the energy of 4th density after 2011 becomes so intolerable that these service-to-self types will just gradually die off. If they do just die off after the planet itself has turned into a fourth-density planet, nobody can say at what rate or time frame it would take place in. The only thing I do know is that they most likely will be leaving within my lifetime. I also know that I will walk the streets of the capitals of the major countries on Earth in my lifetime in total peace and safety, that much my "knowingness" tells me.
In the meantime we are currently witnessing some of the worst aspects of our society. To some extent we are seeing a decline or disintegration in our country's and world's society. Whether it is in the field of health, education, judicial systems, social services or political systems, to name a few of the major systems of society, they are in decline and often barely function. Everywhere we look, we see corruption and injustices foisted on mankind by the service-to-self types. A very wise retired army colonel that I had the pleasure of knowing and loving in the past once commented to me that the dirtiest word in our language wasn't four letters, it was five letters. The word, he said, is "greed." He was totally correct.
There are enough resources on Earth for all its inhabitants to live comfortably. We could wipe out hunger overnight, and much disease, and certainly poverty, if we didn't have greedy people in so many places on Earth running things. According to Ra, the evil service-to-self types will get worse before significant changes occur, meaning that all these systems we just mentioned will break down further before they really change. Every fiber of my body, my knowingness, tells me that the meek and loving will inherit this earth -- within my lifetime. I also know that there is an abundance of people presently living on Earth who possess the knowledge and willingness to solve mankind's problems if given the chance. Stories of people helping people don't sell newspapers, so we will tend to hear more about some of the most evil members of our society for a while longer.
When we think of evil people we immediately think of the Hitlers and Stalins, but you don't have to kill millions to be in service to self, greedy or selfish. When a CEO downsizes a company for sheer profit, with no consideration to the displaced workers, that is also evil. CEOs drawing absurd salaries in the multi-millions that they can't even find ways to spend are doing this for pure greed and to feed their ego. Again, I say this is a form of evil. Both kinds of CEOs are affecting the lives of hundreds, or thousands, of employees that, because of evil and greed, may be forced to make a choice between adequate health care for a family member or putting more nutritious food on the table. Their greed is affecting the quality of the lives of their fellow human beings, period. It's a long way from the message that Christ gave us to love our fellow man as we love ourselves.
An excellent analysis of this philosophy of greed is Michael Lind's essay "To Have And Have Not" (Harper's, June '95). Lind says, "The American ruling class spares no pains in promoting the belief that it does not exist." Doesn't that theme have a familiar ring to it? Sort of sounds like the old "evil exists only in the minds of men." If you really desire to know why, how and by whom things are really run in America, take the time to find and read this essay. It’s timeless.
You will also find many service-to-self-type people in occupations that are normally considered to be service to others, such as organized religions or health services. On a regular basis, we hear about priests serving themselves by using their positions of trust to exploit others, along with doctors sending patients to hospitals and services that they own and profit from. Service-to-self-type people are literally in every segment of society. They are in every occupation and every economic bracket.
I’ve discovered that the most evil service-to-self people I have personally met are among the most charming and outgoing. Seriously, this has been what I have found. If you spend a little time around them, you quickly discover there is no sincerity to them. The charm is strictly a smoke screen. It always reminds me of Christ's Sermon on the Mount, Matthew 7:15, where Christ is saying, "You will know them by their fruits." Meaning, forget how much people talk the talk. The only real question when dealing with people is, Do they walk their talk?
Chapter 15, Putting it All TogetherThroughout this book, I have tried to stress that true spirituality, as outlined in the material given to mankind by Ra, always involves free will, or choices for people to make. Because of the Dark's historic influence on individuals of power and influence in organized religion, many people think of God as being judgmental and vengeful. God never was and never will be. God, Spirit, or whatever name you want to assign him or her is pure love and light and always gives us free will.
This planet is going to become a place, around 2011-2 or shortly afterwards, that will only support beings who have learned, and put into practice, a very high degree of consistent, loving nature. Between now and the "harvest," it will be increasingly more difficult to sit on the fence; each person must choose between service to self or service to others. There will be many who will think and say that God isn't giving people free will. Anyone who takes the time to read and to understand at least the first volume of The Law of One will know that the law of free will is the only way that things are ever done by God, without exception.
If you choose to connect to Spirit, with your heart, you will always be guided to be in the right place, doing the right things, at the right time, that will be in your best and highest interest, between now and the harvest. Most importantly, if you truly let go, and let Spirit guide your life, you will never experience any fear throughout these upcoming changes.
Fear will be one of the main ways that will cause people to exit their present incarnations. Many people who choose not to connect to Spirit, or connect from their heads and not their hearts, will perhaps eventually, as events continue to speed up, find themselves living in a constant state of fear and worry in the future. Fear and worry are among the primary causes of such diseases as cancer, heart attack and stroke.
Perhaps many of the service-to-self types may go to extreme lengths to try to survive these upcoming times, but they probably won't survive. I was given an analogy, or illustration, several years ago about this subject. I was told that the service-to-self-type person who goes to great efforts to build his or her home on a mountain to avoid floods, and puts it on springs to cope with possible earthquakes, will most likely just die from a microbe instead. My knowingness tells me that ultimately more of the service-to-self type of people will most likely exit this earth from bacterium and viral causes than physical earth changes. I don't view it as a coincidence that bacterium are mutating faster than mankind can create antibiotics or that there are extremely lethal viruses present on Earth at this time. When people choose to connect to Spirit, one of the first things I notice about them is that their diet starts to change. Your diet directly affects your immune system.
- “Nothing will benefit human health and increase the chances for survival of life on Earth as much as the evolution to a vegetarian diet.”
- - Albert Einstein
- (bite size einstein: Quotations on Just About Everything From the Greatest Mind of the Twentieth Century,compiled by Jerry Maher and John P. Holms, St. Martin’s Press, 1996, P.10)
It’s very important to stress that the Dark will employ any trick it can to nullify or neutralize any service-to-others polarized person in the years ahead. I’ve read the Dark’s writings for well over 30 years now that refer to “Ascenscion.” When the Dark uses this term and talks about people ascending, they usually refer to ascending to higher dimensions, and don’t use the term densities. I’ve read channeled material from the Dark that also tells Lightworker/Wanderer types that one day UFOs will appear in great numbers in the skies of the Earth and that they need to make a rapid decision to go aboard these ships in order to ascend. In my opinion, the Dark will perhaps appear in our skies one day in the future to try to get people to willingly choose to go aboard their ships. I will tell you point blank, I wouldn’t advise anybody to board a UFO without careful and deliberate considerations before doing so, and certainly never be forced into a hasty decision to do so. The harvest into fourth density that the Law of One talks about, doesn’t refer anywhere at all about having to make a hasty or quick decision. Remember, if you willingly board one of the Dark’s UFOs, they haven’t legally violated your free will if they take you away from here and you’re never heard from again. I would strongly advise you to never make the mistake of saying “Scottie, beam me up.” By using those words or similar words, you might find yourself being beamed aboard one of the Dark’s ships.
Let's talk a little bit about what service to others really means. Does this mean that in order to be in service to others you need to change career fields and become a nurse, teacher, therapist, counselor or some occupation along these lines? No, it doesn't. These fields would be considered by most as service to others, but merely being employed in a service-to-others type field doesn't make one service to others.
First of all, the term "service to others" is from Ra. Perhaps the easiest way to explain this term is to use the teachings of Christ, but understand that others, such as Buddha, taught the same basics. Christ was telling mankind to love God with all your heart and to love your brother as yourself. For most people, picturing God as good and then loving that God is easy. It's loving all mankind that is more difficult for most. It means to love all people without judgment or prejudice of any kind. It's also called unconditional love, because you love without any conditions being set.
My knowingness has told me that forgiveness is an essential third ingredient in attaining the level of love that we will all need in order to be part of fourth density. What I am about to say next is extremely important. Notice I said level of love, of service to others. Nobody, on a third-density planet, with the possible exceptions of individuals along the lines of Christ, Buddha and Mother Teresa, is going to be at or near 100 percent service to others. Therefore, there will be many who, although they are partially service to others, may not achieve a high enough degree or level of service to others to make it into fourth density. If we think about it, this makes infinite sense, since none of us, with the possible exceptions just noted, are all good. We can all improve our ability to love and forgive, and will need to! Ra states that each of us will need to be a minimum of 51 percent in service to others in order to be harvested into fourth density. Ra also states that the amount of love that this 51 percent represents can and will be measured. I don't understand the minute details, but it is along the lines of the more we love, the higher measurable frequency that we become.
Back to the subject of forgiveness. When Christ was turning the other cheek, he was demonstrating a major concept. Regardless of what another has ever done to you, or against you, learn to understand and realize that that was where that being, or soul, was at at that particular point in their evolution. You or I may have done something just as distasteful and horrible in our own pasts (or past incarnations) in the process of learning and getting to the point where we are at now, so how can we possibly judge another? The other aspect of this lack of forgiveness is that the hatred, animosity or contempt you feel for the person who harmed you will not affect him or her particularly, but will manifest, instead, in yourself as a disease, especially in the years ahead. A good analogy would be to swallow poison and then expect the poison to affect the person who harmed you. My knowingness tells me that the inability to forgive will be one of the major reasons people will hold themselves back. I can't stress this enough.
By now you are clearly seeing that service to others is a lifestyle of loving and really has nothing to do with your chosen occupation. It means that before you think, say or act, you consider the others around you. It means being kind, considerate and compassionate towards everyone, without ever judging or trying to have any power over him or her. It doesn't mean that you can't have material things or be wealthy. You can, but not at the expense of another.
Ra explains it in societal terms, that higher civilizations (fourth-, fifth-, and sixth-density civilizations) serve and assist all those below them. The Dark service-to-self civilizations, in these same densities, conquer and enslave those below them instead.
Service to others is all about choosing to be connected to a God that is pure love and light. Fourth density, which the earth is changing into, is the density of love. All the evolved and enlightened beings in mankind's history have been trying to tell us that love is the answer and the way. Perhaps Paul, in Corinthians 1:13, described the importance of love the best: "If I speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body so that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."
I want to talk about prayers, affirmations and manifesting what we want in our lives. Laws govern everything in our Universe, and often we aren't aware of them, or we take them for granted. Flowers open and close in response to light, and apples fall down, not up. The list of these laws is remarkable as well as virtually endless. One of the areas that is just really coming to be understood by many is the law of manifesting, also called the law of attraction. Much of what Christ was talking about was just plain misunderstood. He was talking about the laws of the Universe. He knew them and used them many times, such as when he created the loaves and fishes.
When I first heard, many years ago, that all thoughts are things, and by our very thoughts we create our personal realities, I was skeptical. It took years, and reading numerous metaphysical books, before I truly understood and believed in this concept. Whatever your mind focuses on over a period of time is what you will manifest and bring to yourself. This Universal law works whether it's sickness, personal wealth, or, collectively, world peace.
If you wish for something with any doubts or reservations you will never get it. You need to turn that wish into a focused desire. Then turn that desire into your will, and then keep strengthening your will. Last, you must believe and know it will happen. Examine what happens when you tell the Universe a wish statement, such as "I want a better job." The Universe will honor your statement and go, "Okay, we understand and hear that you want a new job." Simply stating you want a better job will put nothing in motion and nothing will happen. Instead, turn it into a positive affirmation, such as, "Thank you Spirit for guiding me to the better job that I know is on the way." All your thoughts, words, and actions, over time, are constantly bringing to you what you state. So be very careful not to pray from lack, such as I wish for food, I wish for better health, I desire a new car. These are all from lack and the Universe will simply acknowledge that you don't have them, and that you wish for them, and that is all. Remember when forming prayers and affirmations it is necessary that you believe in, and know, that the statement is true. They can't be prayers or affirmations that you want to be true. This is why I constantly use statements thanking God for things ahead of time. I have read dozens of books and thousands of words on the subject of positive thinking and it really works.
Hopefully by now you have come to understand that the Dark most certainly do exist, and do have agendas. They hold no power over anyone on this Earth and aren't allowed to. The Dark have technology far more advanced than we currently know about, or understand, and could have conquered and enslaved Earth's population eons ago if it weren't for the fact that they aren't able to. In a nutshell, Spirit won't let them. Spirit insists that you be able to have total free will and choose the Light or the Dark on your own, without any outside interference.
If you have a dream or any other situation where you think the Dark are bothering you, and you want them to stop, here are some of the ways to do it: If you will command them away in the name of Jesus Christ, and mean it when you do, they will leave or stop. I can't emphasize enough that you must know with 100 percent certainty that it will work; otherwise it won't. You need to know or have faith that it will work. Remember I said earlier that 99 percent faith is still fear. It needs to be 100 percent. Although I have stressed throughout that there were other masters besides Christ, he is the most known to western-world people on Earth, and that's why I recommend using his name in these situations. I command the Dark away from me every day in my daily prayers with this statement: "I command all uninvited influences and entities to leave my presence in the name of Jesus Christ."
Another way to keep the Dark away is to send them love. I incorporate in my daily prayers a "thank you" to all my guides, past, present and future, for their assistance, and then I send them love: "I send unconditional love to all my guides, past, present, and future, but no greater love I send to my guides than I send to all entities, in all Universes, that have any thoughts about me whatsoever." I then stop and literally think and send love out, without any conditions, for about ten to 15 seconds. It works; the Dark system, which is an absence of love, desires no contact with anything having to do with love. Never lose sight of the fact that nothing is more powerful than love..
I know that some things I have written will upset some people. I haven't written a single word with that intention. I have simply written the truth as I know it and as Spirit directed me. The only channeling I did in writing this book was of my higher self. On every word I have asked Spirit for guidance. Several times I have written and rewritten things until my higher self, my knowingness, said that it was how Spirit wanted it written.
Ra states that Spirit has constantly adjusted the influence on mankind between the forces of Light and the forces of Darkness. It's done with the idea of keeping Earth as neutral as possible between the systems of service to others and service to self. I know that this book, which will teach discernment to those who will listen, will assist in this balancing. There are many on the earth today who will start to talk about and teach the concept that we are all one. My knowingness tells me that it is time for the law of one to become better known.
“A human being is part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. We experience ourselves, our thoughts, and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty… We shall require a substantially new manner of thinking if mankind is to survive.” by Albert Einstein, from the book Bite-Size Einstein: Quotations on Just About Everything From the Greatest Mind of the Twentieth Century, compiled by Jerry Maher and John P. Holms, St. Martin’s Press, 1996, P. 10)
I have purposely left out the names of my ex-wives, who probably wish to remain anonymous. I have used the first names of several of my close spiritual friends, with their permission. I have made up no characters or information; this book is intended to be totally non-fiction. I took the liberty of changing the name of the channeled entity FORM and the man who channels him. I also changed the name of the deceased attorney in chapter three.
I also want to say that I ask Spirit for a blessing for every soul who has ever been engaged in organized religions in our world. I have nothing but the utmost respect and admiration for anyone who feels or thinks that they are helping humankind's spiritual growth, even if I don't agree with his or her views.
I ask the same blessing for those psychics, channels and authors who, through reading this, may discover that they, like myself, have done some dancing with the Dark. I know beyond any doubt that the overwhelming majority of these people for whom I ask this blessing had good intentions and were doing what they thought would help others. Indeed, in many cases much of what has come through from the Dark has helped humankind significantly. I can think of several of their channeled books on love and relationships that contain a very high percentage of Christ-consciousness truth. My advice is to take the lessons of truth and profit from them; just understand the true facts about evil. It is a tremendous irony that the Dark, who have an absence of love, have given so much information on the subject to mankind and will continue to do so.
I humbly suggest to those who keep looking for contact from higher intelligence to ask why, out of the billions of stars in our heavens "they" haven't made contact with us. Then ask why we haven't picked up the first radio signal from higher life forms. I suggest that, as Ra states, we are a quarantined, third-density planet that is intentionally isolated. I think time will show that mankind was contacted, and the date was January 15, 1981, when the first of The Law of One material came through. Although we have been given other channeled information that was from Christ-consciousness, service-to-others sources, they all pale in comparison to the significant data of the Ra contact.
To those of you who will take this information in this book and may be eager to share it with others, do so gently, and please, no "I told you so's." When I say do so gently, I request that you use the utmost of consideration and good judgment as to whom you share some of this information. Some things contained in this book, especially taken out of context, could hurt someone's feelings and worry others.
For those of you for whom this book will spark growth, let me leave you with one of Joyce's teachings to me. She told me, "Every time you plant something, and something beautiful grows, it always starts with the ground having to be broken up first." Sometimes growth involves a little discomfort.
Human nature being what it is, I anticipate that some that read this book will desire to contact me. They would do so for me to help them discern whether a particular book, psychic or channel is from the Dark or the Light. Honored, as I might be that you would seek my help, please don't contact me with these questions until or unless you have really put forth the effort on your own to figure them out. There are several reasons why I request that you try to solve things before contacting me. To begin with, to answer your questions would most often violate your free will and keep you from learning and experiencing lessons you were meant to experience. Secondly, I have given you the tools within this book to do your own discerning; that's one of the main reasons I was directed by Spirit to write this book. Last, if we should meet someday, please understand that I, like yourself, am on a spiritual journey. I have not reached my destination and consider myself to be a work in progress. Put me on no pedestals, understand that I'm not perfect, and like you, I'm a spiritual being having a human experience. If this book has helped you understand how the Dark works and operates, please do yourself and others a great service by simply telling and passing the knowledge you have now learned about the Dark on to others who have expressed an interest in knowing the truth. Don't under any circumstances force this material on to others who haven't given you clear permission since that would be violating their free will. There may be purposes in the way of learning or balancing of Karma that you don't see or realize as to why another being is currently dancing with the Dark.
Last, never lose sight of the fact that we all possess the ability to find all our answers by going within and listening to our feelings. We simply need to choose to listen. Connecting with Spirit is simple and was intended to be. Finally, remember at all times that God is pure love and light, and that you are always loved by this most magnificent of all forces that has ever been or ever will be.
If you have a burning question that I haven't covered or just want to say hello, please write to peterwnewton@aol.com and include the words, Are You Seeking in the subject line so that your Email won't be mistaken for Spam and accidentally deleted. Please do understand that I am still working and am not retired and therefore have limited time to answer queries.
Through the years I have read literally dozens of books that were channeled to human beings from the Dark. I truly wish that I could give you a list of some of the more popular of these books, but for legal reasons I'm not able to. Several of these books channeled from the Dark contain many truths; in some cases about 95-99 percent of the material is the truth. Hopefully, when you read a channeled book, when the Dark is the real source, you will be able to distinguish the truth from the lies. Take what resonates with you and helps you. I've given you enough information about these books so that you should be able to spot the majority of lies.
Please realize that I am not suggesting that you read every book or author that I recommend, only those that resonate with you. If you pick one up at a bookstore, thumb through it and ask your higher self if the book is right for you, and then listen to your feelings. I have not put these books in order of significance or importance, for to do so would be an impossibility for me.
The very first book about spirituality that I read was James Allen's As A Man Thinketh. Small and easy to read, it essentially says that what we think is what we become.
Dr. Raymond A. Moody's Life After Life is high on my list and is probably still the best on what happens after we die. Two other good books on the subject of life after life are Betty J. Eadie's Embraced by the Light and Dannion Brinkley's Saved by the Light.
The Law of One: Book 1, also known as The Ra Material, by James Allen McCarty, Don Elkins and Carla Rueckert, is a book for which I have hopefully wetted your appetite. You can find this book at some metaphysical bookstores, but I’ve never seen it in the large chain bookstores. Hopefully, as more people become aware of this tremendous book, that will change. You can obtain it directly from the authors as well as the other volumes of The Law of One series. The address is, L/L Research, P.O. Box 5195, Louisville, KY, 40255-0195. You can also reach them at www.llresearch.org If you get them online, be sure to open up their “library” page, as it is a wonderful source of related materials you will probably enjoy. Carla L. Rueckert's A Channeling Handbook can also be ordered from L/L Research. I can’t emphasize enough the significance of this book for those who wish to channel.
Carla finished her wonderful compilation of notes and letters from Wanderers she has communicated with for years, in a book called The Wanderer’s Handbook. This is a quite unique book that will speak to the hearts of those who feel like spiritual outsiders, alienated, and alone at times. I highly recommend this book. This book and all books from the folks at www.LLresearch.org are available through them for purchase and one can read them for free on line if you lack the funds to purhase them. In addition, the folks at www.LLresearch.org have recently here in 2009 just added another site dedicated to helping Wanderers connect with each other called www.bring4th.org
When you find The Lost Years of Jesus Revealed, be sure the author is Rev. Dr. Charles Francis Potter, as there is another book by the same name. I have read and looked at numerous books on this subject and still find Dr. Potter's to be among the very best.
From Elsewhere: Being ET in America, by Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., will be fascinating reading for those of you who know that you are from elsewhere, and feel less than comfortable on Earth at times. I’ve had the privilege of reading in manuscript form his latest book, Universal Vision: Soul-Evolution and the Cosmic Plan. It will be released any day now and is simply awesome. Mandelker is one of the few authors in America who understands and sees the “big picture” of what is taking place in spirituality. I wrote that The Law of One is not easy to read and takes some work in understanding portions of it, and this is where Mandelker is a tremendous help. In Universal Vision he talks about a variety of timely topics, but he also takes a lot of the material in The Law of One and shows how it really is applying to us today. In other places he simplifies some of the more complex information and puts it into words that the average person can understand. Universal Vision is a must for those who have read The Law of One. You can find both of Dr. Mandelker’s books in mainstream bookstores and you may also order them from him direct at, Scott Mandelker, Ph.D., 2130 Fillmore St., #201, San Francisco, CA 94115, or online at, www.universal-vision.com
Lessons of the Lotus, by Bhante Y. Wimala, is not only a great book on spirituality and love but also an insight into much of what Buddhism is all about. It features a foreword and endorsement from His Holiness the Dalai Lama.
The Celestine Prophecy, a work of spiritual fiction by James Redfield, is a great book to read when you are just starting on your spiritual journey. It talks about auras and energy fields around things, and the fictional story does a wonderful job educating people that coincidences aren't coincidences. This particular book by Redfield is a classic and you will find it a quick and easy read.
My three favorite books about Edgar Cayce are There is a River, by Thomas Sugrue; Many Mansions, by Gina Cerminara; and Edgar Cayce: The Sleeping Prophet, by Jess Stearn. All three have something to offer.
People of the Lie, by M. Scott Peck, M.D., is simply the very best book on the subject of evil. Like so many of the books that have impacted me, this reached me via a unique path. An acquaintance had bought it and had it in her bookshelves unread for over a decade until she and I met.
Two fabulous, easy-to-understand books are I Had It All the Time, by Alan Cohen, and The Seat of the Soul, by Gary Zukav. Both authors possess that rare ability to take metaphysics and spirituality and explain the subjects in plain English. The common sense analogies that these authors use are sometimes amazing.
Another insightful author is Joel Goldsmith. Both Spiritual Interpretation of Scripture and The Infinite Way are a little on the deep side, but if you’re inclined, very useful.
I recently read and recommend Ethics For The New Millennium, by His Holiness the Dalai Lama. His Holiness is telling mankind in this beautiful and humble way that love and compassion for one another are needed now more than ever. Much of what he says can be found in slightly different words in The Law of One. Although His Holiness is the leader of one of the largest organized religions on Earth, there is no selling of Buddhism in his book.
Lastly, two of my all time favorite books are Sand and Foam and The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran. Gibran was a brilliant old soul whose words of wisdom are simply timeless.
These are some of the most significant and helpful books that have been placed in my path. I'd like to also highly recommend a magnificent movie called, The Secret. It is a movie about creating things using the law of attraction that literally will change your life. I will recommend that you find a copy of this movie and view it often. May Spirit always guide your reading list and bless you in your quest for the truth. Namaste, Peter